☆♫ // this is from july // actual meme
the rain is like acid to the gel in his hair.
neku lets out a long, drawn sigh as orange fogs his vision. it pokes and prods, all but controllable when he tries and fails to move it away from his eyes. this hasn’t happened in a while: the last few weeks that he was at home, it was the tail end of summer break, and any time else had been in snow, the start of spring, or the unidentifiable, unpredictable weather this city tended to have. and now—
now, he may as well go through the list. he can’t see, his clothes are already soaking wet, the shell of his bag is suffering, and the nearest trolley is too far to walk to and too long of a wait.
well. he fixes the strap of his bag, hiking it closer to his neck than the end of his shoulder. time to walk home.
a few steps forward is all it takes before neku sighs, detouring under an awning and unclasping the cover of his bag. one hand slicks his hair back and shakes away the rain whilst the other roots through his bag. eventually, he finds what he needs; his headphones slide around his neck and his hands further draw his hair back, some caught in an elastic band and some (at least the hair that makes him look more emo than he should look) fixed and pinned up tight.
someone at home would probably be gawking at him. it’s not as if it’s anything new, to be fair—well, sure, yeah, okay. maybe it would be for him to be seen doing it. but he’s done it a few times before; if they were here or he was back home, it wouldn’t change that fact.
it’d sure change the fact that he isn’t getting a response now besides the faint echoes of their voices in his head, though. and something about that realization hurts: maybe it’s that he hasn’t talked let alone seen them in months, not without the footsteps of danger following him from death to life and death again; maybe it’s that they might not even be worried for him, or maybe enough time passed before him dying and being dragged back out of his own world so that they are.
maybe—no, it’s definitely—it’s just not worth dawdling on it.
in one motion, neku scoffs and pushes himself back from under the awning’s canopy and back into the rain. one hand positions between his bangs and his forehead as he starts to walk once more, waiting for the pins to fall and the rain to knock them away until they don’t. his hands fall back to his sides and he hurries on, treading along the main road in the direction of home.
for once, somehow, avoiding the rain has become more important than anything else.