#pupa project

"I-I DON'T DIE!! YOU!!"

As everything came to a head, as the world was caving in around her, crashing and burning, as sound jumbled in her mind sounding like laughter and sneering and threats and clocks and music and whispering… Blythe lunged for a butter knife sat on the edge of a table.

Pupa Project now has both an Instagram account and a TikTok account!

New asylum platforms! Why not go explore? >;3c

I wanted to make a little mini announcement to open the door to you all!

Thanks to a lovely friend giving beautiful beautiful amazing constructive criticism, I reevaluated Amaryllis’ color palette and have fixed her colors to be even more gorgeous and stunning!!

However, I want to take this opportunity to make something very clear when it comes to the character design of both Amaryllis and Cassandra!

PLEASE DO NOT BE AFRAID TO GIVE ME CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM OF THEIR DESIGNS!

I think we are all very aware I am a pale, sickly, victorian white man BAHAHAHA I am not Nigerian, I am not Vietnamese. So please never be scared to offer constructive criticism if you feel their designs could use improvements!

Amaryllis and Cassandra are crucial parts of the asylum narrative. The majority of asylum inhabitants across all time periods have always been women, women of color, and specifically black women. And this still persists to this day. While Pupa Project draws from personal experiences, I refused to make a cast of all white characters no matter if this story takes place in Victorian England and no matter if I, myself, am not a person of color. Because it’s just not accurate in the grand scheme of things. I try my best to share these sides of things through character designs and historical context even if it is not the main focus of the story. But there is no better way for us to learn than from actual people alive and breathing now.

I know the following of Pupa Project is still very small, but I want to make it clear now and forever, please never be scared to guide me on designing my characters! I welcome it completely, please never worry about being pushed away or discouraged if you bring up ideas on how to improve my character designs.

This is not just my story anymore. This is something for everyone. Everyone will always be welcomed.

(And also just a side note on this topic, if anyone ever in this community is unwelcoming towards their fellow patients based on race, gender, sexuality, disability, there is a spot in the dead house waiting for them. I will not tolerate ANY of that. They will be dealt with immediately. :) )

"Have you ever thought about killing yourself?"

"Yes yes… they'dlike it bett er tha tway! They'd li keit be tter! Yesss yessyes!"

-⏳🦋-

I am finally back at it! Working on one of the CGs for our beautiful Blythe’s Time Fragment ⏳🦋

I remember once my therapist growing up told me “No one ever gets help when they’re manic.”

Experiencing mania is really strange for me sometimes. Just like a depression, it’s hard to even realize that you’re experiencing it until you’re coming out of it. For the past at least 3-4 days, I’ve been hypomanic, which is the type of mania I get. Basically it’s mania that only lasts a couple days or weeks, shorter periods than full manic episodes.

When I’m manic, everything is just so so fast and so so overstimulating. My thoughts and feelings get tangled and I feel strained in my chest, however I also feel very excited and energetic and impulsive, but I don’t understand why. I talk so much and so fast and I say the same things over and over again and I can’t control it. I was talking to my mom for like thirty minutes just going in circles before I remembered we had errands to do so I managed to stop myself to go get ready. Later in the day when I realized what was happening, what I was experiencing, I told her, but I knew she already knew! My mom always tells me she knows when I’m experiencing my symptoms because she sees it in my eyes. My pupils get huge when I’m manic, or they get glossed-over and dazed when I’m psychotic.

I am on mood stabilizers, so the mania and depressions aren’t as bad as before! I rarely get episodes like these, but even with breakthrough symptoms, I am able to recognize what’s happening quicker and take action to cope better than I could without the medicine. Medicine never cures anything, it makes what you’re experiencing more manageable! Hypomania lasts at least four days, and I’ve found that my episodes typically last around that time or a little more closer to a full week.

I feel I am losing myself…!

I’m not sure if other visual novels do this, but I had the very cute idea of once in a while having dedicated sprites of two characters interacting! My favorite thing ever is drawing my characters, so I love coming up with tons of sprites! And these are examples of my duo sprites I had in mind! Instead of full cg scenes, sometimes a blessed duo sprite will appear! :D

I have some ideas of how I will execute it in the game, and I’m really excited to implement them!! I’ll be back to coding in July to finish the first full chapter! And I hope the second chapter will follow up swiftly after that :3c