#procrastilate

27/02/21

hello again. it's nearly the end of february and.. what a month. apologies that i haven't been around here much, thank you for sticking around x

february has always been sort of a rough one for me, largely because it includes the anniversary of my birth. this year, it was different in a lot of ways but i wouldn't have had it any other way. i am now 22 and i haven't really thought about it since.

having spent the previous months existentially crippled by the lack of progress towards my future, not ruminating over the concept of time has been nice. trying to deal with each worry in chronological order, y'know.

being busy has helped, i guess, even if in an unexpected, and equally uncomfortable, way. i started streaming on twitch on my birthday, which was.. a thing? it's been good. weird, but good. i sort of forgot what it's like to step outside of the ol' comfort zone and keep doing something until it's more normal. apparently, streaming on most days is nearly normal.

it's starting to get warmer again. it's great, but i'm having trouble choosing an appropriate jacket for my walks and campus is full of people and families going to the woods. i'm feeling guilty for not getting out for walks every day, because the weather's nice, but there's just so many people out there.

i think geology students will be back to in-person teaching soon, so i'm nervous that my new routine is going to get messed around again. i'll figure it out soon hopefully.

i'm a couple of weeks behind on asynchronous stuff, but decided this week that rather than being perpetually 3 weeks behind for the rest of the year, i'm going to pretend like the last few weeks didn't happen and focus on the current week, unless i have extra time. i think that will be easier on my brain. i hope so.

this week has been a bit different than the rest of it with some spontaneous sunset chasing and geode smashing, but that's it. february 2021 - started eh, upgraded to eh?.

anyway, i hope you are all taking care of yourselves. don't forget to drink water and give your body the energy it needs. you are loved. i hope things are starting to get easier, and that february has been kind. if not (and if), i hope march gets her act together and helps u out. you deserve so many good days. good months. good things.

❄️ winter studying challenge ❄️ 27th january

i sat down to do the literature review part of my introduction for my final year project/dissertation and managed to bash out ~700 words, i feel like i’m finally getting into the swing of things with it!

have icy blue skin or have a runny nose all the time?

as someone who gets really bad hayfever, i will never choose to have a runny nose lmaooo icy blue skin all the way i guess!

coffee date - did anything unintentionally amusing or entertaining come out of your area's restrictions or response to COVID?

hmm not really, no 🤔

textbook - if you could give advice to a younger student in your position, what would it be?

here’s a very specific one: always plan ahead. everything that you do/have to do — homework, papers, research, presentations, etc., always always always plot everything in advance and try your best to stick to that schedule. this helps in overseeing your deadlines so that you know how to manage them well, instead of cramming everything the last minute. in my opinion, planning ahead makes you efficient, productive, and doing so makes you more appreciative of the very idea of studying :)

thank you for the asks and I hope this helps. take care, too! x

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You too, I hope you’re having a lovely day!!

🌳 Tree: What is one thing in your future you are looking foward towards? 

Becoming a doctor or actually buying myself an apartment with a nice balcony!!

🍯 Honey: What is one thing you like about yourself?

I like that I try to do new stuff even if I’m afraid

oop two posts in a week, can’t get rid of me now!

i’m on a productivity high right now. not so much in terms of academics, more so in terms of making my life easier - hopefully in a sustainable way.

i have doubts that it’ll last but sure as heck i’m gonna spend my last month of being 21 trying to get my shit together.

i don’t have any words of wisdom but like so much of it is me asking myself:

‘what can I do today that’s going to make tomorrow easier?’

and bam.

yes, we’re going to put a few clothes away so it doesn’t pile up. yes, we’re going to do the washing up before bed so we have clean dishes for tomorrow. yes, we’re going to grind coffee the night before. yes, we going to plan the simple shit just because we can and it means we don’t have to spend an unnecessary amount of time failing to make decisions.

honestly doing little things instead of letting them build up and become a big overwhelming task is a frickin game changer.

like so many times i’ll see a pile of stuff of everything is a mess or whatever and it’s just too much. but doing it as you go so it never gets to that point? genius. ultimate big brain.

so if there’s something you can do today that will make tomorrow easier, this is a lil’ nudge to say that you got this. 5 minutes doing something quick right now is so much less painful than that times how many days you put it off for.

i hope today you manages to do something lil’ today that will help tomorrow’s you.

is all of them an option?