Okay so the title's kinda inaccurate cause there IS a section for same height partners. BUT STILL
Synopsis: Silco with a shorter partner, same height partner, or taller partner. Just silly headcanons really. Reader can be anyone, no warnings apply. There are brief mentions of arguments but they're all silly parts so they're not really triggering but I thought I'd mention it.
Silco: his canon height is somewhere between 5'8"-5'9" (~170-175 cm) I think but if you want to imagine him as a certain height for the sake of dynamics I won't stop you. Doting, loving, sometimes teasing. Italicised sections represent his thoughts/speech. I do my best to write him well but idk what I'm doing lol. He's a bit different in every section (protective and doting with shorter partner, dynamic and teasing with same height partner, submissive and needy with taller partner). No specified sexuality or gender for Silco he's just living. Also I'm gonna start saying this for more posts: if you ever read a part and think "but I wouldn't like/want that," know that Silco would never force you to do anything so just imagine that you told him not to do that and he went okay that's fine :) In this house Silco understands and respects consent!!
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With a shorter partner
- always got an arm around you. Casual, intimate, lighthearted, whatever, he likes showing you that he's there, that he supports you, thay you aren't alone. And he generally enjoys giving you affection.
- he loves picking you up. The first time he did, it was just because you were being stubborn about something, but after that it became a habit (it makes him feel strong :3)
- always kissing the top of your head. Sometimes it's completely absentminded, sometimes it's sensual, supportive, comforting, teasing, etc. He does it once when you're arguing and afterwards you both pause until he admits that was. not a conscious action. Which very quickly lightens the mood because he seems so genuinely flustered (pushing my cutie patottoie Silco agenda on you).
- he lets you steal his clothes and finds great joy in seeing you wear them, especially if they're really oversized on you. He loves it when you look cosy and comfy.
- he loves holding you. Hugs from behind are a constant thing with him. Arms around your shoulders, chin on your head, little kisses to your hair, so much sweet affection you could die. (Also hugs from behind often show that you have someone's back which I find adorable)
- he'll pull you into his lap if you're close to him while he's working, without really pausing whatever he's saying or doing. (So, I need to focus on this shipment first- *yanks you onto his lap* because my piltover clients are more impatient and will get pissy if they wait too long-)
- he never makes you feel bad about your height, and if anyone tries to put you down because of your size, he will very quickly make them regret it (if you don't beat him to it, that is)
- he teaches you some basic self defense if you don't know it already. Despite not fighting anymore, he still remembers how to protect himself, and he wants you to be safe, because unfortunately, the undercity often views those of smaller stature as easy targets. And yeah, he always makes sure you're guarded, but it's better to be safe than sorry.
With a same height partner
- ALWAYS STEALING YOUR FUCKIGN CLOTHES
- but in turn, you get to steal his clothes, so it evens out.
- when he goes shopping he tries to get outfits that would look good on you, too, since he knows he might be sharing them.
- he rage baits you about who's taller.
- we're the same height? Well, you're not the one who can reach the top shelf of the pantry, so. No I don't think arm length has anything to do with it, actually.
- he doesn't actually care about height he just finds it funny.
- takes every opportunity he can to steal a kiss because your lips are on par with his so literally how can he not.
- he loves that either of you can be held when you cuddle and it'll be perfectly comfortable and balanced.
- what I'm saying is he's a switch.
- also he likes the relative symmetry you guys have when you stand next to each other. You match his aura and he loves it.
- he likes that, in arguments, you're both at a relative same height so he doesn't have to worry about either of you feeling lesser, ignored, or intimidated by the other (that wouldn't happen anyways, but in this scenario he worries that it would).
With a taller partner
- he still steals your clothes but he doesn't wear them in public because they're. way too big on him.
- but he does look cute in oversized clothes so he likes wearing them when it's just you two. Your sweaters are his absolute favourite.
- he buries himself in your chest when he's overwhelmed. No one can ever know he does this though or he will start shooting hostages.
- loves being held by you so bad he'll practically beg you with his eyes to hold him. (Personification of the pleading emoji)
- the first time you pick him up he is audibly and visible shocked (he'd definitely squeak and blush) because he hasn't been picked up since Vander was in his life. But after that he's always trying to get you to carry him. (My legs are already so tired from all this walking... This would be much easier if I didn't need to walk. If only there was some kind of solution to this problem type shit.) (He is not as subtle as he thinks he is.)
- if you're sitting in his chair he'll just sit directly on your lap. He's like a cat. Oh, you're in my spot? No no, don't get up. You are my spot now. You are not allowed to move until I say so. I hope you're comfortable because I am not getting up.
- he's constantly trying to get you to kiss his forehead by tilting his head down ever so slightly and leaning forward and giving you big wet pleading eyes.
- you add to his scary aura and he loves it. Just having you stand behind him during meetings makes people scared because shit fuck this scrawny ass drug lord has a tall and scary partner that would literally kill for him, now we really can't try to hurt him or we're fucking cooked.
- he'll try to stand on something when you argue so he can be closer to your height, which is actually quite funny to watch. Like he'll be in the middle of telling you off as he steps onto his chair and almost falls off before you catch him, trying not to laugh while he scowls and steadies himself. Absolute wet cat of a man.
- always leaning against your side and trying to get you to wrap your arm around him because he's absolutely pathetic for you. Again no one can know he does this.
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I've been thinking of this one for a while and I neeeeeed to write it
Synopsis: fluffy bullshit, gender neutral pronouns for reader, includes the start, middle, and conclusion of his crush. Miscommunication with a good ending.
Silco: SIMP. He/him, demiromantic in this but otherwise no specific sexuality or gender, italicised sections represent his thoughts/speech. Also, some may remember that I headcanon Silco as autistic, and this is very prevalent here in the way he reacts to feelings and in the way he communicates.
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Early stages
- Silco has to know you for quite a while before starting to like you at all, let alone get a crush on you.
- but then, one night, you and him are talking in his office and you have a bit too much to drink and your conversations become a bit more personal than he normally would allow.
- as you talk about your dreams, your past, your insecurities, everything that makes you you, he feels something weird. Something that he almost forgot about.
- his heart feels warm. His head feels fuzzy. He knows it isn't the alcohol that's making him this way, it's something else, something that feels untamed and sweet.
- they look so lovely in green lighting... And their voice is so soft from the alcohol, and their lips...
- no. Absolutely not, this is not happening, nononononononono, stop it stop it stop it stop itβ
- he turns in early that night, leaving you with a cold goodbye that tells you absolutely nothing.
