It's been a while since ive talked about my whole awakening process. Its weird. I never thought this stuff was real. Still sounds weird thinking about it years later. But to start from the beginning i guess. I was always a tad bit weird. I was I'm middle school. 7th grade I believe. I was feeling sick that day but I just thought maybe its because of my period. I had a boyfriend at the time and we always sat at lunch together or met after school. I was a virgin in every sense of the word but I developed a lot of stuff early. It was this one day that triggered a lot of weird emotions. The first few classes going into lunch was ok. Still slightly sick and cramping but nothing out of the ordinary. But as I sat there at the lunch table with my little circle of friends I just felt... Off. Everything became silent, yet loud at the same time. Everything was quiet and all I can hear was murmurs. I zoned out and didnt notice my friend nudging me. Lunch was over. So quick. Like that? It felt like I sat there for a minute. Back in class I felt weird. Different. I mean pft more than normal. I was always different. And picked on. But today was way out of the ordinary. My gums were sore. I felt all around Like crap. I decided to sit in the back away from everyone. But not surprisingly. One of my bullies decided to come bother me. He was waaaay bigger than me. Doofy. Long hair. Puberty hitting him in the worst way with ugly pubic like hair growing on his chin and upper lip. And weird pulsing pimples and oily skin. He lumbered over to me and sat next to me. But oddly enough he didn't harrass me. He just sat there. We sat there awkwardly for about 3 minutes before he said "hey" I glared at him and rolled my eyes "what the hell do you want". The reaction he had was weird... It was offended. "Nothing I just wanna talk". I sighed he was annoying me without even doing anything. I dont remember the conversation but I remember him touching my hand and looking me in the eyes and saying something that shocked me. I Think he wanted to be friends. But obviously that was gonna be difficult. The point of me mentioning this is because ive read that with some people an awakening can give you a type of glow. Much like puberty or pregnancy. Apparently this glow lured him in. I couldn't get it out of my head the rest of the day. It was so weird. But not as weird as what would happen next. Its the end of the day and I'm going to meet my boyfriend by the exit. He seems a bit weird so I ask him what's wrong and he tells me in a shaky voice that he has to go to the nurse. I ask him why and he pulls his hand out his pocket and its covered in blood.... I mentally have a fucking break down. All I can focus on was the blood and I can literally smell it. My gums start hurting more and my mouth waters. I somehow get myself together and I calmly push his hand away and tell him to go to the nurse its fine. I run to the bathroom and splash my face with cold water. But this wasnt the worst part.