#playworld

I stood on my pedals to go faster. My spokes sang their propeller whirr. I felt light, as if my bones had filled with air. … And then I turned toward the river and headed west.

You felt like you were speechless. That you had things you saw but struggled to communicate. Those are the two most heartfelt things you’ve ever shared with me. So maybe that’s what you’ve been put on the earth for. To come up with a language for your life.

to arrive at love ...

I so rarely feel things when they happen. I remain so insulated from myself.

Our education was spatial. Racial. Tribal. Urban. American. But mostly—and this is the most important thing—it was dominated by Kepplemen, over whom we were each failing to gain leverage. And who wore the costume of love. And who was, day in and day out, teaching us fury, aggression, complicity, desperation, exploitation, and, most of all, silence.

“There’s not a person in the world who’s yet been able to entirely fulfill another’s needs... For some people this is as disappointing as it is unacceptable.”