- but as he's trying to sleep, he keeps thinking of you. He feels so guilty for leaving you there, and he wishes he could've stayed with you for just a bit longer...
Miscommunication
- despite his attempted avoidance, you and him keep bumping into each other. He tries to be composed and cordial, but he just comes off as dismissive.
- because of this, you start to think that he dislikes you, which leads to you avoiding him, which leads to him thinking you don't like him, which leads to him avoiding you more, and so on and so forth.
- but again, you keep. running. into each other.
- no matter what you do, you still have to be in proximity with each other, and it's incredibly awkward. Until one day you're both alone together, and Silco finally breaks the ice.
Communication
- did I do something to make you dislike me?
- this is the moment that you both realise you have greatly misinterpreted each other. You look at him in confusion, and he gives you the same look, and you realise oh, shit. We've been avoiding each other for no reason.
- which leads to some very awkward floundering between you two until you explain your part. Since after you opened up to him he started avoiding you, you assumed you had made him uncomfortable and tried to give him space to avoid putting him in any more awkward situations.
- now he's expected to explain his part, yet feels way too risky to explain in full truth, so he goes for half truth.
- I'm not used to people opening up to me like you did that night, and so I wasn't sure how to go about our relationship after our conversation. I never intended to give the impression that I dislike you; I actually really enjoy spending time with you. And, if it's plausible for you, I'd like to spend more time with you.
- you both snap back to reality through his words, and a sort of understanding is formed between you both.
- it's easy to talk to each other, you've sorted out the miscommunication, and as Silco gives you more and more privileges that few others in his life have, you realise that he considers you a true friend.
- if only that was all it was.
Flirting
- let's make one thing clear: Silco is only a good flirt when he doesn't actually have a crush on someone, and he has the fattest crush on you.
- in short: he's terrible at flirting with you.
- you come to The Last Drop one day and the bartender says all your drinks are free from now on, Silco's orders. But they also say he wanted to emphasise it's because you and him are close friends, which is a weird thing to emphasise, you think.
- one day, it starts raining when you're both on a walk together, and instead of giving you his umbrella, he closes it and puts it away so you're not the only one getting soaked. Which, sure, is kind of sweet in theory, but also a very illogical thing to do; very out of character for him.
- whenever he thinks you look nice, instead of saying so, he stares for a few moments and then doesn't look at you again for the rest of the time you're together.
- when you make a joke, he doesn't laugh, but he tells you why he thinks it's funny and that he got the punchline. This is kind of sweet, because it shows more care for your words, but the fact that he doesn't even laugh is unnerving.
- he gives you money when he thinks you need it, but he does so wordlessly. Like he just shoves it at you and calls it done, which is eventually a familiar transaction for you. The familiarity makes you forget, for a time, how weird it is for him to be so quiet about it.
- basically he loses all his charisma when he likes someone. So you get to experience his completely unmasked autistic version of flirting.
Actually asking you out
- once it becomes routine for you to make yourself at home in his office whenever you want, he starts to get a bit better at showing his affection. Marginally. It's probably because the routine and familiar space comfort him, but whatever the case, you're not complaining.
- when you visit his office and he happens to be there, he'll offer you food and drink, chat with you while he works, stuff like that. It's a nice chill time.
- it's one of these days where he's just starting his routine, asking someone to bring him something for breakfast, and you enter his office. He orders breakfast for you too and invites you to sit.
- you two have known each other for at least a couple years now. He's grown more comfortable with you, though he hardly shows it. He shies away from touch, barely speaks in your conversations, and doesn't express his emotions much.
- you figured this was just because he was shy, but you have an aching feeling that he's hiding something. Maybe he isn't comfortable around you, maybe you overstepped, or maybe he really is just a disconnected person in general.
- too anxious to ignore your fears, you ask him about this over breakfast, why he doesn't open up to you easily. He pauses for a moment, picks at the eggs on his plate with a fork, and you notice that he's gotten tense.
- maybe something happened in the past that made him unwilling to open up, you think, or maybe he's shy with everyone. Wanting to respect this, you assure him that he can always talk to you, but it's okay if he doesn't want to.
- then he treads into a conversation that he's never even touched before.
- how do you know if you love someone, romantically?
- at your startled expression, he explains that he's only ever had two real crushes in his life, each several years apart. One when he was a young adult, and one that only showed up recently. Within the past couple of years, he says.
- but how do I know for certain that it's really love? Maybe I'm just desperate for kindness and affection, and being shown that has made me convince myself that there's something more. How am I meant to figure this out alone?
- your stomach starts flipping for a reason unknown by you, a mix of jealousy for whoever he might be in love with and excitement that he's talking to you about this. He's never opened up like this before, and you're not quite sure how to react.
- you start by telling him that he doesn't have to figure it out alone, that you're there for him if he needs you.
- he explains further. The warm feeling he gets around them, the way they always look beautiful to him, the way everything they say catches his attention.
- the jealousy starts to make you sick, but you tell yourself that supporting your friend is more important. You ask who it is, to which he quickly shuts down.
- oh, you realise. It's me.
- both of you have finished your breakfasts, had your plates cleared, and talked for over an hour before you manage to get a confession out of him.
- and holy shit. The feeling that follows is like no other.
- you hug him tight, confess your feelings in turn, and you instantly feel his entire body relax into you. He holds you like a lifeline, head buried in your shoulder as he apologises for keeping his feelings a secret for so long.
Dating!
- he becomes better at flirting, thankfully.
- he's absolutely infatuated with you.
- he very proudly introduces you to people as his parter.
- he has no problem PDA, no care for how your relationship might affect his reputation, and no shame in being pathetic for you.
- he opens up to you more as he becomes truly comfortable.
- he's much less awkward about giving you money and gifts.
- most of all, he gets better at communication and does his best to never go to bed angry with you.
- he always emphasises his love and gratitude for you, and both of you know that you will never fall out of love, because this connection you've created is eternal.
ππThanks for reading, be cringe do crimesππ
Couldn't think of a better title for the LIFE OF ME smh
Synopsis: it's kind of hard to be lighthearted when talking about drugs but this is largely fluff and sillies. Talks about Silco's history with weed (lack thereof) and how he acts when high. Reader does weed and that's the only specification for them :)
Silco: not used to weed at all. Smart about his drug usage, loving as always. Italics mean he's speaking, let him ramble (he does a lot of rambling in this one)
Warnings: drugs!
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Early stages
- as I mentioned, Silco has no experience with weed before meeting you. Yeah, drugs are everywhere in Zaun, but he never had any stoners in his circle, so he's only known it in passing. He knows its smell, the social aspect of it, and how it makes people act, but he doesn't know it personally.
