#ramblingsofjp

My mom babysits my crush's son every Tuesday. Yesterday was the second time he "forgot" to bring money for my mom. I put forgot in quotes b/c I think he did it on purpose. I was at my register when he came in carrying his son. I said hi & I figured he was doing some shopping. I was surprised when he came straight to me. He gave me the money for my mom & I said hi to his son. His son cutely said hi & waved. He asked his son if he was gonna say bye & he said it with a wave. As they were walking out, his son waved & said bye to everyone. At first, I figured he genuinely did forget, but, when I got home, I jokingly said that he "forgot" & my mom thinks he did b/c the first thing he said to her was, "Is Dana at work?" I've told him how I feel & he said he likes me but he doesn't think it's like that & he's not really looking for someone right now. I was thinking he doesn't like me like that b/c he doesn't always respond to my texts & hardly ever starts a convo. Yesterday has me thinking differently though. Am I silly for that?

One of the other cashiers, who I've gotten to be friends with, said me & my crush would be cute together. I thought that was cute of her to say, but, it made me a little sad b/c I know he doesn't like me like that.

Having a friend you can vent to is really nice :) Although, it sucks a little when said friend is your crush who knows how you feel & he doesn’t feel the same. Or so he says. When I let my feelings be known, he said “Well to be honest, I’m not really looking for somebody right now.”, “I don’t want you to be mad at me or anything.” &, “Of course I like you. I just don’t think I like you like that.” Is it stupid that I think he actually does like me like that, but, he said he doesn’t b/c he’s not quite ready? (He has a son & I don’t think his relationship with the mother ended very nicely. And it seems it was mostly on her part.) Of course, I actually find a nice guy... so close but so far away. Ugh, with my luck, why am I surprised?