#ranting ri

Is anyone even reading long ass stories like that? 😂 I’m thinking about posting it as mini-series if I ever finish writing and editing that monstrous thing 🫠 I have so many things to work on too T__T so I just keep whining about it

And I still haven't even figured out the logistics lmao I think I'll have to reorganize it to be posted as mini-series. Haven't had one for a minute, am I right?

Also, why is it always mini-series with me?? Can I write full-blown series? No? I am too ADHD for that? Ok then...

This is me every evening when I wanna do some writing. *yaaawn* I’ve been so dead in the past few weeks, it feels like years since I last wrote anything new. Also these days I fall asleep too fast, sometimes literally turning off before I can even change into a comfortable position.

But I think my urge to write will return as soon as I have some proper rest (to be able to stay up late again lmao). I have big plans for the rest of this year and for 2022!! No life problems or toxic people can prevent me from succeeding >< Imma eff ‘em up if I need to!!

My life seems to be taking a turn for the the worse again… This job was supposed to be my recompense for the hell I went through at my last one, however, it quickly became a new kind of hell. And since the damn pandemic is still making job hunting super hard (and slow!!), I have no idea how many more months of this crap I have to endure 😩

Am I the only one who thinks writing is easier than editing?

Let me get this straight... I know what it’s like being unable to lay it out on paper,  entirely impotent. I’ve struggled for (almost?) a decade with what I’m now calling my writer’s coma. It’s not writer’s block when it takes you that long to make a comeback... And I still don’t know what caused it 💔 All I do know, is that it makes you feel like you’ve had your wings clipped. I’ve always had stories and ideas, characters – living, breathing, swirling in my head. Crystallizing that, getting it out into the world is the greatest feeling ever. It’s almost addictive. Right!?

Now, I do realize that my muse (I do call him that, for real) and I are kinda overcompensating for the years of... whatever he was doing [insert a prolonged glare here]. For the past year I haven’t been sleeping or doing much else but write. I wrote during lunch breaks. I wrote as soon as my work laptop was off. I sometimes wrote till 5-6AM on weekdays. I am that crazy writer girl, but you never know if (or when) this magic may run out. And the flow you’re in when you get it going is truly the most amazing and productive experience you can ever have.

Editing is very different for me. If writing is about creativity, editing is about logic, and thinking, and polishing... It’s about stepping out of your creative lair into the reader’s shoes and seeing your work. I don’t know about fellow writers, but it’s so incredibly hard for me to see the big picture... Maybe because I am so in it? I’m in my stories, and my stories are in me. Do you look at your own writing sometimes and go ‘Oh, I should’ve done this instead’ or ‘This phrasing doesn’t work’ or ‘How did I make it so unnatural’... It’s awesome when you have enough support to ask (get asked) and answer those questions before you post the final version 😅 But don’t forget to see and appreciate the things you excelled at. I’ll say it again – thanks a million to my dearest @technicallymilkshakes​ and @baekshoney​ who never fail to emphasize where I did great (apart from the aspects that need more work, I totally have plenty of those hehe).

This rant is actually to say two things. First of all, GOD BLESS beta readers, editors, supportive writer friends and everyone out there who takes the time to read our stories (sometimes multiple times) and soak in them to provide thoughtful comments, detailed feedback or simply the hyping up that we all need to stick with it. You guys are my heroes.

Secondly... Just wanted to whine about the past few days and how I was working on the fic, which I’m going to post for my writing comeback anniversary next week, while (simultaneously) finishing my first mini-series. And before I could be done editing both I jumped straight into writing a drabble for the series. Do writers have their own type of ADHD or something? Maybe it’s just me who’s ready do anything to avoid the 'post-production’ 🤪

Promise I will get those stories out. Someday. Maybe soon. Stay put 😂