- given that he's smoked in front of you, you didn't think much before getting high around him, but when he smelled the weed on you, he gave a confused look and asked what you'd had. When you told him, he gave a slight smile and explained that he recognised it but didn't have a lot of experience with it, and said it was fine for you to make yourself comfortable.
- while you were high, he kept doing what he was doing and watching you out of the corner of his eye. He humoured you in your rambles, assured you when you needed it, and made sure you were comfortable.
- he eventually asked you what it felt like. He knew the rush of shimmer, the relief of nicotine, and the lightness of alcohol, but he wasn't sure what kind of high you were having, and admittedly, he was curious.
- after you explained what it was like for you, he said he wanted to try it, and you said you'd bring enough for him next time.
Smoking
- the first thing he tried was the joint you brought him, and at first, he was kind of underwhelmed at the feeling, until he realised that he was laughing at everything you said and that his bed felt way softer than usual. He turned to you with a high half smile, murmured your name, and said I think I might be high, which did not help either of you with the giggles.
- you two had hot chocolate and popcorn and watched some movie with no plot and had the time of your life laughing and talking over everything the characters said.
- he also had the best sleep of his life afterwards and woke up feeling more content than usual, though drowsy and a bit sick.
Edibles :)
I go through all those points quite rapidly, but I imagine he glides through each phase of the high slowly, though he probably feels like he's going quicker than he is.
- the first time he tried edibles was a little bit different. Not a bad trip or anything, just different.
- while you were doing whatever you do during a trip, he went to his desk and finished a crap ton of paperwork that he had been putting off, all while muttering to himself. You couldn't make out a lot of it but what you deciphered was HILARIOUS. Was I high when I wrote this... Wait no, I'm high right now. Nevermind. / Wow I'm so good at. paying taxes. ,,, What have I become. / Which incompetent bastard filled out these forms... wait that's my signature. It was me. I'm the incompetent bastard.
- he then went to find a book to read, only to end up grabbing one he's already read and talking to you about it while flipping through it, looking for the major plot points and going down rabbit holes about what every single word meant (you could not understand a word).
- as he started calming down, he asked you what you think matters in the grand scheme of things. He was very assured about his point of view (that being that everything matters), but he also wanted to hear what you had to say.
- after that, he put on some music and did not move for three hours, lying on the couch and staring at the ceiling.
- he woke up after dark not knowing who or where he was, and he concluded that he should only do edibles occasionally.
Conclusion
- he smokes weed a couple times a week and takes an edible only if he has nothing going on for several days after.
- he's weird but kind of fun to get high with <3
ππ Thanks for reading, be cringe do crimes ππ
I finally got some motivation!!!! Have a hurt/comfort post
Synopsis: this is largely a healing post with a decent amount of angst. I tried to stay as general as possible for the reader while still making them A Person with Feelings. I only really specified that they have trauma from going through some kind of abuse at some point in their life. Includes when he finds out, talks to you about it, connects with you about it, assures you about it, and how the future goes β€οΈ
Silco: understanding, healthy, a good partner, also traumatized. Italicised sections represent his thoughts/speech. No specific orientation or sex. Trying his best and doing a good job at it. Very respectful of reader.
Warnings: discussions of abuse, trauma, and mental issues, referenced torture as punishment (just Silco wanting to execute justice lol)
Also I'm just gonna leave this comfort post here (Silco comforting reader after a bad day) just in case you need to switch to something more chill at any point!
ππ Be kind to yourself, and enjoy ππ
Realisation
- Silco is a very observant person.
- even if you make an effort to hide it, he notices every shift in your tone, every flinch and shake of your muscles, every subtle pattern of speech designed to protect you from harm. He knows that something is off, at the very least.
- as soon as he realises that you went through abuse, he begins to overthink every aspect of your relationship. He's not exactly experienced in committed relationships, let alone ones with abuse survivors.
- he wants to help you heal, genuinely, but he knows that he can't fix everything by feeding you sweet whispers and dreamy promises. Trauma is a complex shield made of deeply rooted terrors and empty visions of safety, expertly crafted to keep people out, regardless of whether they intend to hurt or heal the victim. How is he meant to show you that you can let that shield down with him?
- it's not something he can fix by himself, but he can't just pretend it's not there. Not when it's sure to affect every aspect of your relationship, not when it's such a big part of you. With this, he knows he has to bring it up.
Communication
- once he sort of comes to terms with the thought of you being a survivor of abuse, he sits you down and, as softly as he can, tells you what he's noticed. He doesn't know the details, but he knows you've been hurt. He ensures that you're comfortable and that you don't feel pressured in any way, but he hopes you'll open up to him at least a bit.
- I want to know what happened, but you don't have to tell me a thing if it hurts too much. I know this can't be easy for you. Just know that if you want to talk, I'm here to listen, no matter what might be eating away at you.
- maybe you'll tell him more about your past. Maybe you won't. Either way, he doesn't pry. Anything that's important for him to know, he will eventually discover through your words, your actions, or your patterns. For now, all he needs to know is what he can do to make things easier for you.
- he doesn't pressure you, but encourages you. He doesn't treat you like a damsel, but an equal. Most of all, he never blames you for your trauma. No, not even if it sometimes makes you violent. No, not even if it sometimes renders you immobile. No, not even if it makes it harder for you to trust him.
- you are not at fault for what was done to you when you were powerless, or the tricks your mind plays on you to protect you from going through it all again. I could never blame you for that, not after you've shown me how truly gentle your soul is beneath all that fear.
Details
- in time, he learns more details, whether that's because you tell him or because the stories get back to him through rumours or because he picks up on the subtle changes in your behaviour.
- as he makes these discoveries, he starts to understand so many things that used to be lost on him. He understands why you flinch so easily, why you're never quite sure what your boundaries are, why you seem to perceive everything as a threat, why you get defensive so easily, why you have days where even getting out of bed feels like an impossible task.
- the more he learns about your past, the more enraged he is on your behalf, especially if you were young when it happened. No one deserves to go through that, especially not you. You had given your trust to someone with power over you, and they used it against you. For that, he will never forgive them.
- he asks for permission to deal out punishment, itching to execute justice. He won't do it if you don't want him to; it's your trauma, not his, and he knows he doesn't have the right to punish them without your consent. He's a bit put out if you refuse, but he respects your decision nonetheless. If you agree, he lets you pick the method of punishment β€οΈ
Connection
- though no two stories are the same, he finds can relate to you in some ways. Both of you had been betrayed by someone close to you with methods so unforgivable that they haunted you each day. That similarity is like a bridge between your worlds, a connection worth more than any words you could exchange.
