#pivitol

(PART 17 IS RIGHT HERE)

~Pivitol~

Summary: The long awaited apology is finally here. 

Chapter: 18

Warnings: None

The sound of your phone buzzing on your bedside table made you quickly jolt up from your rest. You peeked at the notification and frowned when you realized it was just Yuko texting you about a sudden company dinner planned later this week and not a message from Kai. Memories of last night came flooding in as you felt the creeping guilt and shame once again. Maybe it was the stress of the big project from work that had caused you to snap at him like that. Or maybe Yuko was right about the advice she’d given you in the breakroom earlier that day. Either way, you felt like shit having said all those things to him that you did. You wanted to call and apologize but the shame just wouldn’t let you right now.

You sighed and placed your phone on the charger before creeping out of bed and walking into the bathroom. The reflection of yourself in the mirror had given you a small fright. Your eyes were puffy and dried tears with drool stuck to your cheeks as well. No doubt it was from the way you cried yourself to sleep last night. You took a quick shower and ate a nice breakfast. You put on a good movie and opened the windows for some fresh air. Nothing was distracting you from the emotions creeping up on you. His hurt expression replayed in your mind over and over again. You did that to him. Right now he was probably regretting ever crossing your path. 

Little did you know that you were wrong. 

He wasn’t doing much better than you were.

At the house Chisaki was moping around for the first time in forever. Pops could only watch from afar after having gave his best advice to the boy last night. The old man knew it would hurt, but giving you space would be the best thing for right now after how suffocating Kai was acting. It gets better before it gets worse after all. “Care for a game of Shogi?” Pops asked while leaning against the wall. “No thanks. Just leave me here to die please.” Kai mumbled as he sunk further into the couch cushions than before. “My boy I know it’s eating you up but you need to hang in there. I can give you my solemn swear that it will be okay. Remember my words will you?” Kai scoffed at him and turned his head in the opposite direction. “What if that was a breakup last night? What if Y/N broke up with me? I’ve never been broken up before. I feel like my heart is covered in some kind of tar. I don’t want to eat, to sleep. I don’t want to do anything, especially play Shogi. So leave me alone old man.” Kai grumbled and covered his head with the thick fur-lined hood of his jacket. Pops had to hold back a bit of laughter after seeing the childish sight. He sighed and pat Kai’s head before heading on his way somewhere else.

For the rest of the day both of you were checking your phones non-stop, but neither of you had taken the initiative to apologize or talk to the other. Kai was trying to give you the space he believed you needed, and you were still too ashamed to text him back after the way things went last night. For the entire day the two of you were hollowed out from the inside, feeling like going through the motions of the day and missing the part of them that was half so dear. It’s rare two souls connected so quickly the way you two did. Finally later in the evening you decided you simply couldn’t take it anymore. You gathered your anxiety and bottled it up before slipping on your shoes and heading out the door. You didn’t make it far as you bumped into something firmly as soon as you took two steps out of your apartment. Looking up you gasped as familiar golden eyes stared down at you with such intensity. “Kai?” Your eyes wandered to the flowers he held in one hand and the stuffed bear he held in the other, a neatly written ‘I’m sorry’ stitched into it’s fur. Your eyes met with his again and you hardly noticed his mask was nestled below his chin, mouth fully exposed in front of you. “Ang-Y/N...” He cleared his throat and you felt sadness at the way he avoided using his nickname for you. “Kai. I uh...I was just going to come see you but I guess you beat me to it huh?” You chuckled nervously. “Yes it would seem so.” There was a bit of awkward silence between the two of you with some tension thick enough to cut with a knife. Finally you moved to the side and silently invited him in. He didn’t hesitate as he trailed into your apartment and place the items onto the coffee table. He took his jacket off and hung it up as you shut the door. The two of you stared at each other, both going to speak at the same time but apologizing to each other after stumbling over words. “Sorry aha. You can go first.” You said and he nodded. His eyes stared at the ground for a moment and it seemed like he was searching for the right words to say. Finally he looked back up at you and began to speak. 

“I’m sorry about my behavior lately. I know I’ve been a bit of an ass and it must’ve been too much for you to handle. I don’t blame you for what happened last night. I’m sorry about all the texts and the calls. I ended up jumping to conclusions too quickly and pushing a lot of stuff on you that you didn’t deserve. It’s still so early and I know I’m moving a bit fast with everything. If you can take me back then I promise I won’t do it again. I’ll give you as much time as you need with me, I swear it Y/N.” Now it was your turn to speak.

