#queer russian

as a trans guy from russia I often find myself so deeply scared of never being able to truly be myself, to transition at least socially, feel safe. I used to get jealous and anxious when I saw queer joy, because it made me feel like I could never have that, as if it'ssome luxury. though, now I find some hope in others happiness, like when I see someone my age being able to transition and live their life, I just know that I'm gonna make it out :^) I want other queer folks to know that this feeling of community got me (and many others I think) through a lot

so I live in Russia, and just last year I have created three poly trans OC and was very excited to make content about them... and then the new laws hit and now it's illegal to post ANY LGBT content. even on my very small channel. so I am sitting here and just infodumping to a couple of queer friends about my OCs