- yet still, the first time he opens up, you two talk for hours. You share your most shameful moments, the happy memories that hurt the most, the lingering feelings that have lasted long past their initiating events, every moment and feeling that you can put into words. As you share your stories with each other, you feel so human, so understood, and for the first time in too long, you once again start to feel like love and trust are worth the risk.
- with this, his reactions make more sense, too. His freeze response, his fear of deep water, his distrust, the way he tenses when someones gets too close to his neck; all these defence mechanisms put into place to protect him from threats that had been gone for years.
- though it hurts to see his pain, it's nice to have someone who understands. You're not alone in this fear of the world, and though you once thought it was impossible, you start to feel truly safe again.
Assurance
- despite all that happened to him, Silco seems so... stable. A little intense at times, maybe, but soft and understanding and confident, so much more healed than you. At least, that's how you see it.
- he makes it look so easy to be communicative and healthy and composed despite the horrors, and by his side, you feel like an emotional mess. Does everyone else see it that way, too? Are people secretly holding the belief that you're not good enough for him? And, worst of all, are they right to think that way?
- even if you keep these insecurities to yourself at first, the shame and anxiety quickly become too intense to carry alone, too loud to hide in your head.
- at the slightest prompting from Silco, you lose your will to hide it. You find yourself spilling your worries before you get the chance to hesitate, revealing all your insecurities to him in one raw moment.
- part of you wishes that he would take this as a sign to leave you behind before you truly ruin him. Maybe then, you could save him from this curse that was forced on you, this sickness that eats away at your ability to love.
- despite the nauseating fear in your stomach, the idea of his disappointment poisoning the peace that you had tried to hold, your face is quickly cradled in his hands, his voice as loving as ever.
- my dove, please listen to me. You are not a mess, you are hurting, and that's okay. I know it can't be easy to believe with all that noise in your head, but you are getting better every day, and I am so proud of your progress. You are a beautiful soul, so strong and kind despite how you've been hurt, and I am blessed to be by your side. Please, don't cry. I swear to you, you are not a monster. There we go... You're okay. It's going to be okay.
Eternity
- with every doubt you have, he brings you reassurance, and with time, you realise; this is what love is. Stability and comfort and connection, not shame and judgement and isolation.
- he understands why you can't just get over what happened. These events aren't distant memories, they are chains that wrap tight around both your bodies, strings that jerk your limbs like marionettes, toxins that sizzle and hiss in your stomachs, all in an attempt to keep you from harm.
- yet somehow, these things lose their power when you're together. Yes, you're both terrified at first, but as time goes on, you realise that it was never love that you were scared of. You were scared of what comes after it.
- there will never be an after to this love that you share. You become sure of this this after some years going steady with him. Your fear fades to a whisper at first, a nagging anxiety in the back of your mind, then to silence as you realise that this love will truly never end. And after some short years, you refer to each other as spouses without a second thought.
- the rough patches are rare and far apart, the rest blissful and effortless. Whenever one of you feels anxious or unsafe, the other is there to comfort them as needed. When you wake up from nightmares or go through flashbacks, you no longer have to work through it by yourself. You have him by your side, easing you through it in a gentle voice, his arms around you and his head resting on yours.
- don't be afraid. You're safe. No, don't apologise, dearest. It's alright. We have all the time in the world.
ππ Be cringe do crimes and thanks for reading! ππ
Because I need to be reminded that healthy conflict resolution is possible :)
Synopsis: the stages of a fight with Silco. Includes: his anger, your anger, precautions, mutual anger, needing space, and conflict resolution. Reader can be anyone. Angst and comfort. There's a lot of asterisks throughout that guide you through parts of the post, I tried to make them easy to follow but I don't know if they make sense to anyone but me. Reminder that my posts do not feature abuse (not on purpose, if something reads as abusive you're welcome to let me know and I'll adjust)
Silco: he/him, implied cis man, no specific sexuality. Trying his best and doing a good job at it. Italicised sections represent his thoughts/speech, as accurately as I can do them as. someone who did not write him. but is obsessed with him.
Warnings: arguments, anger, anxiety/fear/etc, mentions of physical violence (when talking about steps to avoid it), trauma, self isolation, death mentions, trust issues, guilt, I think that's the worst of them.
βRemember that you have no obligation to read this and if at any point you no longer want to be reading then you can leave, this is for recreation, not homework!β
I would say enjoy but this is. An angst post. So.
π Feel whatever it is this makes you feel, and be kind to yourself π
Your anger
- he's not used to people being angry at him. He's used to evoking fear in others. This makes him very uncertain of what to do when you're upset with him.
- usually when people are angry at him, they make an attempt on his life. He has the ability to feign calmness when this happens, but he can't feign anything with you. Because he trusts you, he loves you, and he's confused about what to do, so he loses the ability to act normal.
- the first few times it happens, his freeze response goes off.
- he tries to analyse the situation. It makes him feel in control, and that brings him some comfort to have a logical approach. How angry are you, exactly? Is it my fault, or is an external factor to blame? Can I reverse this? Do I need to be prepared to lose you? Do I need to be prepared to protect myself from you?
- he asks for space. Again, he's used to people trying to kill him when they're angry at him, and while he'd usually just scare them out of their rage, he can't do that with his partner. But he's not used to having personal relationships like this, and he's lost on what to do, so he just wants to be alone with his thoughts for s while.
His anger
- he is surprisingly patient, so his anger is rare.
- when he is angry, though, he either gets panicky or aggressive; but he hates scaring his loved ones, so the aggressive reactions are never directed at you. He just gets frantic instead, which is more worrying than anything.
- his anger is usually caused by assorted stressors and things not being the exact way he likes them: he likes to know things, he likes solving problems, he likes having control, he likes systems and routines, he likes having things to do. When he feels like he's missing one or multiple of those things, he gets upset and burnt out, and with that, he can get frustrated.
- if the anger is directed at you but isn't mutual, he hides his annoyance and asks for some time alone, being gentle and emphasising that it isn't your fault, he just needs to gather his thoughts. He doesn't want to stress you out by taking his frustration out on you, he knows that isn't fair. He'll write it all down instead and review it when he's in a better state of mind. *
- maybe he isn't really angry at you, just at life. Then he'll hesitantly ask for comfort. It calms him, and he's so glad to have you there helping him through it because holy shit everyone is being such an idiot, I'm going to shoot a fucking hostage.
