#radgulus

hello everyone!! i’m still struggling to decide on a new url. much thanks to the lovely elle @meropegaunt for this amazing banner. i am planning on moving blogs but i just can’t decide on what url to use so i thought why not do blogrates/compliments as a final going out with this blog. Just be patient as it will take some time to answer these but i will get to them.

must be following this nerd reblog this post (likes only count as bookmarks) vote in this poll for my new url send me an ask with what you picked

format under cut

So, I recently hit 300 followers on this new blog and I decided to celebrate with fandom blogrates/playlists. A big thanks to my wifey elle @meropegaunt for the beautiful banner. It might take some time to answer these since I’m allowing multiple options but I can’t believe I hit 300 already.

A few rules to follow first

must be following me

reblog this post (likes don’t count)

send me an ask with what type of fandom rate you want.

I will play also give you the option of having a playlist created from your name. if you would like that send in your name as well.

DC and Harry Potter are the fandom rates I will using this time. 

You can send two at max. For ex. you can choose a harry potter rate/playlist.

Underneath the cut are the fandom rates

if i’m going to restart my blog here my url options. i’m seriously considering this. also if you think i’m doing it for attention, you’re wrong and you can go fuck off.

parkinjson

godrijcs

elevhens *(current one) 

parriushs

I will be moving blogs once the queue for this one is up. i am going to deactivate this one. there is a lot of history with this one, good and bad. yes, i’m going to miss it but i’m doing this for the right reasons. i will make another post announcing where my new blog can be found. you can unfollow this blog if you want.

I feel like this needs to be said. I am a very kind person, I am a very open person and willing to help anyone in need if I can. over the course of twenty four hours or so, that has been put to the test. anyone who knows me, knows that I will try and do whatever I can to help you. ever since i was in high school, i was always known as the helpful one and the person that you could talk to about anything. i always try to be cheerful, helpful, and look to the bright side of the life. i always try to be in a good mood and willing to brighten people’s lives as i know the struggles they face.

however, there are times when that is not the case and over the course of twenty four hours, i encountered multiple breakdowns, crying fits, and feeling as though my trust was abused. i am not one to take these things lightly and with anything that i have face, i tend to take things out on myself. my trust was abused and i feel as though my feelings didn’t matter and that’s what hurt the most. it’s what still hurts the most. my feelings matter and when they aren’t taken into account, i feel abused and hurt mentally and emotionally. i am allowed to express how i feel and this is how i feel.

i am a strong person but every person has their breaking point and i have officially reached mine. i am struggling to even type this as i feel another breakdown coming on. this is not me looking for sympathy, this is me saying that i have reached a breaking point in which i can’t remain strong as people always view me. i’m always the strong one, the one who can handle things but this i just can’t wrap my head around. you think you know someone and then they turn out to be the complete opposite of what you thought you knew and that’s why this hurts the most.

last night was a rough one and one where i didn’t think i was going to pull through. a special shoutout to reb @radgulus for literally taking the time out to talk to me, help me sort through my feelings, and make me feel as though I do matter. it was a tough conversation, one with many tears but they never once made me feel guilty or ashamed of the way I was feeling. love you soulmate. <3333