#rafamara

don't mean to pressure you, just letting you know that I will read it because I NEED IT

(hehe i rhymed)

SO TRUE

im ngl its been a shit few weeks and im in the academic trenches rn so tragically i must say Not Yet. but SOON! im hoping ill have a free evening this weekend and i can finish it then

but this ask made me happy and is so lovely so ... did i share any snippets yet?

here is a work in progress:

Rafa nodded, trying desperately not to read into those words. She also tried not to read into the way Amara hesitated, but it was clear as day that she was lingering, her arm near Rafa’s elbow, her fingers half-extended, the breath before the reaching. In fact, it was apparently so obvious that Elro noticed. “You shouldn’t keep her waiting, Mars,” he said abruptly.  Rafa watched the way his eyes tracked Amara’s motions, watched his brow furrow in either anger or hurt. But it was soon quite hard to care about how the ice boy felt when Amara leant a little closer, and then, at Rafa’s immediate smile, pressed a kiss to Rafa’s cheek. Rafa suppressed her shiver, and her instinct to reel Amara back in for a kiss that was a little more thorough, and squeezed Amara’s hand only once before letting go. “I’ll see you later?” Amara asked, her cheeks stained with beautiful blush. Rafa nodded, sure her own cheeks were an embarrassing shade of pink.  “Catch you later Mars,” Elro added, a little too forcefully.

oh and if you want the unedited, unpretty planning....

The teasing is *mwah* chefs kiss

I need more of it.

let Melvira and Merrit tease their sisters

Rafa wearing the lavender in her hair? THATS SO GAY AND NO ONE’S METIONED IT

AHHKIFTKJGFJNBFGBNFDNKGU

my new fave thing is getting asks about them actually ARGHHHH

love this. theyre so goddamn adorable and im NEVER getting over it

Rafa & Amara are currently going through their first argument arc and it is equally parts funny and interesting. Because when it comes to why Dulcamara doesn’t tell Rafa things she fears will upset her has nothing to do with Rafa and everything to do with how she was raised and who she was raised around.

Amara was raised in the coven with the circumstances that no matter what she did people hated her anyway and no matter how good she got it didnt matter because even her own identity wasn’t her own. I also want to examine the interaction when it came to Amara telling Elro about the unthreading. When Amara tells Elro his reaction isn’t to ask if she’s okay or if she’s hurt but to immediately think about how this affects him and I think this may greatly display how most of Dulcamara’s interactions in the coven may have been.

Which would make sense why Amara is suffering with this so hard. I think one of Dulcamara’s worst fears I think is for Rafa to end up hating her for who she is especially given the fact that Rafa has seen so much of who Amara truly is inside without masks that unlike with others (including Elro) she has no masks to protect herself if Rafa decides she doesn’t like what she see’s and in many ways I think when the Rafa said she doesn’t want anybody harmed that scared Amara because if that’s what Rafa’s morals are how will she react to the assassination if she finds out.

I think Rafa is also going through a similar fear but in a different way. Rafa is going through a lot in her life currently but some of the best things that have happened to her recently was because of or was with Amara. I think Rafa cares deeply for Amara but I think her mindset is still half steeped into survival and I think Rafa’s current mindset is somewhat akin to better the devil you do than the devil you don’t.

Rafa cares for Amara deeply and sees much of who she really is inside but I think given Rafa’s fears and trust issues that Dulcamara could turn out to be another trick something else to hurt her and I think like Amara Rafa realizes she’s let Amara into her heart so much so she doesn’t really have any protections against that kind of hurt and I think given the presumably flippant way Amara views killing someone for power kind of parallel to her Uncle terrifies her. Rafa knows Amara and cares deeply for her but Rafa also knows that Dulcamara is good with masks and I think she fears a mask is being used on her and she wants to avoid being tormented with the face of someone she cares about again.