Precautions
- we're not getting into the fighting yet, oh no. Silco likes to plan Everything, including things that can't be scheduled, just so he knows what to do when they inevitably happen.
- anger gives us the will to speak of what we have harboured in our minds, the frustrations that we're unwilling to put into words... but it can also bring us to hurt our loved ones, something we inevitably regret when our rage has faded .
- keeping this in mind, Silco will want to plan out the fight long before either of you actually lose your temper, knowing that it's always good to have some guidelines. We will respect each other's space, and we will each hold the right to walk away. We will advocate for ourselves without ignoring or putting down the other. Most of all, we will find a way to rebuild. We will remember our conflict, respect its place in our journey, and use it to become stronger together.
- he talks to you about how to prevent a fight from getting physical. He doesn't get too violent himself, but he wants to consider you as well, if you're the type to feel violent when angry. Whether that means having distance between you, having something physically separating you (like a desk or a table or something), or having someone nearby to mediate if they feel it's necessary (probably Sevika).
Shared anger (actual conflict!)
- so you're both angry at each other, at life, at yourselves, whatever. A discussion about it is scary, but necessary.
- if he knows it's okay, he'll give you loving touches as you talk. Just gently holding your hands or your arms, and if you pull away, he won't take offense. He wants to show you that he won't hurt you and that you're still safe with him, and these touches are part of how he does that.
- he'll match the level of your voice. He doesn't want to come off as forceful or intimidating, he wants to show that you're equals in this argument. If you're whispering, so is he. If you're yelling, so is he. You get the gist.
- he doesn't talk over you or interrupt you. If he accidentally cuts you off, he'll quickly stop, apologise, and ask you to continue. If you try to talk over him, he'll tell you to wait for him to finish speaking, and it will clearly frustrate him to have to tell you. Unless it was an accident then he's very forgiving :)
- he watches you for signs that you're no longer in the right state of mind for healthy conflict. If you're getting too intense/aggressive *, if you start to show signs of fear *, if you're having a health problem *, or if you're crying to the point that you can't speak *.
* he immediately stops the argument before you can get any more angry. You need to take some deep breaths, drink some water, maybe have some time alone if that's what you need, and he tells you that with genuine care and concern. He also suggests that you both write down your anger so that it still has a place to go and you can work it out together when you're both feeling more composed. He does his best to help, but he's also still upset, so he might want some space. *
* taking care of you becomes his immediate priority, and he's clearly worried and panicked, if only because it was so unexpected. He's sent someone to retrieve medications, mobility aids, whatever he knows you'll need, and he's ready to call for help if need be. He helps you to a seat, checks your breathing, physically supports you. He gets you a blanket, an ice pack or heat pad if you need one, and food and water. No matter the issue, he's speaking to you in a calming voice, giving you gentle touches, and ready to help you with whatever you need, even if you're still unhappy with him. Because you're partners, and he's there for you, no matter what.
* if you're having a fear response, his first instinct is to find out why, but he knows the last thing you need is to be pressured with questions about why you're afraid. He focuses on de-escalating first. I don't want to fight with you if you're afraid. Take some deep breaths. There you go. Do you need space? * Or would you like me to stay? And since luckily, deep breathing can help with both anger and fear, you can sit and do that together. He wants to talk it through with you, but if silence is what you need, then that's fine. He helps you get comfortable, helps you feel safe, and his worry won't disappear until he's sure you're not scared anymore.
* the second that your tears reach your voice, he's crying, too, and your voices quickly lose their bite. Because gods, the way your voice gets all shaky and weak breaks his heart. Your sobs kind of feed off each other, turning you both into puddles very quickly. He holds your face in his hands, apologises over and over, and hugs you so tight you can feel him shaking. He's pleading under his breath for you to be okay, but he doesn't try to tell you to stop crying. You probably both end up sitting together, apologising between kisses, and sniffling. Anger can turn to sadness really fast, as you've now learned, so it's time for a night of doing absolutely nothing together because holy shit that was a lot.
- if you happen to both remain able and willing to argue until the end, it probably ends in some revelations, agreements, hugs, and tears, because you've heard each other, listened to each other, gotten so much off your chests, and made an important step towards a better relationship. That's the whole goal of an argument, to reach a better place than you started in, and even if it's hard, he's glad to have done the work with you. **
* Personal space
- there's a lot of uncertainty that comes with this part. You can't plan something that you can't predict; there's no telling if, when, or how it will happen, so Silco decides it's best to just. let shit happen and figure it out.
- when he wants to be alone, he straight up isolates himself. Locks himself in his room type shit. It gives him time to collect himself and remind himself that conflict is normal, it's going to be okay, everything happens for a reason.
- he likes to rant to himself when he's stressed or angry, so he finds a space to do that.
- he also fills wayyyyy too many notebook pages when he's got intense emotions going on. Just scribbling on the paper until it's all out there. Then, since he's mostly calmed down, he uses several more pages for an in depth analysis of his thoughts, feelings, and actions. Like a whole research paper. In the end he fills like half a notebook.
- so he's beyond calm when he finally closes the cover and comes out of his room to try at being rational again.
- when it comes to you wanting space, things are a bit less simple. It all depends on your living situation. Either way, you and him make it work: if you want the master bedroom, it's yours, he'll find somewhere else to brood. If you want to stay at your own place, or if you want to crash with a friend, he'll send someone to make sure you're safe, check on you through the occasional letter until you're ready to meet, and keep tabs on you (just enough to make sure you're safe). If you don't want to stay at The Last Drop but have nowhere else to go, he'll find you a place to stay for as long as you need it, probably an all inclusive resort/vacation home by the beach or something. Without batting an eye might I add. Just because you're fighting doesn't mean he's going to stop doting on you.
** Conflict resolution
- you've both cooled down and agreed that it's time to patch things up yayyyyy!!!!
- first of all, he brings his notebook (nerd). He only reads the important points but invites you to read the whole thing if you want to, he doesn't really care if you do or not (he says this but it's up to you if you want to believe him).
- whoever initiated the conflict gets the first chance to talk.
-he wants to hear everything you have to say. Is there anything you especially want me to remember? Anything you didn't get the chance to say? Anything you want to emphasize or take back? Tell me everything you wish I'd done, and I'll do everything in my power to make it happen.
- and he'll tell you his answers to the above questions, too.
- in the end, some kind of plan will be formed, boundaries will be set, whatever needs to be done to eliminate the problem.
- he'll give you a tight hug along with several gentle kisses, apologise for anything he said or did wrong, and leave it off with I love you.
