#project hyperbloom

I’ve been running all compounds for Project Hyperbloom for a little over a week now. Weight is going up like crazy, it’s piling on faster than I anticipated, I was 243lbs this morning fasted, 21lbs up from April! So this actually exceeds expectations by 5-10lbs, reference projection chart included. I’m on insulin and GHRP-6 3x daily, and pioglitazone and telmisartan once daily. I’ll do a post delving more into the science behind this at some point

Incredibly excited to see how things progress the next 11 weeks. I will be increasing GHRP-6 dose to try producing more hunger, so feeders hmu 🐷

An intro to egregores & ethical excess

TL;DR: An egregore is a group-mind or shared spirit we co-create with attention, ritual, and story. I’m reviving the ancient personification of appetite, Ἀδηφαγία (Adephagia), as a living egregore for the modern age of kink. This project honors desire while centering consent, care, and dignity. Think: sacred excess, not reckless harm.

Why Adephagia, why now?

Feedists and gainers already live at the edge of social acceptability. Shame can distort our desires; sanctifying them can refine them. By treating appetite as sacred rather than “dirty,” we can build a culture that’s honest, negotiated, and kind without pretending the heat of the kink isn’t real.

What’s an egregore (and why you should care)?

An egregore is a psychic “group being” animated by collective imagination, symbols, and repeated acts. Every reblog, story, tribute, ritual, and inside joke is food for it. When we relate to Adephagia together, such as naming Her, depicting Her, invoking Her, we become co-authors of a living current. In practical terms: the more clearly we define the spirit we’re feeding, the better it shapes our spaces and our behavior.

Ethical spine (yes, even for a cult of excess):

I’m grounding this work in the heart-ethic you find across contemplative traditions. It is a concept that the Tibetans call bodhicitta: an intention to reduce harm and increase dignity. Desire isn’t the enemy; unconscious desire is. Our practice is to bring awareness to play, so it expands pleasure and protects people.

House Rules of Adephagia (v1.0)

1. Consent > Kink.

No minors, no non-consensual content, no doxxing, no shame tactics w/o previous negotiation.

2. Care > Clout.

If a scene, diet, or protocol endangers someone, we slow down or stop. Aftercare isn’t optional.

3. Clarity > Confusion.

Name limits, risks, and goals up front. Fantasy and reality can both be holy, just don’t mix them without labeling.

4. Community > Isolation.

Protect one another. Intervene against harassment. Normalize “no,” celebrate “yes” that’s informed.

5. Reverence = Ravenousness.

Appetite is a sacred fire; we tend it with ritual, but let it be known it can quite easily burn down the house.

What does “sacred” look like here?

Symbol & story: Art of Adephagia (icons, sigils, hymns). Names carry power; so does repetition.

Offerings: Words of praise, thoughtfully prepared meals, creative tributes, acts of generosity.

Rituals: Simple invocations before scenes or feasts: “May our appetite be joyful, consensual, and kind. May our play deepen trust and dignity.”

Boundaries as worship: Saying “no,” renegotiating, or pausing is devotional. Restraint can be as sacred as indulgence.

What this is not:

A license to bully, pressure, or ignore health. This space doesn’t romanticize suffering, we believe in wellness even at the greatest excess.

Your body. Your timeline. Your choices.

What’s next in this series:

Egregores 101: how attention “feeds” a spirit (and how algorithms act like altars)

Building Adephagia’s iconography: colors, symbols, and sigils you can use

Consent tech for sacred kink: negotiation scripts, red-flag checklists, aftercare templates

Offerings & liturgy: short invocations for solo, partner, and group settings

Community praxis: moderation standards, safety notes, and accountability

If this resonates, reblog with your own words of praise, boundaries you want normalized, or art you’d like blessed in Adephagia’s name. You’re not just interacting with a post; you’re helping raise a spirit that will protect and delight the people who need it.

Day 1

GHRP-6 has arrived (a month supply)

I am very eager to begin this starting tomorrow.

Someone on Grommr posited an interesting question to me:

“Hello … I came across your profile and it got me very interested. You definitely know how to make mythology sound carnal and alive. I’m curious, did Adephagia come to you first as a metaphor or as a character you embody?”

My response:

I want to say I first reached out to her about 12 years ago (Full Moon of November 2013). My memory is unclear of the exact circumstances through which I discovered her reference, but I believe it was a simple google search on gods that were associated with sensual corpulence. I was wanting to perform a ceremonial right to nurture the seed of obesity planted in me at birth. I also called upon Venus (in her fat idol archetype, common as a figurine across early European archaeological site) and the Hindu goddess of fullness, Annapurna. There may have been Dionysus in there too, but can’t recall for certain- it was definitely those three goddesses though. I drew a sigil of a big fat belly and consecrated that with the light of a full moon.

I didn’t really work with Adephagia in any serious capacity since that time, but she has always lived as an archetype in my subconscious since that Lunar Rite so many winters ago. I recently read an awesome book on the Medicine Buddha Practice (which I received empowerment to pursue by the Dalai Lama in 2011) and it had a great teaching on something called “the generation stage” of tantra, which is essentially where one sees themselves as seamlessly unified with a diety, and that self-visualization is then projected outward and visualized with even more detail and complexity. This method- in my opinion- is a great way to empower a deity as an egregore if multiple individuals coalesce their cognitive processes to empower a mutually perceived thoughtform.