I suppose I should start with an apology... “I'll have the next part up by next week!” doesn't often mean in 5 months time! All I can say really is that I've now finished my final year of school - it started to become more work than I could easily handle alongside writing, and I suppose I logged off one day and just never returned. However, I completed my final A-level exams about 2 weeks ago, and have been working on myself since. I’m currently in the best place mentally that I've been in for probably years now, and the past week has been filled with non-stop writing - I organised my school’s first every ‘literary festival’ and was able to perform some of my own poetry to some very important people (perhaps i’ll post some on here eventually)! It was a huge success, and I think it reminded me of just how much I adore writing. Of how I just need to keep writing. So I am.

Part two of ‘Project Death’ will be up within a few days, and now that I finally have time to focus on writing, updates should become fairly regular. I’ve tagged those who were in my original taglist in this so you can have an update on the story. Please, let me know if you want to be tagged or removed from the taglist, and I'll try and sort it out! I'll link part 1 so if anyone knew is reading this it’s easy to find :) thank you so much to everyone who’s stuck with me and I'm so sorry if I've ignored anyone's message - I look forward to speaking with you all again!

Project Death: Part 1 

- Iz xx

After being held captive in a HYDRA facility for years, (Y/N) has all but forgotten everything about herself; knowing only that which is necessary for her own survival. After being rescued by the Avengers, she struggles to adapt to a (mostly) regular life once again, and realises there may have been more to life she was missing out on than previously thought.

Fandom: Avengers (post-IW and EG but with a happy ending where no one dies)

Pairings: (eventual) Bucky x fem!reader, (eventual) platonic!avengers x fem!reader

Warnings: violence, blood, pain, mentions of torture, implications of self harm, imprisonment, panic attacks, strong language, basically every bad thing, eventual NSFW, slow burn, ANGST, bad writing, probably fluff later, literally everything idk

A/N: hey guys! this is going to be my first ever fic omg, it’s going to be pretty damn awful I'm afraid but practice makes perfect, right? I don't know how long it’s going to be, the first few chapters are underway however and they’re each averaging around just over 1,000 words each. Also I'm not too sure on the synopsis so the description may change eventually whoops. Please feel free to spare a like, comment, reblog, or follow if it turns out you don't hate it! the first chapter will hopefully be up relatively soon (I'm super unorganised I apologise in advance), if you want to be on the tag list then please shoot me a message! :) any and all constructive criticism is welcome! I have a few other pieces in the works so be sure to keep an eye out for any more.

thanks for reading! Iz xx

Part 1 (prologue)

After being held captive in a HYDRA facility for years, (Y/N) has all but forgotten everything about herself; knowing only that which is necessary for her own survival. After being rescued by the Avengers, she struggles to adapt to a (mostly) regular life once again, and realises there may have been more to life she was missing out on than previously thought.

Fandom: Avengers (post-IW and EG but with a happy ending where no one dies)

Pairings: (eventual) Bucky x fem!reader, (eventual) platonic!avengers x fem!reader

Warnings: violence, blood, pain, mentions of torture, implications of self harm, imprisonment, panic attacks, strong language, basically every bad thing, eventual NSFW, slow burn, ANGST, bad writing, probably fluff later, literally everything idk

WC: 1,375

A/N: first chapter!! thank you guys so much for all the support you’ve already given me, I can't tell you just how much it means to me! a reminder that this is literally the first fic I've ever written so don’t expect it to be fantastic or anything, any feedback or constructive criticism is very much appreciated! Shoot me a message if you wanted to be added to (or removed from) the tag list and I'll add you for the next part :)

Thank you for reading!  Iz xx

Footsteps.

 You could hear footsteps.

 You knew they were yours. You knew you were walking, because you could hear your own footsteps. You knew where you were - the metallic stench of the facility stung your nose, working it’s way into your head and making your eyes water. You blinked away the fog which disappeared as suddenly as it had come on, snapping yourself back to the present. Zoning out wasn't a rarity with you - living in your own head made it all a hell of a lot easier. In doing so you also blinked away the droplets which formed in the corner of your eyes, barely noticing the mild discomfort - it was just a small nagging in the back of your head, one you couldn’t bring yourself to mind.

There wasn’t much more that you knew, and so you tried to keep a mental note of what you did know. One of those things was you knew that the list was getting smaller. You also knew that you didn’t know the time, whether it was day or night, didn’t know the date, or the year, or the name of the guard walking directly behind you (you could tell he was there because there was another set of footsteps not quite matching yours), or if you’ll be able to eat in the foreseeable future. ‘Foreseeable’ being irony.