- then the rest of his day is reserved for you because he wants to rebuild what was broken down. He loves you a lot β€οΈ
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How Silco is with birthdays!!! This is an apology for my last post btw β€οΈ
Synopsis: literally what it says on the tin. Contains: his birthday, your birthday, 18+ section, and a little surprise :)
Silco: soft and loving, he/him, no specific sexuality or sex. Red italicised sections represent his thoughts/speech, apologies if it's not accurate.
Jinx: she's actually a big enough character in this one to get her own section! More well-liked by the general undercity population than she is in the show but otherwise I tried to stay close to the canon. Blue italicised sections represent her thoughts/speech, no idea how well I'll do at that but whateverrr I'm doing my best.
ππ Enjoy ππ
His birthday
- he doesn't tell ANYONE about his birthday. He's too busy with running a crime empire to celebrate his birthday every year. He's almost entirely forgotten it.
- almost.
- at some point, somehow, without Silco knowing, Jinx found out his birthday. She told Sevika, who luckily stopped her from telling the entirety of the lanes and managed to calm down this overly excited 12 year old before she planned a surprise bad enough to send Silco to an early grave. She instead helped Jinx plan something small, and this was one of the few times that these two were able to work together without tearing each other to shreds.
- Jinx and Sevika made a little surprise party for him that year and my guy straight up had a freeze response. How did you know my birthday. And why did you remember it. Is this some kind of trick. Sevika stop laughing. Cause no one's celebrated his birthday in years, he doesn't know how to respond to any of this.
- so it's become a running joke to "trick" him on his birthday, which Jinx so often does, but they're not actual pranks, they're little things like what, you thought I actually got you a mug for your birthday? HA GET FOOLED. I GOT YOU A MUG AND ALCOHOL. IDIOT (that's how she says "I love you"). And the mug is full of those sample bottles of liquor. Which he is far more excited about than he lets on.
- Sevika caught onto the fact that he does, in fact, appreciate having his birthday remembered (though he doesn't outwardly say it), so she'll often wish him a happy birthday with a shared drink. It's one of the few times they can sit and talk without thinking about work, so they both look forward to it every year, and eventually, he starts doing it for her birthday, too. Just so they can do it twice a year β€οΈ
- unless someone physically drags him away from his office, he'll insist on working on his birthday. Sure, he'll accept gifts and whatever, but it's still just another day. But if someone drags him out to have some leisure time, he'll secretly be insanely grateful for the excuse to not be working.
- he doesn't tell you his birthday, but obviously, you're quickly told by Jinx (if you hadn't already discovered it on your own), but she only tells you like the day before his birthday. So good luck with that.
- if you celebrate with him, he's incredibly touched, no matter how simple your recognition might be. A hug, a kiss, completing a task he's been putting off, going for a walk with him, even just wishing him a happy birthday and ending it there. All it takes to melt his heart is recognition.
- still, he insists that his birthday remains between you, him, Sevika, and Jinx. He isn't one for big parties or grand gestures, so he wants his birthday to remain known by only the people closest to him.
Your birthday
- even if you don't tell him your birthday, he finds it.
- he'll tell Jinx and Sevika, partially because they're your friends, partially so they know he'll be unavailable on that date.
- he catches onto how you feel about it quickly. He'll casually bring it up and see how you react, then plan accordingly. Maybe you don't want him to make a big deal of it, and he's fine with that, or maybe you want a bigger celebration, and he'll gladly help you plan it. But he has a few things he's already set on doing (you can pick your favourites if you don't want all of them).
- he makes sure to go to sleep with you the night before so you can wake up with him on your birthday. He wakes you up with gentle kisses, and you both get to sleep in for as long as you'd like, which is a welcome way to start the day.
- he makes you coffee (or whatever morning drink you prefer) and gets you a nice breakfast to start the day.
- you get to decide how to spend the day, even if you want to bring him along to things he wouldn't normally enjoy. He will love whatever you do together, because it was time spent with you, and that's all he needs to enjoy something.
- he knows the perfect amount of gifts to give you and exactly what kind of gifts you want. He shows affection by knowing exactly what his loved ones like and want, and part of that means ensuring that you love every present he gets you. And you do, whether they're things you've been needing around the house or collectibles you've been looking for or trinkets that made him think of you or new clothes for you to experiment with.
- if you have any chores you've been putting off, he takes care of them so you can relax. He also makes sure you get some time off work.
- he gets you a card and writes the sweetest message to you, talking about how grateful he is to have you in his life and how much he looks forward to spending the next year with you. He means every word of it, too.
Jinx's birthday!
- surprise! We're celebrating his terror of a daughter too!
- Jinx's birthdays are always fun. Since Silco encourages her to do so, she always decorates for her birthday, so everything's bright and colourful and cluttered for that one day a year.
- no matter what she gets as a gift, she finds a way to appreciate it. You could gift her a ratty stuffed toy and she'd be like oh he's going in my room. I already know where I'm putting him. I'm naming him Larry. You could gift her actual trash and she'd start excitedly sorting through it to find parts she can use. She is so so SO appreciative no matter what
- Silco always gives her dibs on The Last Drop for her birthday, which leads to some amazing parties. Like theres fireworks, sparklers, music, drinks, and so many shenanigans and pranks it's so good. They're the highlight of every year, to the point that everyone in the Lanes knows about them.
18+ section!
- back to Silco!!
(these are all individual scenarios, not continuations of each other)
(also remember that this is a good post to switch to if anything here triggers you as you read. It's a sweet and gentle fluff post about Silco comforting you if you stop midway through intimacy, so feel free to use it if you need to π)
- he's a generous giver when it comes to you, so if one of your birthday wishes is to be fucked, he'll happily do so. He knows all your favourite places to be touched, all your favourite methods and positions, and by the gods, you will love them even more by the end of the night, because he will not stop until you're satisfied. And of course he'll end it all with some amazing aftercare, a bath, cuddles, and wishing you a happy birthday again β€οΈ
- if one of your birthday wishes is to have him, you can have him without question. He'll make the prettiest sounds for you, do whatever you ask of him, and let you touch him however you like. And through it all, he will make it clear how much he loves it, breathlessly moaning your name and grasping at you through the pleasure.
- usually, he forgets about his own birthday by the time he goes to bed, but it's hard to forget when you're lavishing attention all over his body for his last gift of the day. You give him exactly what he needs, and he can physically feel his stress evaporating when you touch him in all the right spots. He happily lets you fuck him until he's sweating and breathless, taking it all and looking gorgeous as he does.
