do you still love jean? after this whole time?
and here you see @polcmistis / @phcenixwings, kicking my ass
     Which time? He almost wants to ask, but he holds it back. Itâs due to the same reason he bites his tongue whenever someoneâs stupid enough to ask him of all people about time. They donât know. In a way, they canât know. He doesnât know how to look someone with rose in their cheeks and joy in their heart that theyâre dead. A timeline away. Maybe even a universe away, thatâs how it works, right? Time and space are supposed to be a little of the same thing, but Logan canât wrap his head around that. He can barely wrap his head around living past what was meant to be the end.
     Did he love Jean still, even after he had her blood on his claws? Yes, of course. Maybe even a little more, in that picturesque frame of her that he made his mind, the frame that cut out all the inconvenience, all the blame, all the flaws. That Jean Grey, the one that haunted him after her death, was perfect, which made life a little easier to find miserable.
     That was bullshit though, and Logan knew that. Jean didnât exist to wait for him. She deserved her own peace, not Loganâs pining torture. So the world burned in Sentinel flame, and Logan tried to learn from the worst of what he saw from the woman he loved. You burn, yes, but you rise.
     In a way, they all had, right? He couldnât possibly say how things ended in the other timeline, but they were here. Alive. Different, maybe, but alive. Now, with memories more or less in tact (as much as over two centuriesâ worth of memories collected could be in tact in one mind), Logan could recall a younger Jean - and if youâd asked him the question at hand then, it wouldâve been a resounding no. She was a stranger, and he trusted her probably about as far as he could throw her, but sheâd crafted a key to unlock his mind then, given him a freedom beyond the underbelly of Alkali. He was unspeakably grateful for that.
     And now- now, after this whole time? Faced with Jean, having seen the worst of her, believed in the best of her. That she was patient and kind, and murderous and vengeful, and she wouldnât hesitate to tear him to shreds but infinitely hesitates to break his heart, still beating patient to beat for her.
     âYes.â
     He canât hide that. He wonât. Jean Grey is the only person in the world, in any goddamn timeline or universe, that Logan had never bothered to hide his love for.













