#ramblesauce

That was your first and final warning.

So I should probably preface this with a little bit of preface-y stuff. A good many years ago I used to watch Stargate SG-1 with my dad when it was on TV and new and all that jazz. There was one episode in which on character travels to a parallel universe/alternate reality/whatever and stuff is different but the people are the same. ((In short, yes.))

Ever since that idea has been planted in my brain I daydream about it all the time. Like, in some alternate reality I'm actually a boy ((and then I go on wondering what I would be like based off of my dad etc.)), or in another I'm actually dating [insert name of current beliked ((similar to beloved, but just liked. Yeah.)) here] and we live happily ever after, or in some other reality I don't even exist, in another I'm actually really awesome at [insert activity here], or whatever else. You get the point.

This is all well and good to imagine, and I'm pretty sure a bazillion other people do the whole curiosity/wishful thinking thing, so that's not the important part at all. But really, I'm always daydreaming about stuff, and now I'm starting to wonder. What if I should be doing something great right now? I mean, I'm always thinking about it, but then I dunno, I comfort myself or whatever with the belief that somewhere, in some alternate reality what I'm wishing is true. So I might be great somewhere else, and that's good enough.

But it's not. I don't want this to be the reality where I daydream all of the time and sort of have a life that's pretty average and whatever. I want to do things. Just thinking about them isn't really okay, because I want the actual me to be doing it, not some other me somewhere else!