#questy words

I know you don’t know why I cry Neither do I I know you don’t know what’s wrong I’m not strong I know you aren’t concerned about me "She’s peachy" I know

I know you don’t care when my tears dry I’m alright I know you aren’t there when I need you I’ll get through I know you always think I’m fine I still cry I know

I know you say you’ll always be there I don’t care I know you say you know what I go through That’s not true I know you say you’ll stay close by You tried I know

I know you see me walk past Downcast I know you wonder - but only sometimes Hide my eyes I know you forget by Wednesday That’s okay I know

And I know you don’t know what Thursday is– "Get a grip" I know you don’t care oftentimes "No more lies" I know you forget me after that "Nice chat" You don’t

I know you don’t know what ‘close by’ is "No fibs" I know you go through other things Knotted strings I know you aren’t there when you say It’s okay You aren’t

I know you don’t think I hurt "You jerk" I know you don’t think like me "Don’t you see?" I know you can’t seem to understand "Be a man!" You can’t

But I know I am hard to find You’re right I know I can build high walls Doomed to fall I know it’s hard getting close to me You need a key I’m sorry

I know I don’t tell you what’s wrong "Keep me strong" I know I don’t tell you what’s in my mind I feel blind I know I always need to apologize Shout to skies I’m sorry

I know I am always scared Unprepared I know emotion strikes me with fear "Please be here" I know I don’t want you to leave Forgive me I’m sorry

Somehow over time it seems We’ve become halfway close; I’ll bother you from time to time You tell me all your jokes

But then there are those days & times When nothing is as it was; You stay with all the rest of them You’re actions signal: “Give this up.”

But you don’t get why I’ve stuck around Why I’ve always been right here; Still, even when you block me out, I’ll be here to catch your tears

You forgot what I said when we first met: “I’m safe when I guard my heart,” You left yours open, wide and agape, With the doors standing ajar

So now you ask, so unwittingly “Where did I go wrong?” And I stand right here, covered in tears, “I couldn’t keep you strong.”

You don’t recall, the least of these, Memories all absolved When I was your friend, feeling again, That I’d been leading you off

But now, old friend, I understand That you’re not as you were; I’ll be right here, on the frontier, Waiting on you, to serve

The mornings above,
 The evenings below, 
Before we shut that door?

Do you remember,
 Dear one of mine, 
Back not so long ago?

You kept me strong,
 I kept you safe, 
Before you let me go?

You said to me, 
Oh friend of mine,
 “You like to stay closed off.”

“I do indeed,” 
I replied in short,
 “It keeps me safe, does it not?”

You beheld me then, 
Dear one of mine, 
When I had been but scarred

You told me I was brave 
 And that I was only 
Just charred

For now when you see me,
 Torn in shards, 
I now finally see you I’ve been your friend For awhile now I know now what you’ll choose

You called me ‘bent,’ 
Dear one of mine, 
You told me I’d be fixed

That’s when you lied, 
Old friend of mine, 
When you left me broken, like so many sticks

You called me strong, 
I called you safe,
 Now I can see that we were both wrong

You told me you’d be with me;
 But now you’re simply just gone

I am here left still mourning you,
 Dear friends of mine, now gone– You set me up with hopes held high;
 The curtains have finally been drawn

Left on stage is falsehood,
 The lies that kept you safe,
 It seems to me you’ve vanished - A new project, now you chase

I was a passing friendship, 
Not even one worth the stop; 
A friend of mine I thought you were, You were the one who forgot

I don’t see why, 
Dear ones of mine,
 You needed to hurt me this way

When you have 
So many choices,
 Each varying day-to-day

You were my friend, 
Dear one of mine, 
I would have gladly died

For you, my friends forever 
For you, my joys-and-pride

Perchance you misunderstand, Dear one,
 And think me more than I am

But as you always meant, My dear, This was all part of your plan

You never meant to toy, It seems, With the loyalties of a “friend”

But by now it’s coming to be, Dear one, The middle of the end

Do you remember, Dear one of mine, What I said at the very start?

Keep your feelings in check, My friend, Don’t forget to guard your heart

I don’t want to see you hurt, Dear friend, Like I’ve been for many years

Don’t search too far, For I care too much To see you melt in tears

I guess this is goodbye, Dear One, I pray we meet again