#posion

I often fantasize about my own death. Thats very normal to hear on this app but i have no interest in harming myself. But sometimes i like to imagine how everyone would react to my death (preferably a suicide) i think im pretty well known in my school and someone who is active. I wonder who would make post, who would talk about it, who would make jokes, who would wish they were friends with me before i did it, i wonder if that would bring my old friend group back together (They split into two groups and are at a lil passive aggressive war) i wonder if there would be an announcement. I wonder what teacher would cry. If i ever for some reason die sooner than im expecting, i hope i can spectate it all. That would be my heaven. To spectate, not having to interact or react. Just watching it all.

SO here's a fun story that happened to me a few days ago. So the day before homecoming I was having my hands and feet fall asleep while I was walking of using them but I thought it was nervousness because it was my first dance in a while. I danced so well that my friends said that it was intimidating "you are like a peacock" it was real fun. Anyway I get home that night and I get to the house and there is a firetruck infront and apparently we had been having carbon monoxide poisioning for the past few days?? Maybe thats why I was so good at dancing.