#ptsdwillnotwin

More and more the smiles are becoming real but this is completely me and many others who fight a daily battle inside their own head. #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdwarrior #ptsdwillnotwin #smile #hidebehindasmile https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn3Fid4h50C/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1fjeqwmbvfl63

PTSD fucking sucks! It screws my head in ways even I never thought possible. It’s somewhat worse when your support system changes and your geographical location changes. Suddenly there is a whole host of new triggers, that you didn’t even know existed. The sounds of a dogs bark, the sounds of an unfamiliar car door slamming shut, parking somewhere new, getting lost in a car park, not knowing where to go for the item you need to purchase, all of these and many, many, many more have seeped their annoying and creepy little way into my brain and it’s ever expanding list of triggers. At what point does the “start to get better” happen? At what point does the “that sound I can cope with” happen? At what point does the “I’m feeling ok now” happen? I have the most amazing support system and they happen to live in the house with me, they probably have no idea how much that actually helps. They probably have no idea how to support me yet are actually doing everything I need them to be doing without even knowing they are doing it. Not too bad for people I’ve not know that long. The triggers here are different and somewhat heightened and the support although different is definitely not less and that is outstanding! #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdsucks #ptsdwillnotwin #newtriggers #idonotwanttodietoday

I’ve spent quite a lot of my day talking to people about PTSD. How mine differs from theirs. How mine is no more or no less important or difficult to deal with than anyone else’s. I am genuinely surprised how many people I’ve come across that when I say “I have PTSD” respond with “which force did you serve with?” or “You can’t have PTSD you’re not military” The conversations I’ve had today will hopefully not only have helped people to understand that it’s not only military personnel that are subjective to PTSD, that PTSD effects each and every person in different ways and most important that no PTSD warrior is any less valid than another. PTSD sucks no matter if you are exmilitary, a domestic abuse survivor, a life changing accident survivor or any other cause or reasoning. I hope today’s conversations have also gone some way to helping people understand that PTSD isn’t depression, anxiety, complex swings in physical and mental abilities or an inability/over-ability to express your feelings but is a whole complex mash up of absolutely everything...or at least for me it is! #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdwillnotwin #ptsdsucks #ptsdrecovery #todayidonotwanttodie

I’ve spent quite a lot of my day talking to people about PTSD. How mine differs from theirs. How mine is no more or no less important or difficult to deal with than anyone else’s. I am genuinely surprised how many people I’ve come across that when I say “I have PTSD” respond with “which force did you serve with?” or “You can’t have PTSD you’re not military” The conversations I’ve had today will hopefully not only have helped people to understand that it’s not only military personnel that are subjective to PTSD, that PTSD effects each and every person in different ways and most important that no PTSD warrior is any less valid than another. PTSD sucks no matter if you are exmilitary, a domestic abuse survivor, a life changing accident survivor or any other cause or reasoning. I hope today’s conversations have also gone some way to helping people understand that PTSD isn’t depression, anxiety, complex swings in physical and mental abilities or an inability/over-ability to express your feelings but is a whole complex mash up of absolutely everything...or at least for me it is! #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdwillnotwin #ptsdsucks #ptsdrecovery #todayidonotwanttodie

I’ve spent quite a lot of my day talking to people about PTSD. How mine differs from theirs. How mine is no more or no less important or difficult to deal with than anyone else’s. I am genuinely surprised how many people I’ve come across that when I say “I have PTSD” respond with “which force did you serve with?” or “You can’t have PTSD you’re not military” The conversations I’ve had today will hopefully not only have helped people to understand that it’s not only military personnel that are subjective to PTSD, that PTSD effects each and every person in different ways and most important that no PTSD warrior is any less valid than another. PTSD sucks no matter if you are exmilitary, a domestic abuse survivor, a life changing accident survivor or any other cause or reasoning. I hope today’s conversations have also gone some way to helping people understand that PTSD isn’t depression, anxiety, complex swings in physical and mental abilities or an inability/over-ability to express your feelings but is a whole complex mash up of absolutely everything...or at least for me it is! #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdwillnotwin #ptsdsucks #ptsdrecovery #todayidonotwanttodie

It’s been a long time since I’ve made my physical fitness a priority over/alongside my mental fitness. At the moment my mental fitness is doing fairly well, so it’s time to kick it up a gear and get my physical fitness back on track too. It’s been a much needed thing to restore my mental fitness and now is the time to bring my physical fitness into line also. @getoutdaniel I’ll see you in the morning! #ptsdwillnotwin #ptsdrecovery #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdsucks #bmfwolverhampton

It’s been a long time since I’ve made my physical fitness a priority over/alongside my mental fitness. At the moment my mental fitness is doing fairly well, so it’s time to kick it up a gear and get my physical fitness back on track too. It’s been a much needed thing to restore my mental fitness and now is the time to bring my physical fitness into line also. @getoutdaniel I’ll see you in the morning! #ptsdwillnotwin #ptsdrecovery #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdsucks #bmfwolverhampton

It’s been a long time since I’ve made my physical fitness a priority over/alongside my mental fitness. At the moment my mental fitness is doing fairly well, so it’s time to kick it up a gear and get my physical fitness back on track too. It’s been a much needed thing to restore my mental fitness and now is the time to bring my physical fitness into line also. @getoutdaniel I’ll see you in the morning! #ptsdwillnotwin #ptsdrecovery #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdsucks #bmfwolverhampton