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I've been planning for my departure- I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I didn't want you to know How next to you, I- Paled-  And flickered-  And faded. I didn't want you To know anything at all. Forgive me For wrapping your head in wool And burying your body in sand. When I'm gone, I hope you don't think of me.

But, I cannot stop myself still- From watching, like a thief, Being fed, like a beast, By stolen glimpses-  From the grave You dug for me.  And- From- Quietly Silently Unbecoming myself And devouring it whole. 

They say rain can stop a drought, but what if there weren't enough?

They say that happiness comes to those who wait, but what if I'm forever waiting?

They say that people can change, but what if your not worth changing?

3/01/21

If all the shelter had fallen and all the happiness taken, you would still find something to take away to ensure I was still left breaking.

C. H.loaney

Rip up all the carpet, break the tiles on the floors.

Smash all the glasses, throw all the plates,

Stomp on my heart, there's nothing left but hates...

The world has turned on its axis, everything's upside down, there's no use for a smile here, all you've left me is a frown.

Your selfishness and greed, your lust and your unkindness, left me in pieces on the ground, how could I be so blinded?

C h.loaney

We're locked inside our houses and you here them, all their sighs!

With fighting at our woolies and panick in the streets,

With online games trying to keep people in, that and uber eats.

And before you too start panicking, I'm here to ask you why?

Why are you stocking up on dunny roll both 2 and 3 ply?

Why are you desperately shopping for pasta and rice too?

When will we all stop freaking out about the Chinese flu?

I couldn't even buy frozen chips because I had veggies already in my hand,

Yet during our lockdown I see pictures of people hanging out with toes in the sand,

They say the numbers are rising high and that we should stay away,

Families keeping their children home just to take them to the park to play!?

So are we taking this seriously or is it all a joke?

People screaming how worried they are about their lungs as they exhale their smoke.

The death toll up at thousands and all we have to do to stay safe is stay inside,

But how can we do that in a democracy full of stupidity, I mean pride!

Like chocolate, I want you all the time.

Like a hair clip you hold me together,

Like a dog I always want you around.

Like grass I can see myself growing every day,

Like a cloud you lift me up higher than I’ve ever known.

Years have past, things have changed and still I feel the connection,

Though we have plenty of differences, you are my perfection.

They used to put their family and country first, it was war that would deprave.

They had no time for bullshit no time to lie or hide,

They fought with everything they had, they would fight even with hands tied.

These men now in our country couldn’t even defend one another,

The men used to protect, now some wouldn’t help their family, let alone a brother.

They do it to themselves, they allow technology and pride to take over,

The hatred, the stupidity, the idiocy, now a brother ain’t even a brother.

We’ve become the type of people not one person can rely on,

Secrets, laziness and anger to the ton.

What’s the point of being a family if you can’t trust the people in it,

They say people change but how can that be true when it’s been years, not just a minute

With memories and secrets burnt in my memory never to be erased.

Loneliness has become my friend and you are no where to be found,

Been waiting now for years for you to come around.

They say be careful what you wish for but what’s the point of wishing,

When no one answers your prayers and at hope, you’re still fishing?

Are we lovers or partners, or are we just room mates?

No affection, no time spent, our relationship, it deflates.