I've recently just gotten back into Tumblr and I have started following all these amazing blogs. I see them post things like the colors, fruits, etc. tag where you send them in an ask about how you feel toward them. When I follow these blogs I feel like I get to know them and I'll sit here in front of my laptop thinking 'we could be great friends!' 'We have so much in common!' 'OMG I think that too!' and then I send the fruits, colors, etc. to people and they say they want to me to talk to them and then I realize how socially awkward I am, and how I don't know how to bring up a conversation at all. Whenever I send a message to someone I feel all shy, nervous, and not sure if it even makes sense. This is what I get for not really understanding how to make friends. I'm so pathetic. xD

Amy looked up at the stars thoughtfully and smiled. When she'd met Vincent van Gogh, he'd explained how the stars shined so brightly in his eyes that their light trailed all around them, painting patterns in the sky. She closed her eyes and inhaled deeply, breathing in the cool, clean air. This was the most relaxed she'd been in days and she was reveling in it. No more dark thoughts, just a million good memories to keep her company.

I honestly feel like I've lost my mind, and I'm really confused.....this is the first situation I've been in where I have NO idea what to say, or how to react, my dumb ass usually has something witty or bitchy to let out. What do you do when the girl who is never speechless just loses her voice? I mean my life just got back to normal and here my jolly ass comes and shits all over it. I need to take my own advice, honestly all I ever do is get myself in this same situation...can I just be alone?

I have come to the conclusion that being a real fan isn't how long you've been supporting them, it's that you know that they didn't start with WMYB, they started with Torn.