- he's just as happy if your gift is your submission. Seeing you beneath him, waiting for his attention, is an absolute blessing, one that he basks in when he sees it. His affection is slow, gentle, teasing, and just intense enough to make you squirm. He wants to savour you like his final meal, and when he finally gives you what you need, he drags it out until you forget your name. He likes making you last, and he especially likes watching you tremble when he's done. He still gives the absolute best aftercare.
ππ Thanks for reading be cringe do crimes ππ
Posted: August 18th 2025
Edited: September 3rd 2025 (tags and adding the date which I somehow forgot?)
Because most of us Silco simps are traumatised in some form π
Synopsis: the reader, presumably due to a negative emotional response, changes their state of consent. This post is about how I think Silco would react and how he would comfort the reader after that. 18+ because of the general theme but I'm not your dad I can't tell you what to do. All genders. Full consent and healthy relationship. Branches include: intimacy continues, intimacy does NOT continue, talking about it, not talking about it, all the possible things you could do after/instead of talking about it (reading, dancing, and movies, all with tooth-rotting fluff). Target audience is people with relationship/sexual trauma (like me!) but anyone can read! I found this one very fun and very cute to write π
Silco: refered to as masc, implied cis but not specified, supportive, respectful, soft, no specified sexuality, can be read as autistic. Italicised sections will represent his thoughts/things he says, whichever way you want to interpret it, sorry if it's not accurate.
If you see "side branch" in a title, it means that you won't miss anything by skipping it, it's just a possible way you could go, so don't feel like you have to read something if it doesn't bring you any joy. This is meant to be a hobby, not work β€οΈ
π Enjoy π
Initial action
- he stops and withdraws quickly enough that you can start to recover, but also slowly enough that you don't get hurt/startled (especially if there's penetration).
- he's gentle yet almost automatic, hands trembling (exerted, pent up, and worried) as he wraps a blanket around you to protect your modesty and keep you safe. He also gets something to cover himself so you don't have to think about sex or nudity, and to avoid any imbalance between you.
- as your breathing slows, he'll start to press gentle kisses to your face and reassure you in a soft tone, whispering to you until you're fully calm. Breathe, dearest. You don't have to do anything you don't want to do. It's okay. You're safe.
- his shoulders relax and his shaking slows as he watches the panic in your eyes turn to comfort, knowing that he's doing things right.
- you're his partner, and although he's often thought of as selfish and malicious, he is no such thing with you. No matter how pent up and needy he may be, all of his desires are forgotten the moment he hears you say "stop", and he is instead filled with the need to comfort you.
- after you get into a better headspace, he'll ask if you want to stop for the night or try again at being intimate.
Trying again (side branch)
- if you decide you want to keep going, he'll start gentle and slow so you don't feel pressured. He's very good at being careful when he's worried about someone, and his touch is so light it makes you feel like you're floating.
- he's very anxious as you start again, as he's secretly afraid that he'll go to far and make you uncomfortable. He's slow and nervous until he's sure that you're really okay to go further. Then he gets a little more confident.
- he'll keep asking how you're doing, making sure that you're not in pain, that you're enjoying it. He asks like every minute until you have to tell him to just shut up and keep fucking you. He'll oblige happily, obviously, very glad to see you panting and smiling again with his touch.
(paragraphs starting with ~ in the next section are parts that can be read as aftercare for this section β€οΈ)
Stopping for the night (back to the main branch)
- he'll reassure you that he's okay with that and start helping you get comfy. Being physically comfortable is a very important step towards being emotionally comfortable, so be prepared to be surrounded with pillows and blankets.
- if you try to apologise, he quiets you before you can even muster out the word "sorry". He'll kiss you until you're giggling if that's what it takes to make you stop beating yourself up. I'm not angry. I could never be angry with you for this. I love you, and I will never push you beyond your comfort level. You have absolutely nothing to apologise for, okay? Not one thing. You did everything right. And I am so proud of you for telling me to stop. Breathe, my love. You're safe.
~ he'll grab some soft pyjamas for you both to change into. He knows all of your favourite fabrics and garment styles off by heart, and he has enough of them in his room to clothe an army. And he remembers your favourite pieces, so he can always bring them to you when you need the comfort. Also, side note, he loves the way you look when you're in pyjamas, you're just so soft and cosy and happy and he loves it so much (Silco is a softie here if you couldn't tell)
~ He'll bring you your favourite hot drink, maybe spiked if you like it that way (he'll ask first of course). He likes showing off that he remembers all of your favourite things; it brings him a lot of pride to be good at making you happy, and there's something satisfying about keeping a notebook full of everything he can do to show you he loves you.
~ as he helps you settle in and relax, he'll stroke your back and help you settle into the bedding, perched in a way that's comfortable but still upright enough for you to drink your hot beverage.
- once you're both settled in bed, he'll ask if you want to talk it through or if you'd rather take your mind off of things for a while. He knows that there's no concrete solution to discomfort, so he leaves the course of action up to you.
Talking (side branch)
- he'll always let you speak first when it comes to your mental health. It's one of the few times that he's not an absolute yapper. He'll respond to you with the utmost understanding and care, but he'll let you do most of the talking.
- if you find that touch helps, he'll give you little kisses all throughout the talk, his arms wrapped around your shoulders and your head on his chest, blankets over you both. Your heartbeats and breathing will be in sync, and not only will you be connected by words, you'll almost feel like you share a body with how close you are.
- everything you say will be taken to heart. Boundaries, insecurities, triggers, whatever you tell him about, he will find a way to show support through respect, encouragement, and protection. He's solution oriented, and though he knows now isn't the time for planning, he's coming up with ideas on how to help you through this. He'll tell you about them later, but for now, he's more focused on listening and supporting you through this.
Distraction (back to the main branch but it's gonna split again)
- if you'd rather just have a distraction (or if you decide that you want to do something after your talk), he'll pour you both some wine, then pick something relaxing for you both to do (each section describes a full night, seperate realities/occurences/whatever you want to see them as):
Music (ending 1)
- he might put on music, something soothing and fancy. He'll hold out a hand and invite you to dance with him, holding you close as you sway slowly across the floor. It's such a simple affair: you're just in his room, wearing cosy pyjamas and getting tipsy on wine, but it feels like you've stepped into heaven, like a gala for just the two of you, more royal and beautiful than anything the Piltover aristocrats could even think of hosting.
- he'll give you the gentlest kisses across your cheek and neck as you step slowly with the symphonic harmony of instruments, occasionally taking sips of wine through the song, until you're both laughing and dizzy and blushing. It'll get to the point that you can't stay standing, so you'll get all comfy in bed for the night.
