#pixiphobia

Would anyone be interested in letting me bounce ideas off of them for my book Pixiphobia bc I really need to write Nrenighnx being reunited with Claudina after he comes back from the dead but I'm not sure what I want to do. Also suggestions would be great. All I know about this scene is that it's the night before the big battle and Claudina is having a bit of anxiety about going to fight because she doesn't know how to use a sword or a bow, and she would be expected to lead the soldiers as she's queen, and she is afraid that she'll fuck up. And as she's going through everything that could possibly go wrong in her head, I want to bring Nairy baby in, all disoriented and dirty, with bloodstains still on his clothes from his death at the beginning of the book. I'm not sure how tho. Or where this takes place. Should I have it take place at dinner when his daughters are all present or in their bedroom as Clau is trying to go to sleep... Should there be awestruck guards behind him who have literally no idea what the fuck is going on or if this is a trap? I've been stuck on this all summer. I need help. I need to finish my book this summer. I have to. That was my goal. I'm not giving up just because I only have 2 weeks left yet. I can do this!

I wish I could draw wings bc I can't draw Claudina or Nrenighnx bc their wings are really full and beautiful. Claudina's wings are white, and Nrenighnx has black wings. Hers are more like angel wings and his are like a Raven's. They both have olive skin, around the same tone as eachother. Claudina has long, straight, dark hair that goes to her ankles, and Nrenighnx has slightly wavy, medium length, dirty blond hair. He's slightly taller than she is, but when he's around her he just melts, and she could tell him to do anything and he would do it. And she might kind of take advantage of that to get him to come cuddle with her and stuff. He would protect her with his life, and he has protected her with his life. And if I could draw poses I would draw him lying over her with an arrow lodged in his back by this left wing, with her staring up at him with a sad and terrified look on her face because she knows that he's just sacrificed his life for her and she doesn't understand why he would do that because she's not any better or any more important than anyone else despite being queen. And she can't help but think of their eldest daughter, and how horrible it was for the Stars to kill her husband on her daughter's birthday. I wish I could draw this moment so that people can feel all of the emotion I feel towards this. It's an incredibly sad moment, with him laughing and cracking a joke before rolling off of her and dying, and with her sobbing and breaking down immediately after. It's my favorite part of my book right now. But I can't draw it. Unfortunately. Oh well. I'll have to stick to reading and rereading it.

Hey would anyone be interested in reading an excerpt from my novel Pixiphobia? Bc it's currently my favorite part and it's the part where my sister got mad at me and told me that I couldn't kill someone off in the first chapter. Also, Nrenighnx is pronounced Nair-eh-Ninx, for anyone who was wondering. And the other names are easy to pronounce if you sound them out (though I will def be putting a pronunciation guide at the back of the book when it's published). Skyrina , Claudina, Ventiliachna, Perrianerriousa, Serrionara, Lucas, Luna, Lilly-Anna, Dalilah, Nicki, Torumanya, Clara, Jostus... Yes some are seemingly normal and others are not. They're Elves and Pixies. In a war against each other. The protagonists are Claudina and her three daughters Dalilah, Luna, and Lilly-Anna, and they are Pixies. Claudina is married to Nrenighnx and her best friend is Skyrina, who is married to Nrenighnx's brother Ventiliachna but hates Nrenighnx and has actually grown tired of her husband as well. Luna is married to Lucas. Claudina is also friends with Serrionara, who is the antagonist's daughter and half-sister to Torumanya, who is the romantic interest of Lilly-Anna. Clara is kinda an outcast bc she's an inventor and she studies humans and that is frowned upon bc of the Corruption that has run rampant in the Human race. The entire novel is about fighting Corruption, and how the Corruption is not necessarily a part of the person as much as it is a sickness that twists them into something they are not, and in the end they believe they have destroyed the Corruption in The Island, but they have truly no idea how wrong that is... They can never destroy the Corruption fully, because it is created by turmoil, by disagreements and bad choices made with good intentions. It is the lashing out in grief and the darkness that is there in all of us just waiting to come out and take control when we are at our weakest. It's bad judgement and misconceptions and sadness. It's the darkness that fuels and is fueled by the constant turmoil in society, in all societies... And they will never be able to truly and fully defeat it, because it will always keep rising up, because no matter how good things look, someone is always going to be too weak to fight off the darkness of their own soul, and a new enemy will be born from that weakness.