#pre work posts

heyya! i didn’t post as much as I did in 2023, and here’s why! for those of you who may not know, I’m a private practice therapist or a shrink as my cousin calls it. I learned a lot this year, especially how to balance my professional self with my personal self because often I become a workaholic and obsessed with being perceived correctly. Which is why I like this blog because none of you know me, so I can be who I want! Anyway, this year I:

spent 1/3 of my year out of the country

got accepted into 4 PhD programs

built my client base almost up to full time (big deal for me!)

went through an awful breakup

kind of got back together with said breakup

split again (being a young therapist means the “I can fix him” mentality goes hard)

spent Christmas with said breakup bc his dad and mine are besties

was told by my supervisor she’d like to start training me for my own practice in 2025

started + collaborated on a specialized curriculum for special needs kids

began facilitating bi-weekly group therapy for a marginalized community

had a massive depressive episode from like august-november

fell back into binge-eating then pulled myself out of it

cried almost every day

NEXT year, I plan on:

moving semi-permanently out of country (most of my job is remote)

get funding for my PhD

expand my client base to full time

let people take care of me

remember that it is not my job to fix people outside of regularly scheduled hours

fix my sleep schedule

begin the build to own my own private practice

pass over all special needs work to other colleagues

ask for help when I start seeing signs of depression

continue to heal my relationship with food

laugh more

she uses me as her personal therapist but the moment I say something she doesn’t like she just- leaves?? Like?? She gets mad and says, “whatever, dude,” but an hour later when she wants me to buy her a coffee she’s fine?? Is this a universal experience or is it just me?

honestly yeah I literally am not quite sure my life is real rn. um last night he told me my eyes were like tiny oceans, “but I’m sure you’ve heard that before” and I was like “no??? I haven’t???” uh anyway he also is dead-set on getting my whole family to adore him and it’s working????? I just. I don’t know. I have like ✨anxiety✨ about it sometimes bc I don’t get what he’s doing with me so I asked him once and he was like “??? I’m in love with you??”

anyway my therapist is having a field day with me because turns out my self esteem is ✨low✨ and this guys is making me realize it, but in a good way not a shitty way.

pls. i beg of u. im not even asking for a lot, i just think maybe you should brush your teeth from time to time. or like, tell your husband you love him bc he’s putting up with your ✨garbáge✨