- as the wine spins the room and muffles your thoughts, you whisper to each other about your memories, the future, what you love about each other. Your voices keep getting quieter and quieter, your words less intelligible with each sentence until you drift off to sleep. You don't realise it in that moment, but the memory of your discomfort had been shadowed by the memory of giggling with your lover over wine and music.
Reading (ending 2)
- stories are great at helping us with memories, whether we process them or leave them behind, whichever we need more. Silco knows this, so he grabs a book from his shelves for you to read together.
- he snuggles up in the blankets with you, one arm wrapped around your shoulder and holding his wine, the other holding the book. His cheek rests on your head, and his embrace feels like a shield from all the discomfort of earlier.
- he's a fast reader, so he always waits for you to flip the page after he's done, giving you time to read the whole page. Even if you're faster than him and you flip before he's done reading, he doesn't mind; he'd rather fill in the blanks than force you to sit with your thoughts and wait for him.
- he has a massive collection of books, so it's no surprise that he always manages to find one that both of you will enjoy, combining both your tastes into a perfectly curated story. It's how you found some of your favourite books, actually, just by having him pick one you'll both like, so you trust his judgement.
- while you read together, he plants kisses on your head, rubs his cheek against your hair, and matches your breathing as it becomes slow and calm. You both sip your wine as you read, and it doesn't take long for you both to feel sleepy in the warmth and comfort of each other's presence.
- as soon as he can see that you've nodded off, he'll put the book aside with a bookmark where you left off. He'll have a smile plastered on his face as he cuddles up beside you, pulling him close with a goodnight kiss to your forehead.
Movie (ending 3)
- if you're a movie person, he uses that as a way to comfort and distract you when you need it. He usually prefers mystery and drama, but he lets you pick the movie tonight, no matter the genre. He's not as good at picking movies that you'll both like. For some reason that only works with books and music.
- a nice bonus to this is that he gets to show you that he cares about your interests! This is one of his favourite ways of showing love so he's just as happy as you.
- he's an attentive movie watcher, and he'll match your energy regarding chatting: if you make jokes throughout the film, he'll laugh at them and maybe even make a few back if he's tipsy enough. If you like to pause the movie and analyze each part, he'll listen and genuinely enjoy the depth you add. If you like to be silent throughout the movie, he will be silent with you and he will love it.
- sipping wine and watching the screen, wrapped in each other's arms, you both relax quickly (unless it's a horror movie then maybe not). He'll likely fall asleep midway through, because you're just so warm and comfy and wine always knocks him out, and something about having a movie going while he's sleepy is like a lullaby for him. He'll give a very earnest apology the next morning for falling asleep and be an absolute kicked puppy about it even if you insist it's not a big deal (he's a pathetic loser β€οΈ).
- if he DIDN'T fall asleep, be ready for an analysis. Part of his love language is getting really interested in the things you show him so he will have NOTEBOOKS to show you lemme tell you. It's like an assignment for him and he just does it for fun because he wants you to feel important and seen and loved.
Wrapping up
- of course, sex drive is an unstable thing, and you can't erase traumatic memories or triggers with a few sweet moments. But as time goes on, you'll find yourself feeling more and more confident and comfortable about your needs, more sure of your safety and state of consent, and more established in your boundaries, leading to an all around healthier sexual relationship between you and Silco.
- every time you ask him to stop, no matter how rare those times become, it's this routine, and many of these things become quick sources of comfort for you because of Silco's care. Healing takes time, and he will be there with you every step of the way. Through sickness and in health, honey π
π Thanks for reading, be cringe do crimes π
Posted: August 7th 2025
Edited: September 3rd 2025 (tags and noticing my NUMEROUS spelling/grammar mistakes)
π₯±π Silco dating someone with a disordered sleep ππ₯±
I can't come up with titles for the life of me
Synopsis: features sections for those who can't fall asleep, can't stay asleep, and/or can't stay awake. Reader can be anyone, target audience is those with disordered sleep. Not a very long post but still :)
Silco: caring, also has disordered sleep, worries lots but is respectful. He/him, no specific gender or sex. No speech in this one.
ππ Enjoy! ππ
Can't fall asleep
- he also cannot fall asleep most nights. Something about decades of constantly fearing for your life and working and being mentally ill makes it difficult to sleep.
- he generally works until very late, which is inconvenient for you because it's much harder to fall asleep without him.
- a lot of nights, you'll end up in his lap while he works, having spent hours trying and failing to fall asleep in bed. Since you usually fall asleep with him in his chair, he often carries you to bed and goes to sleep by your side.
- generally, people who tell Silco to go to bed are ignored, but if you're asking him to come to bed and help you sleep, he is under the covers in an instant. For one, he loves you and would do anything you ask, for another, you're a great excuse to take a break. It makes him feel less like he's being selfish and more like he's just fulfilling his duties as your partner.
Can't stay asleep
- on any night that he knows you won't be able to stay asleep (whether that's every night or only some of them) he'll move his work to the bedroom so he can be near you.
- for one, he wants to make sure you're okay if you're the type to have nightmares, but also he wants to be there to help you fall back asleep whenever you wake up.
- he intends to finish up his work in his and your room, but when he's there by your side, watching your features twitch in your sleep, your lips slightly parted, your hair all tousled, he finds it much harder to stay awake. Every time, he ends up crawling into bed with you before he finishes his work.
- he helps create a quiet, dark environment to make it easier for you to stay asleep, ensuring that no one enters the room, no noise enters the space, and the only light is the dim lamp he uses for his work. Even if he can't stop you from slipping out of sleep, he at least wants to make things easier for you.
Can't stay awake
- as soon as he notices how frequently you pass out, he starts putting pillows and blankets everywhere so that if you crash, you have a comfortable place to do it.
- it's to the point that Sevika worries for his reputation, but when she brings it up, he very quickly expresses how little he cares about his reputation compared to your health.
- everyone who works for Silco is ordered to help you if you ever pass out around them and he isn't there. They have to make sure you don't get injured, regularly check your breathing and pulse, and bring you to the nearest doctor if you're out for too long.
- they don't need to do this often, though, since he'll go anywhere with you if you allow him to. He doesn't coddle you or infantilize you, and he knows you can handle yourself, but he worries about you and wants to be there if something goes wrong.
- you're always welcome to fall asleep in his lap or on the couch in his office, whatever's most comfortable for you β€οΈ
ππ Thanks for reading, be cringe do crimes! ππ
