#queenuntouched

i. it all starts as innocently as their conversation. she looks at him & he’s once more astounded by how deep her eyes seem, by how happily they stare at him. there’s a part of him, although very small, that wants her to STAY, yet it is overpowered by a stronger wish to be left alone. his fianceé is certainly, reasonably, the last person he desires to see. 

                                                that’s why his answers are so short, so RUDE. 

                   even then she treats him with NOTHING BUT KINDNESS, her words soft & surprising.

                                                                ’ but i would save you. ’

& for once he’s left UTTERLY SPEECHLESS, his gaze glued to hers in a fickle attempt to gather his thoughts. such INNOCENCE, such … loveliness. her voice is WARM, & it is what she says that unexpectedly entes his veins, a FIRE, pleasantly burning each & every part of him.

                 he’s tries not to be as harsh afterwards.

ii. perhaps he should’ve tried HARDER, however, for he has undoubtedly managed to upset her. it’s not with intended cruelty he treats her with, but the RAGING STORM of emotions that lives inside of him doesn’t allow him to think correctly. lines blur & regret follows poorly thought actions. 

                  still she’s here, with him & his brother, WILLINGLY. 

( ’ she even smells nice. ‘ 

                                        ’ i know. ’  he knows. EVERYTHING about her is ’ n i c e ’. )

again her kindness shines, as she approaches the timid girl charles is supposed to marry. she speaks softly to her, with patience & UNDERSTANDING, & he then realizes how difficult things must’ve been for her, then & NOW. 

& he does not like it, but the way she talks makes something STIR deep inside him, makes him feels things he DOESN’T KNOW HOW to feel.

iii. he never meant to fall for her, he was not supposed to let his heart out of its GILDED CAGE. but like a fire she came, leaving CHAOS IN HER WAKE, like an avalanche, & he’s been buried underneath her power, & all he can see is WHITE. 

she cannot sleep, she says, & then her desperately wide eyes are flooded with TEARS, small fists hitting his chest. ’ why did you stay? ’, she asks, & he can’t help but notice how beautiful she looks, even when ANGER taints her face. having her here, UNHARMED, breathes relief into his body ( his soul. ), & he forgets, he forgets everything he’s ever said. his duty, olivia, his resolve to STAY APART, they all turn into ASHES & suddenly she’s turned into the MOST IMPORTANT thing in his life. so she asks, & he answers, gripping her arms to pull her closer. 

                                        ’ because i love you. ’  

                                                               & he means it. 

vi. there’s nervousness working it’s way through his body, hands at his sides & feet planted in front of the crowd. EXCITEMENT lingers in the air, between the people merrily chatting in expectancy, & inside him as well, underneath his skin, in his BONES. he’s dreaded this moment, then done EVERYTHING to ensure it happened, then had it TAKEN AWAY from him, only to be returned. he’s wanted it, wished for it, dreamed of it                     & now it’s finally HERE.

        so when he turns around, he wonders if what he sees is a FANTASY. another one of his dreams. 

it’s not in the way everyone whispers, not in the way her white dress makes her BLINDINGLY ASTONISHING & so full of light, not in the way she walks towards him. his heart soars as she SMILES, as her flesh meets his, hands meeting & letting him know she is real. letting him know she’s HERE. 

& he never hesitates, never doubts. neither does her, & her hand never trembles as she signs, as their destiny is SEALED TOGETHER in the eyes of god. 

        v. it’s almost unbelievable, how such simple moments can provoke the strongest emotions. 

she utters the words ( the ones he has been so EAGER to hear. ) & the world stops for a second. he’s still breathing, his chest still rises & his lungs still fill with AIR, but everything else has DISAPPEARED. his heart is filled with LOVE, with happiness & with HOPE. arms wrap around her frame & he lifts her in PURE JOY, sincere laughter he has not heard in a while leaving both her lips & his. because she is with child, THEIR CHILD. 

                  he has never been HAPPIER.