#qwaynes

I didn't have much to think. Rather than knowing, I was in the process of harming myself again. I am still conscious while doing it. I tried to avoid or somehow face it but always returned to the same cycle. I can feel my attention span decreasing over time, and little joys in life didn’t work that well either. Yes, I can feel emotions and stuff today, but that does not guarantee tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow… I no longer like looking forward to my days, but I forced myself to. I can’t afford to slack at this crucial period. I have to win back my will. To survive this life, I have to take the shots and survive my mind first. The matters of my ideas and concepts are strong and overwhelming, and I must be stronger than any of them.