“What do you mean take you back? I’m not breaking up with you first of all. Second of all, yeah...you were a bit of an ass. Even so, that doesn’t give me the right to snap at you the way I did. I guess I was just feeling a little bit overwhelmed with the pacing of things is all. I love you and it’s not that I don’t want to move in with you. It’s just that I need a little more time to figure things out is all. I’m so sorry I yelled at you like that. I love you Kai. Please don’t ever doubt that.” His eyes were watery by now and so were yours. Without words the two of you closed the space between and held each other in a tight hug, rocking slightly side to side. “So you’re really not breaking up with me then?” He asked after a moment of quiet. You laughed and shook your head. “No way in hell. That wasn’t a break up, I promise. I love you and I’m not kidding about it.” The two of you stared at each other for a long time before he began slowly leaning down to meet your lips with his. It had been a while since you kissed like this. Maybe since his first one you two shared a few weeks back? This kiss was different, a little less clumsy and a lot more passionate. He quickly pulled away as he felt those feelings bubbling back up and creating that spark of fire burning in him. The same spark he felt when he thought of you showering not too long ago. Before you could question the blush on his cheeks, he reached to the coffee table and shoved the gifts into your hands. “These are for you. They’re my peace offering.” You laughed at him and shook your head. “Oh really? Thank you. I didn’t have a peace offering for you so instead would you like to stay the night with me here?” This was only the second time you’d stay the night with each other, and it would be the first time it was here at your place. 

Summary: Emotions are rising and so is the heat. Kai finally takes the time to explore some of the touchier topics of dating...literally!

Chapter: 13

Warnings: Suggestive content (finally). Making out happens as well. There is sex talk in this chapter. You have been warned!

After his little phone call he could feel the guilt sink into his system when images of you and Pops crossed his mind, but mostly you. He was used to defying Pops under the pretense that the old man didn’t know what was best for the benefit of the Hassaikai, but he was not used to doing it to you. You guys hadn’t even had your first argument yet and things still felt very fresh in the relationship. If you knew what he was doing right now...Nevermind that. He pushed the guilt away and called some of his men to his office to collect the briefcase and distribute the drug to the lower rung of the Hassaikai. Kai would play this game out just like he had planned it. Have his lower men distribute the drugs and bring the money back in for exactly one week. Having his pawns do it and risk their own lives with the law was nothing of concern. Although he was changing in terms of respecting his people more often, he was still going to play this out just like he planned. After a week...just one week...he convinced himself. “One week and I’m done.” He mumbled on his way through the halls and back up to the top to see you. 

When he entered he began searching the halls and found you in Pops room, wiping off the counters and making the bed. “Angel, how’s it going?” He sat on the edge of the bed and smiled beneath his mask at your look. “Now Kai, I lose track of time as much as the next person but I know for a fact you don’t work for that short amount of time down there.” You teased him as he scratched the back of his neck. “Ignore all of that. I’m on a 15 minute break and I wanted to come see you. It’s lonely down there after all.” He pat the spot on the bed next to him and watched happily as you gave up cleaning to sit by him. You test the waters of the moment by laying your head on his shoulder. He tenses for maybe half a second but immediately relaxes afterward. While you suck in the peaceful silence, he pauses to peer down at you. Suddenly his head is swarmed with the same thoughts he’s been getting.

How soft are those lips? What does a real kiss feel like?

I want to be closer, I need to be closer.

I should’ve let her/him/them sleep in the bed with me last night...

“Kai?” He paused his thoughts to listen to you as you moved and looked up at him. “I really hope I’m not taking things too fast by asking this but I was wondering if maybe...like possibly if you...I mean I...” Your words were a jumbled mess coming out but they were so much more clear in your head. You silently wished he had a mind reading quirk instead of the overhaul. “I was wondering if you felt comfortable with me in terms of touch?” You started the conversation off with that instead of what you really wanted to ask. You’d be able to work your way up to the question that way. “Comfortable in terms of touch you ask?” He paused and pondered for a bit before looking back at you with bright and slightly upturned eyes (indicating a smile under that mask). “Well I suppose I can say so. In the history of forever, I’ve only let 4 people touch me to my knowledge. They were my mother, father, Chrono, and Pops. Now you’re one of them as well I suppose. I...when I am around you it’s hard to explain how I feel. I’ve never felt this way before about anyone in my entire life. No childhood crushes, no teen pining, nothing. For a while I thought I could live my whole life like this, and I probably could have if I didn’t meet you. But now that I’m with you, things are different. I look at you and I see purity, not filth. With you not having a quirk I suppose that adds to the whole thing as well. I guess what I’m saying is, you’re in my bubble right now and you’re still alive because I haven’t killed you yet...so yes. I’m comfortable with you and I’m getting more comfortable the longer I spend with you.” He poured himself out in full honesty and it felt like a weight was off his chest. 

