#rantofthenight

Why why why....? Why must your child be "married" in order to have the freedom any teenager/adult should have?!? Yes I understand some parents meet for 3 months and get married already... But that's not the path of all relationships and getting married does not mean people can do whatever they want or that they are a responsible adult. Its like they prefer that you meet a stranger than tie the knot and respect that over dating someone for 6+ years and working on long term goals together. Almost seems like some parents respect 19 old married couples and give them their freedom as an adult way more than a 27 year old legally single son/daughter who wants to live in their own as an adult. Wtf is life?!?! I don't get it. Hmong ah Hmong ayyyy.

To be with someone so long and realize they never told you they loved you.. I just don't understand how someone loves you and supported you more than anything and even I know I did some crazy things to you I did deserve to be loved.. I begged for so long just to hear that but never once did I but I made myself believe you did.. Like how did I completely lose myself and my pride and dignity. No man will ever be "my better half" because I know I can do this thing called life on my own but I just wanted a true ride or die to do this with. I completely give up on people. I have finally realized that you can count on nobody except yourself to be there for you or with you the next day or minute.. Life is such a crazy place and journey. I'm doing just fine on my own. I found myself again but holy fuck next time you stab me just leave the knife in don't pull it out.

I miss everyone.