#ptiii

I use this site as a coping mechanism. Not only as a coping mechanism, mind you, but a coping mechanism all the same. I can look back through the many, many, many pages on my blog(s) and look at the posts and know exactly what was going on in my life at the time. 

That is why I wanted to write these posts. I used to use this as a more diary blog than just a collection of pictures. I debated about deleting them. My fog had lifted, I am feeling better, no longer a corpse that time forgot but time once again realized i existed. 

I realized, however, if I deleted them - then these posts, the pain i felt when I wrote them and how I overcame that sadness, that pain, that hurt, that I was feeling, would be deleted with them. I didn’t want to do that.