#poor name

Name never stopped telling his mother how scared he was, she just refused to listen unless it was the way she wanted to hear it.

And to have all of that come together with Em literally choosing to abandon him in order to try and force him to talk to his mother under an alias!? How the fuck is Name forgiving all of this?

Name deserves so much better. I thought Em was truly doing his best but it turns out that nope, nope. He was choosing to not speak to Name because he might start talking instead, I guess.

Name was abandoned, sent to his lowest point, and now he's just... totally fine, I guess. None of that matters or mattered at all.

It’s Blue 

Name is truly alone and now also em has made what his mother say is true now name must think he’s the reason em wont talk to him much why he pushed him away I didn’t like seeing name in this dark place to the point he didn’t even want to live and knowing If his mother didn’t fall out he would had taken those pills breaks me I don’t even want name to end up with em because em doesnt care about name and has showed that I just hope for name to have a happy ending for him to gain friends who care for him and to find someone who would love him back the same way he loves them

Yeah, I'm really wondering what Em meant by that. It's such a confusing sentence that doesn't make sense in context. What else would she mean? Why we she was saying that and why would she refer to Name that way? Why wouldn't he correct her? I just need the context of this and we're not given and next episode's preview didn't offer anything. Like, what's going on? We saw other scenes where Em was implied to still care about Name and just be struggling with time but... this seemed to be the opposite. And to have Name's silence on speaker... I really, really wonder what's going on and I want to know and I hate that I don't.

Because it definitely makes Em look so much worse. And I can't decide if the show is deliberately making Em look worse or if the show has no idea how bad it looks and feels for Em to be in all these silly scenes and only Name to be more serious... I mean, I hope they know and planned for it and want us to think that Em has stopped caring only to pull the rug out on us this next episode and show him being worried. But it doesn't fit yet. I did love the scene a few episodes back when we got to watch Em be frustrated and worried because Name was pushing him away but I don't understand why they stopped showing us that.

Name is so, so alone now and, yeah, watching him believe that his mother was truly right is immensely painful. Because she's not. But Em is giving him every reason to think that and so is everyone else in his life... which is no one because no one is left. No one else seems to be talking to him or encouraging him and we didn't even get any scenes of him talking to the mysterious N this episode so that's gone too!?

I need Name to be able to find some kind of happiness. Even if that's not with Em, no matter what, I need this show to end with him smiling again. Him happy again. Name deserves the world and the show is just not giving him anything at all. They've also gotten so much less time than the other couples lately and that only makes it worse.

Em needs to go back home. Has he really not visited in two years? No going home for breaks and seeing Name? Nothing? Even Champ made it home for a disaster.

Well, I suppose the show implied that he went home but not showing us that he did or the visit with Name basically means it didn't happen.

Also, I've decided that the real travesty of Ja's wig is that it can't be styled different for a scene. So his hair always looks exactly the same even when it really shouldn't. Like, for a wedding, wouldn't he try something slightly different??????

That wig is the worst wig. I truly believe that they would have done better by just tying some rags to his head and pretending he had longer hair. Seriously. It's got exactly one style and it's bad. Oh, it's so bad. Could they really not get a better wig or, like, bleach his hair? Temporary dye? Anything besides that wig?

Also, getting this ask finally convinced me to take that last step and just slap it on so I could end this nightmare.

I have a feeling this marriage speech is supposed to show how great their parents are but, to me, it's just a speech about how terrifyingly fucked up their entire family is and how no wonder Champ barely speaks to them and no one seems to notice or care. These family dynamics are fucked. I hope Champ can really escape. I mean, obviously he won't, the show thinks he's wrong. But seriously. This poor boy.

And we get the two seconds of Name and Em getting together or being together because the show never let them actually breathe and I'd like to keep cursing them for wasting the potential of these two. They had such a story they could have told that they didn't.

Ugh.