Damn, it has been awhile since I have done an e-diary entry here (that’s it, that’s what I’m calling these rants that consist of my feelings and random crashes in my train of thought).  I’ve been back home for close to a month now and the weird thing is, I miss being back at school.  Or more like, I miss being on my own I guess.  I am trying to hang out with people that I graduated from high school with. Some of them are amazing people and I don’t know why I ever stopped talking to them.  Others make me remember why I cut all ties with people from high school in the first place, put my mind into a downward spiral filled with rage and sadness, and force me to turn to Tumblr to vent my frustration.
I am still trying to find a group of people who I know I can call my friends.  Isn’t that fucked up??? 21 years of age and I still can’t tell who my true friends are at a time when I need them most.  But no matter what, I’ll keep looking.  Partially because I am stubborn as fuck, but mainly because I can’t keep going at this alone.  Hopefully I can find that group of friends that actively wants to hang out with me and vice-versa. Â