#polayam

Just because *I* am capable of holding and maintaining multiple full-fledged conversations at once, that does not mean everyone else is also capable of the same. I realized (not for the first time) yesterday that I often accuse myself of wanting the world to revolve around me because I get upset when I feel I am not getting enough/timely responses, but what's really happening is that I struggle to understand that no one else operates quite like I do. I compare interactions and can fall into a touch of jealousy. It's because I can provide multiple people high levels of attention at once. I switch gears quickly as I swap conversation threads. Most of my people and my partners can't do that. And there is nothing wrong with that. That's also why they may not reply to segments of things I say - because when they try to juggle too much, things get skipped or deemed not necessary to respond to, whereas I will reply to every little bit. I need to remind myself to have patience and understanding. I love them and this is part of them.