#psycho stuff

The WHO has a brochure on self-management of post-covid - rehabilitation which gave me a scale of exhaustion and phases of increasing activity. (I'll link to it later)

A cognitive-behavioral therapist (me, it was myself) made a daily planner/diary in spreadsheet form with the categories well-being (morning, midday, evening), activities done and how exhausting were they (scale 1-10) and a field for nice/happy things and things I'm thankful for (I'm third wave, duh)

My dad came to clean my kitchen and it is gleaming now and that makes me feel so good. Also we had a good talk about our sensory issues of the week (a bucket in the courtyard on which raindrops fall making it go boing in an unpleasant frequency and skin is dry and itches but bodylotion makes it greasy and clammy for a while) and the current state of the construction sites around us.

Feeling hopeful that it will be okay in a while and that I can get back to walking for more than a few hundred meters a day.

Before I left I talked about not making art my future work goal....and only keeping it as a hobby. 

Well I was just afraid. Art had nothing to do with it. It was me and my trauma who were afraid to go back. I realized that I can’t work for something just so others are happy with me. There will be people who will try to talk me out of it but fuck them honestly. This has been my dream for almost 10 years and I am almost 22 years old. I never stopped having that dream. Everything else is just not able to make ME happy. ME! This is MY life.

Eine kleine Sammlung von Sachen, die ich kenne und mag. Über Ergänzungen und Anmerkungen freue ich mich sehr.

Das eine Buch für Psychotherapie und Beratung: Dr. Gisela Wolf, Mari Günther und Kirsten Teren teilen ihr Fachwissen, ihre Forschung und ihre Erfahrung in Psychotherapeutische Arbeit mit trans* Personen (Gisela und Mari machen auch super Fortbildungen).

Die offizielle S3-Leitlinie für Diagnostik, Beratung und Behandlung (Überarbeitung ist für nächstes Jahr geplant, dann mit den neuen ICD Diagnosekriterien und hoffentlich!!1! angepasst an das Selbstbestimmungsgesetz).

Leitfaden trans*Gesundheit vom Bundesverband trans*: Die S3-Leitlinie zusammengefasst und erläutert für "Patient*innen" und alle, die lieber leichter verständliches in nettem Layout lesen wollen (ich).

The Standards of Care for the Health of Transsexual, Transgender, and Gender Nonconforming People of the World Professional Association for Transgender Health (WPATH): International guidelines, the newest in research, lots of different languages, new version to be expected in spring 2022.

Der BVT hat auf seiner Internetseite viele hilfreiche Broschüren, zum Runterladen oder kostenlos bestellen.

That and how the study group (eight weeks of qigong class twice a week, daily self-apply acupressure, self-help book and phone calls with a doctor every two weeks) compares to the control group (self-help book and phone calls with a doctor every two weeks, they get the qigong classes later). The study is conducted by the university hospital, from what I understood it is a pretty solid rct and I'm happy they do research on "alternative" (not sure what a good term in English would be) treatments for CFS. Could be that just the added exertion of being asked to perform acupressure every day can worsen symptoms, for sure.

Truly the best thing about working independently as a therapist in my own office is that I can do whatever the fuck I want with my ?gender? expression, my queerness, my radical leftist politics. It is not only never politely ignored or remarked upon with borderline offensive acceptance. I feel seen in it, I can work with it, I can create an environment for my clients with it and I think that is praxis.