“Then Chisaki, would you mind if maybe I did this...” Before he could react you leaned upward and placed a quick peck on the tip of his beaked mask. He paused feeling heat rise with himself. He reached up and gently rubbed the mask where you kissed it before removing the thing and revealing his bare face to you. “Just like that but...can you do it...on my lips?” He looked away as he asked this. Jumping right into it was still very new but he’s been wondering for a long time now what a kiss would be like. There must be a reason people do that right? You nodded a reached up to gently hold his face. You turned his head to face you and took a second to admire those soft eyes and the twinkle they seemed to hold for you. You closed your eyes as he took note of it and did the same. He silently wondered if he was supposed to keep them open or not but he would just follow your lead. As soon as your lips touched base with his, a zip of electricity ran up his spine and he instantly melted. You pulled back after a few seconds and gauged his reaction to the closed mouth kiss. He slowly reached up and touched his lips gently before mumbling a soft ‘wow’ and making you laugh lightly. “Is there more? I’ve seen it before. The other kind of kissing that people tend to do, Angel. Kiss me like that please.” He reached down without a second thought and grabbed your hands to give them a gentle but eager squeeze. “Kai the other kind of kiss leads to making out and I’m not so sure you can handle that.” You chuckled and he scoffed. 

“Please, I’m a grown man in case you forgot.”

“Yeah, and you’re just now having your first kiss in case you forgot.” You fired back and he looked down at his lap with a blush. “I’ll give it to you if you really feel like you’re ready.” You added on as he rubbed your hand with his thumb. He looked up at you in anticipation and mentally sighed in relief when he saw you close your eyes as you leaned in . He followed your lead and did the same. The zip of electricity from earlier was NOTHING compared to the intense fire that erupted in his gut from the way your tongue swiped across his lips before poking and prodding at them for entry. He complied and just about passed away from simply feeling your tongue make its way inside of his mouth. He decided to do the same and let himself explore the damp cavern before the two tongues wrestled for dominance. And then he did something he never thought about happening. 

He moaned.

It was quiet, but still loud enough for you to hear. You quickly pulled back in fear that you might be overwhelming him. While you checked his expression for any dismay, he was busy trying to make sense of the fog in his head right now. The heat wasn’t as intense now that you pulled away, but it was still burning nevertheless. He felt tingly, hot, and desperate for something he really didn’t understand. Most of all, his body reacted in such a way that a part of him was prominent that he only usually saw in the morning when he’d just be waking up. Before you could ask him if he was alright, he immediately captured you in another kiss, this time taking the lead himself. You felt yourself falling back gently onto the mattress beneath you and blissfully letting him take over. The kiss got more heated when he reached down to suddenly grip at your thigh. Positions shifted and you mindlessly found yourself wrapping your legs around his waste as he released another muffled moan into your mouth. Unfortunately you both had to pull away from each other tom breath and so he could also gather himself. “I...need some time.” He quickly spoke as he gathered himself and jetted out of the room, leaving you alone and confused about what just happened. Hopefully you hadn’t upset him an any way.

He quickly stepped down to the entry of the below base and pulled out his cellphone to call Chrono. “Meet me in my office right now. I don’t have time to waste.” He hung up the phone quickly and locked himself in his office until Hari came. By the time the man knocked on the door, Kai was trying to calm the turbulent waves in his mind. He moved to unlock the door and motioned for Hari to take a seat on the couch. Kai took a seat at his desk and stared at Chrono for a bit until the silver haired man spoke up. “Uhhh...Overhaul you good? You wanted to see me or something?” Kai let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding in, then he began to explain everything to Hari. Right now it wasn’t boss and worker...it was best friend confiding in best friend. When finished explaining, he paused and looked at Hari for a moment. Chrono chuckled and removed his bulky plague mask to show his expression. “Wait till Pops gets a load of this. He’s gonna lose his fucking mind.” Chrono laughed before having to dodge the stapler Kai threw at him. “This is no laughing matter! I called you in here for advice and you had better not breath a word of this to Pops or I’ll have your ass on the 5 o’clock news as a homicide case, you blockhead!” Hari simply laughed at his friend/boss’s empty threats as he reached down to pick up the stapler. “Look man, between you and me I’d have to say this is long over due. You’ve waited way too long and now look at you. You’ve got to manage your emotions sure, but I promise once you get bit by the sex bug you won’t be able to get out of it without going in...if you catch my drift.” Hari teased as he placed the stapler on Kai’s desk and sat in the chair to be much closer. 

