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Yesterday was officially the 8 month mark of me being alcohol free! 🥳🥳 I’ll be honest, it is really cool, but it is also reeeeally lonely. Most people don’t live like this and so you really have to find other things to do to relieve the stress on top of finding peace in knowing you’ll always be alone with yourself as well as your thoughts, but I am grateful to have gardening, cooking and to have writing because while quitting alcohol has been quite the success for me, in the year 2020, I’ve lost sooo many “friends.” As it turns out, they weren’t that at all. I found that I could no longer tolerate “loved ones” who were always jumping to conclusions, who were always very negative about life and lacked personal accountability and were always mad at my personal advancements as well as those who do the same.. - But hey, guess what though? I’m totally good with it. Good riddance, I say! It gives me more time with family because those are what I consider my actual friends anyway.. Sooooo, THANK YOU to those who choose to grow WITH ME. I fucking love you! This year hasn’t been easy by any means, with the fires and evacuating and then starting school and moving our homebase while in the ER! Ha! Just soooo much, but I am still so freaking grateful. I got to battle so many of my demons this year, but it’s taught me who the fuck ACTUALLY rides for me and that’s pretty fucking tight because I don’t know about y’all, but I reeeally like that shit. Anywho! Happy 8months booze free to me! Happy Friday to you!🌹✨ - - 🎨: @prettylilrenee @sublimebeautystudio 📷: @queenbeephotographyofficial - - - #MedicineMama111 #TheBestOfTimes 💫 #TheLoveInMyLife #QueenBeePhotography (at Boulder Creek, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CI8SOQ0glaJ/?igshid=111q577sel1p0

Once upon a time, I met this wonderful woman named Mya. We shared stories.. We shared laughs.. After meeting her, I felt called to write. Thank you for inspiring this, sweet girl! I miss you and I am SO PROUD of you! 🖤❤️ - - March 07, 2018 Pondok Denayu Homestay Inspired by Mya - - Today, I woke up. Today, I smiled. Today, I realized that life isn’t just about what we need or what it takes to fill our days to make it to another tomorrow. It’s not about anticipating what will come next or even how soon we will be able to rest. It’s about accepting the present moment and giving it your very best. It’s about staying true to you, no matter the test. It’s about the instability that drives you so mad you fall so hard you almost lose sight on what you thought mattered best. It’s about the tranquility you find within the chaos that allows you to remember what got you started even through the mess. You see.. If you hadn’t felt the madness.. If you hadn’t felt the distress, you’d just be another fucking human walking around in the same ol’ Abercrombie generic dress.. - - Keep pushing, babies! We got this! Xo @MedicineMama111 👸🏻❤️ - - 🎨: @prettylilrenee @sublimebeautystudio 📷: @queenbeephotographyofficial - - - #MedicineMama111 #TheBestOfTimes 💫 #TheLoveInMyLife #QueenBeePhotography (at Boulder Creek, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CISJb8JAuB0/?igshid=1413le0uq0ofd

I have been feeling called to write and share my writing again. So, here’s a little something I wrote in Gili T, Indonesia on February 27, 2018 - 06:51pm - when I was overseas bicycle touring. It’s definitely still veryyy relative and I’m sure, I’ll always feel some type of way when I read it, so maybe you will too. Here goes nothing.. ❤️ - - Everyday is different. Some days, I’m filled with life.. I’m filled with pure joy and excitement. Some days I’m drowning.. Drowning in homesickness.. Drowning in sadness.. And some days, I’m so fucking lonely I feel as if I could just die. But everyday, I smile. I pick myself up, and remember that living for today makes for another tomorrow. I remember that it’s not what I feel that makes it all worth while. It’s what I do about these feelings that changes my melancholy into happiness creating even more genuine smiles.. And at the end of the day, it makes these miles so much more rewarding than gathering feelings of sorrow. It’s the fake it ‘til you make it lifestyle that does things to your mental that keeps you floating with that notion of.. My day may have not been the best, but I’m grateful that I woke up today, and am able to dream of even more tomorrows. I get to live a life. I get to take another breath. I get to see, even if it’s just one more thing. In my life, I’ve lost plenty. From sudden deaths to suicides of many. Because of this, I remember why I keep pushing, why I keep living. I remember these people and what they left within me. I live for them. I live for me. I live for all of those who just cannot see just how beautiful this life can truly be. - - Xo @MedicineMama111 👸🏻❤️ - - 🎨: @prettylilrenee @sublimebeautystudio 📷: @queenbeephotographyofficial - - - #MedicineMama111 #TheBestOfTimes 💫 #TheLoveInMyLife #QueenBeePhotography (at Boulder Creek, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CH5nxlzgvud/?igshid=jdlv8qs8t5og

It’s been such a wild year, but man have I grown! I am so grateful. What a time to be alive.. ⛓❤️🕊 - - 🎨: @prettylilrenee @sublimebeautystudio 📷: @queenbeephotographyofficial - - - #rosieriott #TheBestOfTimes 💫 #TheLoveInMyLife #QueenBeePhotography (at Boulder Creek, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHW4UsoAllj/?igshid=dc6815e7kyen

Dem thighs don't lie..😝😈 @smokeysocks💕 #rosieriott #QueenBeePhotography #SmokeySquad (at San Jose, California)

Sometimes ya gotta get a little dirty.. 😈😈😈 @pushtrees 🙏🏻❤️ 📷: @queenbeephotography13 What a damn good time we had! Can't wait to shoot with her again! ☺️ #rosieriott #QueenBeePhotography #PushTreesClothing (at San Jose, California)