#primatetherian

Moving over to bluesky! User is still @toymonkeytails hope go interact with you all over there! I just can’t keep up with posting on several different platforms

Horse brain wants to lay in a field while the rain runs over my coat and mane, monkey brain is like bruh wtf get in a tree and snuggle???? Do you want to freeze?

Around the time the weather started to warm I felt a shift in myself and started to realize I was also a horse. I started to hyper fixate on pony play and horses in general, and how horse really felt like a reflection of myself and not just an interest of mine. As the weather moves back into fall, the cold, the rain, I can tell I’m starting to regress back into a monkey. And that was never gone but it faded into the background. I don’t spend much time dissecting my identities (transgender, and then therian) once I figure something out that’s sorta the end for me. I don’t pull it apart to understand the workings, just kinda accept it as a facet of my being and move on. But I’m going to try and really think about it and make it a priority to really understand these deeper parts of me because I think that’s probably important 

Mate stayed at my apartment like a week maybe even two weeks ago and I’m still finding his fur in my bed!!!!! It’s so long

After much consideration, I’ve figured out that not only am I a snub nosed monkey, but also an American quarter horse!! :D the warmer seasons really brought this on, it took me a while to kinda figure it out, work out what kind of horse. For a while I thought I was just having a fixation on pony play with no deeper meaning, but I think it really lead me to figure out that I am a horse (not that pony play can’t still be its own separate thing)

I feel so animal when I’m sad, curl in on myself completely, wrap my tail around my head, condense myself as much as possible. I think it’s because my sadness is one of my very deepest feelings, I feel nothing in my body so fully like I do sadness. It brings out all my animal, turns off my brain. It’s what comforts me the most, at least in my sadness if nothing else. I feel exactly the way I’m supposed to