I met my boyfriend of two years in person for the first time thanksgiving week. A.k.a the best time of my life, (sorry I forgot to post for those of you who follow and know me)

I look at my old tumblr posts about this guy that I was stressing about and I look at my boyfriend now, and I see how clearly toxic and unhealthy the other guy was lol. Idk what the hell was up with my mindset back then but you did some pretty fucked up shit to me Zane. Thanks for fucking up my head though because without all of that I wouldn’t have found the angel I’m with today. I do hope you are well though if you are reading this at all lol.

The love that lasts the longest, is the love that's never returned.

Him and I started speaking again and it's been weird. The first few times he was somewhat miserable when we checked in on each other. Now, he's flirted ? And we are currently still up at 3am on a school night listening to each other's music. Idk I'm keeping things on a "just friends" basis but he's acting very different from his norm.

He can rot in hell for all I care.

So after everything, after about a month of not speaking to him. We start talking again, I will admit that I sent the message first because I was the one that ended it and I felt like it was about time that I stopped being so bitter. Basically he's been doing really bad and he actually wants to come see me. He talking about visiting me at my job and idk how that's gonna work out, but we'll see. I have nothing in mind but friendship... I'll try to be understanding but it's hard swallowing the truth sometimes.

Fuck this.