The rhythmic clank, clank, clank of the chain on your legs kept you focused as you walked. You did know it would be a while before you could walk again, and you revelled in the delicious ache deep in the muscles as you stretched each leg as far as it would willingly go. The pain from this was a comfortable, familiar pain. The burning at your joints became a constant - the only one you could depend on. It kept you grounded - whatever was happening, you knew the burning would still be there.

A sudden jerk to the chain on your arm and you were halted abruptly, your weight on one foot as the other hovered mid-step. Another, and you were turning to your right; a large metal door now looming above you. You knew that this was your Room.

The keypad next to the door lit up when you were stood opposite it, the individual keys glowing with a florescent blue light so harsh that you had to force yourself not to look away or blink.

You couldn’t show weakness.

It wasn’t as if you could tear your gaze away, though - the colour always filled you with an alien emotion, one you couldn’t place if you tried (and you had, for hours, with nothing else to do after being left in the Room). It was almost a memory from another time, another life… which was ridiculous, right? 

The guard punched a combination in - different to the last time - and the mocking blue turned to a cruel green. He reached around you to twist the doorknob which had appeared after the light changed, his arm brushing your side for a split second too long. He was new. With a creak, the door swung open and you were shoved inside, stumbling unceremoniously before managing to righten yourself. A faint click echoed around the room and blood rushed back into your hands, tingling, as the chains fell at your feet. You turned now to face the man, eyes angled downwards, taking two measured steps backwards until your spine hit the wall. You held your hands out to either side, not even bothering to raise your head to see the power-hungry smirk the guard would have on his face now. Cold rushed through your stomach as you felt the harsh metal encase your fist again, this time holding it against the wall. You were used to this - didn’t know anything else - yet a small part of you, hidden in the far recesses of your mind, remained terrified, and it threatened to grow each time you heard the metal snap. You were reminded of this as your other hand faced the same doom, and you were left to swallow the feeling before it could establish itself into something more.

 You. couldn’t. show. weakness. 

Your ankles were given the same treatment, and it wasn’t long before the man reached to push your shirt up, the concrete wall behind you grazing scarred skin as your only layer of protection was withdrawn. The friendly burn from your limbs was now drowned out by the harsher, newer burn enveloping your torso -  the cool metal casing pressing you further into the wall, your own personal, hidden coffin. Your shirt was yanked messily back down over the top, hiding the miniature prison from view, and you had to choke back a whimper when you remembered what would be coming next. The fear always became almost impossible to ignore by this point. The guard noticed your gulp, and the way your eyes screwed shut, and he tilted his thin mouth into an evil grin once again as he drew himself to his full height (which, you noted, was not very high).  He opened his mouth to speak, a foul stench reaching your senses nearly making you gag, but was interrupted by an echoing yell and a crash from somewhere in the facility. You could feel old scars on your back reopen as your subsequent flinch made you press yourself into the wall far as possible (not very far). He closed his mouth (to your nose’s relief) and turned his head with a roll of his eyes to glance out the open door behind him, muttering under his breath something about needing a better defence system. You, however, were not paying attention to anything he said and were too busy trying to frantically figure out the source of the noise, your heartbeat rising unsteadily as your mind raced at increasing speeds, each rise and fall of your chest bringing a fresh rush of pain as more skin was pressed against the metal corset. You had barely noticed when the guard turned back around, pushing greasy hair back from his face, and was now reaching for the Mask.

 You didn’t - couldn’t - react as he placed it over your head, the metal stinging where it rested on the crown of your head and bruised cheek bones, and instead focused on pacing your breaths. Your vision was now obscured by small meal bars running over your eyes, and you bared your teeth as you made out the guard reaching up to pat the side of your cheek, not being able to feel it due to the thick leather. Another crash echoed through the halls - closer this time than the last, and a mix of fear and fury finally rushed through your veins. Upon hearing it, the guard’s gaze hardened, and he placed his face directly opposite yours, barking commands and reiterating orders of what to do in an emergency, lest you had forgotten. You, however, were still not listening - couldn’t even hear him over the rushing sound in your ears - and instead focused on bringing your head, heavy mask and all, down onto his with as much strength you could muster. He hadn’t put your neck harness on yet, and now he was unconscious on the floor.

