May 4, 2021
*fantasizes about cultivating really terrible facial hair*
#like not even on-purpose-terrible just like. i doubt my squashy little face would be improved by it#but like. just think. i could rub my fuzzy lil face the way i rub my fuzzy little calves. comfort fur.#like just in general 'body as sensory playground for self' > 'body as consumable aesthetic object'#i was going to add 'for others' but like. honestly i think the distinction a lot of people make between 'for others' and 'for themselves' is#kind of nonsense#ime even like. women getting dressed up to go on dates get dressed up in a way they think is cute‚ period.#it's not like 'oh i personally feel bad in this outfit but i'm Wearing It For My Man.' you learn 2 feel cute in what society says is cute#I Know‚ It Happened 2 Me#like the only circs i can think of where people are explicitly dressing to other people's aesthetic standards while violating their own are#professional settings#and/or if you're trying to pass as cis and/or het (often a concern in professional settings but not *just* there)#but ultimately like. what we think is cute is in dialogue with what society has taught us is cute‚ i feel like#for definitions of 'society' that include 'queer subcultures'#(obviously like. ppl who dress in ways that are deliberately visibly gnc Aren't Doing It For the Gender Police)#(but i do think we do it in the context of like. working towards a different concept of what's aesthetically pleasing)#(which IS subculturally-supported)#but anyway i just don't think it's ever as straightforward as 'i'm presenting myself this way For Me‚ Not For Society'—you contain society#but like. idk. i guess really my point is 'it's not a simple either/or binary'#(who could ever have seen that stance coming from me)#anyway uh. love the evolution of this post. this IS what it's like 2 be in my brain actually.#Wild Rollercoaster Tangents of Dubious Validity#also i started this post hours ago & then got distracted and forgot to hit post. which is similarly‚ alas‚ on brand. anyway. go time.
