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Your love is beyond words... true say I cant even explain what you do to me.

You see me in my wreck, in my state, and you comfort me... 

Beyond words 

You see me when im happy and you elevate my world 

God I cant express enough how much I need you... 

If it wasn't for you these past few weeks I have no idea how I would have made it through 

Even though I am "fixed", there are parts that still hurt. 

I need you always,

I need you beyond words 

My prayers now, are different and I focus on how awesome you are 

Not just making requests, acknowledging that you’ve bought me this far 

Bought me to a place of significant change 

Shining a light on the real me... Gosh how I love the new me... 

Discovering my beauty beyond what other have seen 

You've made me to be a woman, no longer a girl 

You've changed my whole outlook..., and blessed me beyond words 

I don't have everything, there's still so much to gain 

But I relax despite anxiety knowing that everything is back on its way, 

knowing that your promises never changed,

accepting how life has turned out this way. 

Because this whole process is the route to my success, 

For my testimony to others and to declare that their dreams are not dead, 

Even when the situations looks completely destroyed, 

When theres still much more to go through, more hard times to endure,

that their prayers have been heard and will not return void 

Oh God your essence is beyond description, impossible to fathom and a hardship to explain.. 

Its just an overwhelming feeling inside when I mention your name, 

When I think of EVERYTHING, and even how my faith has changed... 

Its stronger, I'M stronger, and more secure.. 

I'm no longer shaken by what's happening behind closed doors 

Cuz the reality is what's mine is mine,

and so the Glory is yours (Cuz I have no doubt) 

What is this change,

how did I get here  I thought I would crumble... but looks like im still here 

Still breathing, still smiling abiding in your grace 

It so frustrating that I cant find the words to say.... 

Good God you leave me amazed 

I'm starting to babble cuz i'm struggling to find words 

Its so intense, so I'll stop before I burst 

Cuz this love is so embracing, so consuming....  

So (most of my blogs begin with the word "so") I am very self reflective almost to a fault. I self reflect to the point where all I see is myself and that is not good. What I mean by that is I am starting to learn that there is a such thing as over analyzing yourself until you are no longer yourself. After being called "aggressive," after being told my energy is weird, after being shut out by certain circles in a very "subliminal, but I noticed that shit" kinda way I started it again. "IT" = the detrimental self reflection which turns into self sabotage.

While at the National Poetry Slam I had a chance to bond with Yaya. I'm sure she doesn't know this but the time that we took to get to know each other changed my life. It changed my view on a lot of things including all of the self reflection I had been doing. When I returned I had a Tarot reading and a familiar card was turned..."The Hermit." This card was also in a previous reading of mine. I finally figured out what it means to me! I would love to be able to clearly write to the world what it means but at the moment I need more time to put it in words. I will say that I realized that I am a visionary. I am the one with the thousand and one ideas and no real concept of how to fit the details into the puzzle, however, up until this point I had been trying to be both. I was trying to have the vision, write the vision, and act out the vision. THIS IS ALL WRONG! In the weeks to come I plan to be more supportive of poets, venues, and art in general. I plan to fade into the background and let others (those interested of course) help me put my vision into action. 

This whole "independent woman" thing is bull shit especially when for some of us independence is life not a goal attained through getting a job and buying our own car. I have to learn to open myself up to being helped. That's the issue....I need help and I don't know how to ask or what to ask for because I just never thought to ask. Ok, reflection, this is not so much about self but about how self relates to others.

Pura Vida,

April is National Poetry Month

The National Poetry Month Challenge is to write a poem a day for the entire month. FOLLOW the challenge by following the poets...

Poet                              Tumblr                                            Twitter

Dwayne B:          thecrochetkingpin.tumblr.com            @crochetkingpin Mary Bowman:     marybowman.tumblr.com                  @justmarybowman

Poetic Starchild:     http://blog.csdgrevolution.com/        @PoeticStarChild Rasheed Copeland:     sheedemilio.tumblr.com                   @SheedEmilio Selina Maria:           selinamaria.tumblr.com                     @iAmSelinaMaria

Shelly Bell:           iamshelllybell.tumblr.com                  @iamshellybell Yaya:                      earthtoyaya.tumblr.com                   @yayaearth