#psycomagia

so, I'm 29 today. I'm totally okay with that, other than the whole "appearance aging" sort of thing. I hated my early 20s, they were hands down my hardest years. 25+ is way easier. I can actually say life is good in the way of non-existential things. (I will always be self conscious and negative in spite of my narcissism, but that's on the inside.)

I had a dream last night that Jodorowsky and I were in the desert, among some movie that he was working on. He was carrying a large book with him, the book had many pieces and illustrations and fold-out parts. He showed the book to me, and throughout the book he told me that the theme was forgiveness. It was a very global forgiveness, not of my own relationships - about how Jews should forgive Nazis, Native Americans should forgive the settlers that poisoned them, etc. (I am not making a statement on this personally, it was just a dream.) Among that was a page of lyrics (?) was the message that your parents should be forgiven. I woke up feeling peaceful, it was a good birthday present dream.

I have mentioned that I consider Jodo my spiritual father in many ways, and him appearing in a dream on my birthday is no mistake. Though I haven't thought much about forgiveness in my life, especially in the global sense, i think it is a strong principal to be aware of as I go from 29 onto 30. What in my life can be forgiven? What do I hold onto that hinders my progress? Both personally, and universally. 

Satanism states that your own birthday is the most important day of the year - and although forgiveness isn't something Satanism is known for, it is a mistake to hold onto childish grudges. and a hinderance to personal growth and power. Whether it be a person, or people, or whatever - straining yourself to confine to a hatred or dislike, to an anger toward someone else, is decidedly un-Satanic. When you submit in anger to something, its power holds you under it, as if you are being held underwater.