#pumping log

For a couple days now I've had a dip in my mood after pumping, today was rough tbh.

According to a few sites I've read, this is actually a good sign that my body is starting to make the hormones needed to make milk!

My chest is incredibly warm after pumping, almost hot. The tingling sensations have started traveling towards my nipples now. My chest feels tight when I'm at work. Mood dips after pumping and massaging.

I've started to occasionally jerk off while pumping because I read somewhere that orgasms while pumping can help boost the hormone levels. I'm not sure how accurate that is, but I'm not complaining lol.

Whenever I'm high, my nipples get a phantom sucking feeling now. They really enjoy the rhythmic tugging from the pump. They beg for attention for the entirety of my high.

It's nice being able to be normal productive at work but immediately melt away into a needy little thing after a hit or two.

I wonder if I'll start leaking before the weekend? Probably not, but it's a nice challenge

Ugh my tits got tight just from writing this, time to pump again <333

I decided to buy some postpartum fenugreek and milk thistle supplements to see if that helps. Not sure I'll continue to take them though as I didn't feel well during the two days that I took them. I'm chronically ill and Disabled so it's entirely possible that was the cause.

I looked into breastfeeding and induced lactation reddit threads and feel comforted about where I'm at in this process. From my understanding, it takes around 3-4 months to see your first infrequent drops, which then transition to consistent "nipple discharge" (sounds gross but don't have a better name for it), then the final transition to actual milk. The amount of time that each step takes is 100% down to the individual body, which sucks because I'm impatient!

Some recommend to pump at least 8 times a day. If I didn't have to work, I would absolutely try that. Ideally I would like to get a pump that plugs into an outlet and be able to spend that much time pumping. The pumps I have are okay, I'm still happy with them as starter pumps. It's absolutely a feeling that I had to get used to. For those with sensory issues, it would suck to spend over a thousand dollars on equipment that they might not be able to stand the sensation of.

I also learned that some people take Domperidone to boost lactation, although it doesn't always work for people. It's not available in the US but there seems to be reputable online international sellers that some US medical professionals recommended (anecdotally). If I don't make the progress that I'd like in a year, then I might talk to my doctor about if that would be safe for me to try.

It's hard to keep a sexy outlook on inducting lactation because it's hard and exhausting. It's a glimpse into what having a baby is like. I have even more respect for gestational and chestfeeding parents because of this.

Listening to hypno and subliminal audios, and my partner being involved are the only times that I can actually sexualize the feeling of having my nipples messed with.