#primal potential

Sorry for the long pause in my story. I had trouble signing back in the blog. Well a lot has changed. I will give you all the update!

Well in 2022, I was hospitalized for mental health reasons. I was so hyper my parents sent to the clinic. It was scary and I think it made my fragile state even worse. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1. You think I would be happy about knowing what is wrong with me, but the new medications cause different problems.

All the weight loss that I have achieved has gone backwards. My sugars are almost at the diabetic range and I have serve fatigue issues. The fatigue is getting in the way of my life. I just do not want to do anything. I would hate to be on more medications but my primary care doctor may have to.

Well it has all been 1 year since I have posted anything. For starters I finished my degree in May 2017. I got a couple of jobs right away. I was extremely busy until December 2017. That is when I lost one of my jobs. I felt pretty awful but there was nothing I could have done. The job was not a good fit. I see that now.

Today I have 3 jobs. Only one career related. So it is time for another change. I am going to leave my pet sitting/dog walking job. It is just getting to be too much for me to handle. I just hope my friend will not be too upset that I lose a friendship. I did apply to more massage therapy jobs. I am just waiting to hear back from any of them.

Well I got my degree and my license. Yippee! Now I am looking for a career job thing. I am so excited that I passed my classes. We had a big party on the last day of school. I really do miss my peers now. Some of us have found jobs and others are starting their own businesses. Right now I cannot work for myself but I want to be my own boss one day.

It has been a long time since I have written. There is no good excuse. I feel that writing is a good form of therapy for my brain. I still have my pen pals that I write to about twice a month. We have snail mail here, so letters take time.

I am still at a steady weight. I was going to the gym or working out 5 days a week. Then I hurt my back. Doing what, I am not sure. Now I am off the cycle. But I have been job hunting and going for interviews. I left one of my jobs.

Well I missed all of February. Nothing too exciting is going on. School is going okay. I have a Big Paper to write. I hope to graduate in May. I have everything I need to start a mobile business if I want to. I am getting requests all ready. 

I hurt my back last week. I am still not 100%. I can continue with school. I rode my horse this morning. I think I need to see a Chiropractor. That is money I don't have. But my health has to come first.

Well this month was full of excitement. My mom had a mini-health scare. It started when she noticed a lump on her neck. It was a enlarged lymph node. She had it removed this month and have tests run on it. It came back as nothing. It was a enough to make me nervous. I am so HAPPY things turned out well.

My college is going well too. I have a big project and I have half of it done. This makes me happy. I only have a few things left to do. I got my massage table in December. I have yet to use it. I have a test coming up. My other classes are arranged differently, so I get home for dinner. I hoping this stays the same. I like being able to decompress.

Well I missed the month of October entry. I guess I have to do two entries this month.

Anyway it was an eventful month. We had a hurricane swing by us. We had to evacuate to a friend's house. We did have some fun exploring the new area. During the storm we had power, but at home there was no power for 4 days. There was some minor damage, so we lucked out. Others in our town lost everything. I cannot complain.

College is going well. I am proud of myself for keeping up the class. However many people (like half) dropped out. The program head is a little nervous. It is an intense program. There is at least 3 exams a week. I do the bulk of my studying during the weekend. I have no time during the week. My social is non-existing.

In another note, I ordered my Christmas cards all ready. I am still waiting for the them to be shipped. I had a relaxing a Halloween. I could not find my costume in time. My girls group had a party but I find out at the last minute. So I did not go.