“Sex bug. Didn’t they teach us this stuff in biology class in high school? That’s a disease. Lice or something right?” Kai questioned but Hari just laughed at him. “Dude no, what the fuck? You’re talking about crabs and no, it’s not that! It’s just a metaphor man. Listen, all I’m saying is this: The reason you’re so overwhelmed right now is because you’ve waited a long time and never experienced any of this. That’s why you literally popped a boner up there just from making out. You found somebody that lights your fire yknow? Somebody that gets you going. Now that you feel it for them, it’s not going to leave you alone until you have sex with Y/N got it?” Hari explained and Kai shuddered at the thought. “Got condoms? I have one in my wallet I can give you.” Hari spoke up again and Kai only shuddered more before looking at him in annoyance. “You don’t have to worry about that at least. The old crone has been leaving them hiding in all my stuff lately. There’s one in my desk right now but...I’m not so sure now is the right time to push for this type of thing. I mean I really want it but I feel like I should do some research first.” Hari looked at him with a bored expression. “Bro it’s not rocket science. Just put your thing in the hole...or get something put in your hole. Yada Yada yknow? I promise you its not that difficult, but if you really wanna research you can always get online and watch some po-”

Summary: Pops takes control of the date and gets in some opinions (much to Kai’s disdain). Meanwhile Kai is trying to find a way to balance the quickly moving relationship along with his newfound feelings. Plus there is some touching!

Chapter: 10

Warnings: None

“Anyway, gonna show me your room kind sir?”

If his heart wasn’t beating that fast before, it was certainly beating fairly quickly by now! “M-my room?” He mentally face palmed at stuttering and you laughed a bit. His shyness was out of character so it was soothing to know you had that much of an effect on him! “Uhhh yeah? Your room? Well unless you have any other room to show me?” A little lightbulb went off in his head and he quickly stood up from the couch. He held his hand out for you...the second time today he would be touching you...and you graciously accepted it, being sure not to comment on his germaphobia and kill the moment. “I do have some other rooms to show you. “ He lied smoothly. There was nothing else in the house of true interest (at least to him anyway), but he wasn’t even sure the condition of his room at the moment. “Follow me this way, Angel.” He tested the waters with the nickname again, and you complied as if he’d been calling you it from day one. In fact, he had been testing the waters for a good time now. The increased effort to touch you was a test to himself. At one point he rolled up his sleeves and relished in the fact that he had not a single hive to show. 

You were like magic to him.

“Kai, what room is this?” You asked in confusion and he smiled, turning on the lights to reveal MANY books from wall to wall. In fact, the medium sized room had all walls set as a bookshelf. “This is Pops collection of books. Before you ask, there is no way in hell the old man read all of this. I just think he’s an avid collector. Although I do seem to recall him reading quite a bit when I was younger. I always assumed it was mostly paperwork. Oh my apologies, is my prattling on beginning to bother you?” He asked as you gently trailed your hands along the books. “It’s not bothering me at all! It’s cute when you talk about your childhood. And these books are all so well taken care of. Not a speck of dust in sight!” Kai chuckled and leaned against the doorframe. “That’s because of my contributions during chore day. That old man tends to the fish in the Koi pond and calls it a day. Can’t complain though, at least he gets out of the way for me to handle the business.” You rolled your eyes and him and scoffed playfully. “Poor Kai, left to do something I’m sure he enjoys doing for fun anyway.” 

“Bold of you to assume I enjoy cleaning because I’m a germaphobe. The whole point of it is to stay away from as much dirt as possible.” He teased you and reached out for your hand again. “C’mon. There are more rooms in this house to show you.” While you were enjoying the time and taking in as many as views as possible, he was internally freaking out about holding your hand. This was the first hand he’s intentionally held in his life! Well, besides holding Pop’s hand to cross the street when he was a kid. A part of him wonders if it’s childish to have this kind of mental breakdown over something as simple as handholding, but it’s quickly silenced by the urge to push his limits further. You’re beginning to make him wonder if he’s even truly a germaphobe in the first place. Around the 5th or 6th room he was starting to look at your dismissive face and he became concerned. “Is there...something bothering you Y/N?” 