Fear flooded through your system, unchallenged by the retreating rage. Oh god, what had you done? You now noticed, though your vision was still severely limited, that the alarms had sounded and every room was swallowed in a pulsating red, one which invaded your mind and chased out any emotion - any thought - other than pure terror. The door to The Room still was wide open, and the guard you had dropped lay in full view of the corridor, just waiting for someone to discover. This time you allowed the whimper to escape your throat as you desperately wished that the punishment this time would be death… you just couldn’t face the testing any longer. A second muffled cry joined the first as you allowed yourself to dwell on the possibility that no one would find out - no one would pass you and see that you were still trapped in the room, starving and rotting away into nothing but the shell that your mind had already become.

Oooooh I wonder who’s about to show up? ;) I promise things will actually start happening in the next part sksksk I’m yelling it’s so dark, I’m so sorry! well there you have it folks, part one! I've no idea when part 2 will be up I'm afraid, it shouldn't be long though. I’m not 100% happy with this but I think the more I look over it the more annoyed I'll be with it, so may as well just post it and get it out of the way! Once again thank you so much for the support and any constructive criticism / feedback is always welcome! I hope you enjoyed :)

p.s. sorry if your tag didn't work! I'm working to fix it :)

Maverick was an honest mistake you fixed, but for the others I’m sure you do have permission, so that’s not the issue. The real issue is something that ironically enough, also happened in The Puppetmaster, which is when Maverick made his big move in ASOOT.

For those who don’t know, in The Puppetmaster, a massive plot point is that Kana Ise and Chiaki Nanami were half siblings, and this was done by Tenemi offering to be a sperm donor for Misako since he, his wife and Misako were lifelong friends, but Misako’s husband forced no contact and then when Kana was told this many years later, and told this to Maverick, he spun it to make it look like Tenemi cheated on Harumi. Good plotline overall, but one major problem. Bubbles didn’t consult Poi about this at all, and so when people went over to NWPM and assumed Tenemi cheated on Harumi, to say Poi was pissed off was an understatement. This has been made up now, but the point is, Bubbles got heat for not consulting Poi about something risky like that. A mistake…you are repeating again and again, and again. You are basically doing five Puppetmasters, by doing stuff with other people’s OCs that is very risky, and they might not approve of it.

When it comes to doing risky stuff with people’s own characters, you need permission. For example Sunako getting killed off like she did, Poi complained about it since not only was the manner she killed off in extremely bad, but also quite OOC for her. That is why people are getting angry, it’s not the using characters in the first place, it’s using them in what people assume is a very risky manner.

This is why I did ban you from using my own originals characters, as not only do they not work in a setting like this as they are very ethereal and strange, but I was worried about them being mischaracterised. And before people say that RA can be channelled by the Fey clan, no she can’t. I know how Ace Attorney spirit channelling works, you need the face of a person and their name to do so and since RA is a spirit without identity and unable to move on, she fails these conditions spectacularly.

So now I pointed out the main flaw, what can be done about it? Simple; run by any risky ideas with their original creators first and they can tell either if it works, doesn’t work, or if it requires some tweaking. I’m sure Poi would love to help you out with improving the story. Some askblogs are solo acts, and while they are all have one writer, they often have others helping with finetuning story ideas and making sure anything controversial gets nipped in the bud.

Communication is the key here, as this is an original idea to mesh various universes together into an amalgamation, but when you misuse people’s OCs, don’t act surprised when they get mad, if someone misused your OCs, would you be angry? Yeah I thought so.

Basically the lesson here is to be considerate to other people and before you do anything risky like killing them off, or making them do something controversial, for heaven’s sake run it by the original creator first. That’s all we ask of you.

//Hi Review Anon, thank you for telling me this.

//So you're right. I've been using other mod like Poi's characters wrongly. And may I be honest?

//I regretted killing off Sunako. In fact, I was super disgusted when I was writing this. I should have deleted it, but yet I posted it, And Poi was not aware of this, until I've just read this.

//But when I wrote this story, I was a little nervous, in fact, maybe fearful to ask you, or the other mods for advice or if I want to use the character for the intense role, which I should have done the moment I opened this blog.

//I'm already aware that this blog has criticism and some out of character moment, so here's what I'm going to do:

//I'm going to make a new remake of this story, and make it much better this time, since the start of this blog and the stories therefore on was utter dogsh*t.

//I won't take down this blog, but I didn't like how I was writing this story, as @poisonrozen and you, of course, noticed, so I'm going to start over again, and make a new plot line,

//If you don't want me to use your characters, that's fine. I won't use your characters for this blog.

//Just want to say that I'm sorry for using the mod's characters incorrectly without letting them know, a mistake that I have repeated, and I promise to never repeat it again. Starting soon.

//And P.S: I'm sorry for your loss, Review Anon. Rest in piece to your nan.