#pre-sixth

Just settled down to watch Sherlock. I spent the morning out shopping for some new books with a Waterstones gift voucher I had, and for lunch stopped at Pret for a vegan salad & smoothie (I love how well labelled vegan stuff is at Pret). Since I started bullet journalling I really feel like my wellbeing has improved, I’m constantly thinking “oh have I drunk enough yet”, “oh gotta remember to have lunch” or “must go out for a run later” just so I can shade in a box on my habit tracker on my monthly spread. My bujo just helps me to organise my thoughts so I don’t have to rely on myself to remember things and instead can just look in every few hours.

Started reading some of the books I bought, but I’m saving Beren and Lúthien until I’ve finished the LOTR trilogy. I bought 4 books (one was a cookbook tho). I’m not so sure about the “You Were Not Born to Suffer”, it’s a bit too ‘alternative medicine’ for me and the author seems to rattle on about his past a lot and talk about God, some of the stuff he says has a point though so imma stick with it. Part of me thinks that maybe subconsciously I don’t want to be happy or that I think I deserve to suffer but I’m just trying to sort out my shit at the moment.

I was getting a bit anxious earlier about the amount of work I’ve got to do and how much I’m going to have to understand by September but decided I’d go downstairs to watch TV as I haven’t all day.