“Hmm?! Oh no it’s okay. I just...I really am ready to see your room. It’s getting late and I don’t wanna miss the opportunity is all.” You fessed up and he swallowed. “I see. Okay then, just follow me.” He could feel his hands getting a little clammy underneath the fabric gloves. Thank God he made it to the door before it leaked through and you felt it. That would’ve been more embarrassing than any childhood story Pops could tell you. When you made it to the doors, he mentally braced himself before opening it and moving aside for you to enter. The gasp you made almost made him fall out but luckily it was coming from a good place of mind. “Kai it’s exactly like I imagined! This is the neatest room I’ve ever been in! Have you even ever slept in that bed over there??? This makes me want to go home in clean my rats nest of a room (no offense reader, but your room in this story is in fact a rats nest)!” You continued to compliment him while his eyes locked onto the singular book laying on the desk and not on his shelf. He dashed to put it back into place and you laughed. “No need to panic over something so simple. This room is damn near spotless. I’d live here if I could!” You exclaimed as you let yourself fall back onto the plush bed. He didn’t mind you rolling around and your laughter was awakening something him at the moment until Pops interrupted the two of you. “Live here you say!?” He popped his head in the doorway and Kai verbally sighed. “Not now please...” He begged but the old man ignored him. “How about staying the night for a starter? I’ve got somewhere to be tomorrow and the boy can’t handle the Hassaikai work and the chores as well. Perhaps could you lend a hand with my end of the work please?” 

“Pops there is no way in hell-”

“Sure thing!” Kai just about got whiplash with how fast he jerked his head around to look at you. “W...wHaT???” You laughed and sat upright on the bed. “I’ll sleep over for a night or two if I need to. It’s kinda boring at home and this place is nice. Besides, I’m off for the next few days. Plus hours have been cut and I’m one of them thanks to me being a rather new employee still. Pops you can trust us to keep the house running while you’re gone!” You assured him and he smiled in return. “Thank you my dear. I’ll be heading out to pack right now.” Pops walked out and Kai excused himself to follow directly behind the elder. Once in the confinement of Pop’s room, Kai went off. “Are you actually going senile old man?! What the hell was that!???” Pops simply laughed it off and began packing his bags. “What do you mean? I just recruited some help for you from my darling in-law. Besides, it would be nice for Y/N to get to know the house better since I intend for the two of you to move in together once the relationship progresses to that point. Oh yes, then the marriage will soon come. And of course the grandkids you’ll have/adopt. Oh and also-”

“YOU ARE GETTING AHEAD OF YOURSELF!” Kai’s face was beet red with anger and embarrassment while Pops simply laughed it off. “Calm down my boy, I simply wanted you to spend some time with them. It’s better because you’re far too late in developing feelings. I was wondering if you planned on dying alone. I’m glad to know you aren’t going to be alone when I pass someday. I’m proud of you for finding someone so wonderful to be at your side. Y/N is good, I can tell from her/his/their smile.” Pops gently reached to pat Kai’s shoulder and he calmed down under the old man’s touch.

Sometimes he was bearable.

“Besides, I left you another special gift below the base in your office. I thought it would come in handy.” Pops smiled mischievously while Kai gagged.

Sometimes bearable, not all the time...

Summary: Things aren’t going so good...

Chapter: 17

Warnings: None

“Your phone is seriously bugging out. It buzzed so much you would think there was a fly stuck between the case. Is it your boyfriend?” Yuko reached over curiously and you smacked her hand away before grabbing your phone and hiding it in your pocket. “Um yes, and I’m not letting you step into the conversation this time either.” You huffed while continuing to work at your desk. Yuko sighed and rolled her eyes as she let her fingers fall back into line of the keyboard, meticulously tapping away at her work. “Chill, I wasn’t gonna pick it up and text him for you again. But anyway, I’m your friend right? Aren’t you gonna let me know what’s up? You seem off today.” 

You zoned out and debated whether or not to spill your guts to her upon this last hour before clocking out. It had been a week since you last saw Kai due to busying work schedule, and things were feeling a bit different lately. He was always texting or calling, trying to come over and hang out. It would’ve been fine but you needed to keep him away at the sake of focusing on your work and the important report due. Some big people were coming to the branch soon and everyone had to be on their toes or else there would be termination. Personally you needed this job to pay rent...or at least you needed it to feel accomplished for a bit. But that was just leading you into the thought of the issue at hand:

Kai was fully intent into getting you to move in with him.

