#pufffff

Work sucks. Couldn't figure out the problem so I got kicked off the project. Whatever.

I'm pretty much making no money since half of each paycheck goes into me just getting to work. How the fuck am I supposed to pay for shit v.v

Had to take my mom to an early morning hospital appt. for surgery where they found nothing, made my mom super nervous (which made me nervous) in the process. She suffered from amnesia after the surgery because of the sedative and didn't even remember what the doctor told her. She even thought he was talking to her when he was talking to the patient next to us. Nurses all looked at me like I was a fucking weirdo. I then had to repeat what the doctor's said about 15 times throughout the day.

Fuck schizophrenia.

I read The Fault in Our Stars by John Green...or rather I listened to the audio book at work (much easier for those of us who don't have time to sit in a quiet room and read). Book about teenage cancer patients did not brighten my mood. Don't get me wrong, it was a greattt book. I loved it. Just a gloomy subject for my already gloomy mood.

Food is being a real bitch lately. I was doing good, and being more healthy but lately stress turned me towards the dark side (they have cookies) and my weight has bounced back a bit. Fuck. It was soooooo hard to loose that weight and it wasn't even much. v.v pfft. Like anybody cares about that.

Annnddd acne. Your just being a complete bitch right now. I have bangs that cover my entire forehead, but do my zits show up there? Nope. I only ever get them on my chin, or around my mouth. Bleh. Have several large ones that all fucking hurt and one right next to my mouth which fucking kills anytime I move my mouth. More detail than anyone needed to know but damnit it sucks.

If anybody made it this far....sorry man (or woman).

I just needed to vent. ✉