#poet notes

Like I've been working a collective 5 years at retail jobs, internships, and even as a full time resident advisor while in college, but every entry level job (think office assistant, receptionist) that requires these skills says I'm not quite at that level. While every retail/fast food/waitering job says I'm too experienced and or over qualified so they can't hire me. Like??? Hello???

Maybe it's the sanitization of the trans people I see but it's so so so rare for me to be able to see someone like myself that passes for the gender they want to present and it's been really wearing. As someone who is plus size and carries his weight in his hips and chest its so difficult to understand how I'm supposed to fit societys version of passing without the use of hormone treatment or surgery, and as someone who doesn't want nor can afford both, I guess it would be nice to at least hear from some folks about their experiences or how they pass too.

Like,,, I already knew we were in hot water when they announced Kit and Danielle for Jesper and Nina. Like no shame to them, they're just doing a job. But like, Jesper being a black character who is portrayed constantly as having darker skin,,, like he's not a light skinned black character! And that's really important to understand how shows like this may scream "we have rep" but then make the colorist decision to cast a lighter skinned POC.

And Nina? Nina was someone I looked up to in high school when I read the books and still identified as a girl. Being a plus size girl in high school, seeing someone like Nina made me feel so much better about my body, and gave me the confidence to be proud of how I looked. So...them casting Danielle....Yikes man. It was such a blow to me. Seeing a woman who's what, average size? Being our "plus size" rep? Seriously?