“Yuko is it...I mean can you maybe...” You looked at the clock and sighed in relief. 5 minutes remaining. “Yuko can you take a 15? I’m about to clock out for today and I could use your company in the breakroom real quick.” That was code word for ‘please take a minute and I’ll explain it to you’. She nodded eagerly. Within the next 10 minutes you two were at the table munching on grapes and little fruit slices. “So the thing lately is that I’ve been feeling different with Kai. I mean, I love him and all but he’s been up my ass a little bit lately. My main concern isn’t really that though. I mean I know he’s been more of a loner until I came around so of course he’s gonna want to hang out often. My biggest concern is that he wants me to drop everything and move in with him. He wants to pay all my bills etc. yknow? He even told me that if I didn’t want to quit this job when I moved in with him that he’d literally buy me a car so I could travel to work and back.”

“ARE YOU SERIOUS!?” She smacked the table with excitement. You shushed her and looked around to make sure no one was coming in on the conversation. “Sorry but what the hell??? Y/N that’s like a dream come true right?! You don’t have to work, but even if you did then he would get you a new car AND you can live with him??? He’s going to spoil you!” While her eyes sparkled with excitement and the will to live vicariously through you, your eyes were dulled with a bit of annoyance and exasperation. “It’s not a dream world like you would think. Some of us would like to have time to function as an adult with ourselves without leaning on someone else for a while. I literally haven’t even been working here that long. And having someone buy me an entire car?! I could never think to return that kind of generosity. I couldn't afford to even if I tried and worked my whole life. I just wish he would give a little time to think about this mess and I wish he’d consider my feelings yknow? If I had some time maybe it wouldn’t be too big of a deal, but lately I’ve been feeling like I’m backed into a corner. I mean, look at these text messages from earlier!” You reached into your pocket and pulled your phone out, sliding it on the table for Yuko to get.

“Woooowwww...”

“Yeah, a bit much right?”

“No no not that! I mean wow, a Mercedes? Figure you can take one for the team and give it to me instead?” You reached to take your phone and bonk her on the head a bit. “Cut it out, this isn’t time to joke!” You groaned and gripped the sides of your head. Yuko sighed and rubbed the top of her head before moving her chair to sit next to you and hug you. “Do you want my honest opinion even if it hurts? Or do you want me to sugar coat it?” She asked you as she nestled into you tightly. You sighed and hugged here back, uttering your answer for the honest opinion. “I don’t think you’re worried about taking things to fast with him are you? I think you’re content and comfortable with him. I also think you really love him and care for him. I really don’t think the timing of your relationship matters all that much because speed is different for a lot of people in this world and we don't all go by one set time limit for everything. I think that you’re just too prideful sometimes. Maybe you come from an environment where you had to depend on someone for so long that now you cling to the thought of singularity and independence. I think that if you were ever in trouble that you wouldn’t think to ask for help at all because you’d want to get out of things yourself even if you drag yourself through the mud to do it. I think even when provided with a means to keep working here that you still don’t move in with him because you might be worried about leaning on him and the fear of him possibly holding his acts of kindness over your head to manipulate you later on scares you. Because maybe this happened before in your life with someone that wasn’t so kind? But at the end of the day Y/N you need to trust him and fall back on him a little bit. You’re not losing your independence or your sense of self just by moving into a house with your boyfriend yknow? And when someone offers you an entire car just to get you by their side everyday? That means he really must love you. He wants this moving in thing so bad that he’s willing to get you whatever you need to do it. Maybe just think a little bit harder on it and get him an answer okay?” Yuko pulled out of the hug and smiled gently at you before peeking down at her watch. “Oh shit! I’m like 12 minutes over for my break, gotta jet! Text me later and let me know if things get any better!” Just like a jet of lightning she was out of the breakroom and back at her desk, furiously typing away and trying to catch up to herself. You laughed lightly and put your phone away as you headed out of the office and back home.

When you got off the elevator to your floor, you gasped at Chisaki standing right by your front door. “Oh Angel! You’re a bit late today. I took the liberty of bringing in your mail from your box downstairs by the way. Oh here, let me get this bag for you. Oh yeah did you think about the thing we talked about the other day? Can you get back to me with an answer now? I was looking into some good moving services the other day when I figure why not just have Rappa and Katsukame come lug the heavier stuff. We can move your bed to  guest room or we can sell it if you want to. Oh and the extra Tv we can move to the-”

“Oh my God Kai please STOP. I’m literally begging you to stop this! You’re literally all down my throat with this shit. You’ve made plan after plan and I never gave you a yes for any of this just yet! I asked you for time and you’ve given me barely ANY to get my head in the right space for all of this! Why are you pushing me so damn fast like this?! You’re making plans to sell my stuff now too???”

“Y/N...I just thought-”

“YOU CAN TAKE A MOMENT TO CONSIDER MY FEELINGS PLEASE!??? What if I say no huh? What if I just never move in with you then what??? Will I be stuck for the rest of this relationship listening to you continue to make plans for me and beg me over and over and over until I say yes to whatever the hell it is that you want me to say yes to?”

“Y/N...”

“Kai please, I’m begging you to just give me some space.”

“...Understood...” He gently placed your mail on the table and headed out the door swiftly. You collapsed on the couch and sighed loudly, rubbing your temples and trying to navigate the throbbing of the oncoming headache. Worst of all, the overwhelming feeling of guilt was slowing trickling down and filling you up until you felt absolutely awful for everything you just dumped on him. You sighed and got up to trudge off to the shower where you could think and wash your worries away. Meanwhile, Kai wasn’t doing very good himself. After leaving your apartment in a hurry he was left in a state of confusion, sadness, and numbness wondering where exactly he went wrong. “Back so soon my boy? That was a quick trip! Is my beloved in-law out there with you? I assume you must’ve picked her/him/them up to come here instead yes?” Kai simply stared at Pops with annoyance before huffing and heading downstairs to his office. “Without a single word eh?” Pops sighed to himself and slowly stood up. “I suppose I had better go speak to him then.” The old man made his way belowground and went straight to Kai’s most likely location: his office. He knocked twice and listened at the door. 

“Whoever it is I suggest you leave before cleanup crew has to mop your insolent body from the concrete.” Pops held in his chuckle and shook his head as he entered the office. “Still haven’t changed all these years eh? You know you were quite like this as a child too. When you used to get upset you would have a very mean way about you, but you never scared me kid. You don’t scare me now either. So now tell me what’s got you so upset today? Lovers spat perhaps?” Kai immediately snapped his head up and stared at Pops. “How the hell did you know that.”

“I wasn’t born yesterday boy. I was married with a kid once. I know more about this stuff than you think. I’m going to go out on a limb and say you must’ve caused this. Judging by your prickly personality, what did you do.”

“Victim blaming when I’m your own son? You’re a very cold man you know.” Kai joked dryly and Pops smiled. “If you must know, I don’t know what the hell happened. I was just visiting Y/N since we hadn’t been with each other for a few days. I can’t begin to imagine what caused the argume-” Kai paused and thought about the words pouring from your lips. Aside from all the bitterness he felt from being chewed out for the first time he actually heard what you said and pieced it altogether. “I suppose I may be laying a bit much on Y/N right now. I just crave her/his/their presence more often and every hour not spent with my Angel is driving me insane. I’m damn near on the verge of wanting to kidnap but then I remember how that’s shunned on by society.” Pops laughed and shook his head. Yes the boy hadn’t changed much at all, even throughout the years. “I want Y/N to move in with me so much so that I’ve gone about finalizing things without permission. Which by the way reminds me, there’s going to be a new car in the driveway in another day or two. Don’t panic, I bought it for Y/N as a gift. I used the money from those drug dealings I was doing for that week. And BEFORE you lay into me about it, I shut it down and won’t be interacting with it any more in the future.”

“You say that and you had better run through it for real this time young man, or it’ll be you moving out of this house instead of Y/N moving in. Do you hear me?” Pops threatened with a scowl and Kai rolled his eyes. “Yes.”

“Now beside all that, I would be over the moon if Y/N were to move in with us! However, you have to be gentle and take your time with these things. You always tend to take things far past their limits and I can understand that Y/N must be feeling drowned in everything you’re bringing forward. Take a moment, give some time, and I guarantee everything will be just fine between the two of  you.” Pops stood up and placed a gentle hand on Kai’s head as he passed to leave out of the office. Once left alone, the young head stared at your contact in the phone debating on whether or not he would call you. He ultimately decided on giving it time to air out before getting in contact with you again. It was the hardest thing he would do, but he wanted to prove to himself he could take things slow. At least slow enough to let you calm down and make your choice. 

Summary: You can always count on your coworker and friend Yuko to help you short out your emotions while giving some good advice as well. After your little phone call it was time to have a heart to heart with Kai. The night is winding down. This is your last night here for a little bit after all. Why not open up?

Chapter: 15

Warnings: None

You tried to focus while in the shower but a feeling of guilt came over you for a split second. This was the first real time you managed to make Kai sad in the relationship. For someone as stoic as him, he always managed to show you his real side occasionally when alone together. You had never seen him more disappointed than tonight when at the dinner table. However, a part of you was threatening to smack yourself over it. Why should you have to give up this job you got in Japan and your entire apartment just to move in with him? He should move in with you instead! Suddenly the thought of Kai being cooped up in your little apartment while you were at work made you laugh. He’d probably be in there cleaning everything from head to toe until you’d come home from work. If he learned how to cook better, maybe he’d make dinner. Yeah...maybe it wasn’t a good idea if he lived with you. Still, you can’t just up and leave everything for him. Knowing him, he’d literally buy you a car to travel to and from work with. but that wouldn’t do much good either because he’d probably complain about not seeing you enough anyway. Pops would be ecstatic at the thought of having you here! The old man already welcomed you with such open arms that he left you alone with Kai in the house for 2 days straight. He speaks so highly of you so you know he really feels for you. It wouldn’t be so bad now that you thought about it, but you didn’t want to let go of that sense of independence so soon. What would Yuko think? You immediately finished your shower, dried off, and changed into pajamas before peeking out the doorway and seeing Kai not in the room. You shuffled to quietly close the door of the room before heading back into the bathroom and closing yourself in there too. You quickly picked up your phone and dialed up Yuko’s number, She picked up on the second ring as usual. “Calling your coworker on vacation? Wow, you really are a workaholic!” She didn’t waste her time in teasing you. “Oh hush up and listen! Okay so I’m at Kai’s house right now and-” Her loud excited squeal damn near busted the speaker AND your eardrum. “Oh my God, OH MY GOD! TELL ME EVERYTHING!” 

“I would if you’d stop screaming in my ear!” You laughed lightly. “Okay listen, things have been going great so far. I met his father and all of that when suddenly, get this. His dad bounces off on this random trip and leaves me to housesit by myself...with Kai.” 

“Ohhhhh you know he did that on purpose right?”

“Stop, cut it out.”

“No think about it! I had this ex girlfriend in high school and when we were together, her parents would leave us alone for the most bullshit reasons. Like one time they had to run errands at like 12:00 a.m while I was there. I think it’s pretty clear they just wanted us to have privacy at the time. I’m telling you, he’s definitely doing this on purpose” Yuko said. You sighed and thought about it for a second. “Okay yeah that’s probably why he suddenly had to go. Anyway, that’s beside the point! So me and him are eating tonight and he literally just randomly brought up that I should move in with him. Then he starts talking about how he can support me and I don’t have to work and-”

“So why didn’t you say YES?!” Yuko interrupted and you groaned. “Y/N it’s like a dream if I could just move into a nice house instead of my shitty apartment and never have to work again. Like why wouldn’t you want that???”

“Because I don’t want to have to depend on anyone whether he wants to give it to me or not! I mean I literally just moved here months back and got the job! I like having my own sense of achievement. I mean I love him and I’m not against the whole job thing but we haven’t even reached some of the important milestones in our relationship and oop-” You mentally slapped yourself when you realized you fucked up by telling her this. Yuko would hound you until you fessed up what you meant so you might as well come clean now. “I...what I mean by that is we just had our first kiss earlier today.” You waited for the pause and Yuko laughed. “Big deal! A lot of couples don’t kiss until a few months of dating!” 

“No Yuko...I mean this was his FIRST kiss in EVER.”

“Y/N...how uh...how old is he again?” 

“It doesn’t matter! Listen, the whole reason is because he a germaphobe I guess. I think for the most part I’m surely his first girlfriend/boyfriend/partner. But when we kissed today I felt like we could’ve gone further. That’s beside the point. Tonight will be the first night we sleep in the same bed together NOT SEXUALLY before you bring it up.” You paused to hear the huff in her voice. “Anyway, like I said. It’s too fast to jump from the first kiss to moving in together.” Yuko sighed over the line and waited before she replied. “I’m going to give you this last bit of advice before I get off the line because I need rest and I’m covering Sosuke’s shift tomorrow. Every relationship moves at it’s own pace when it comes to different people okay? While another couple could be on the other side of the city waiting 2 years before moving in together, there is another couple that dated for half a month and are already unpacking boxes in their new home. It’s all about communication, understanding, and compromise. You don’t have to do things because it’s the stereotypical thing to do. Just because its more common for the first kiss to come before moving in together doesn’t mean it applies to everyone. Besides, he is a germaphobe after all, so your relationship is unconventional to begin with. At the end of the day, it’s okay to stand your ground when you feel your independence is at stake, but don’t do it out of fear of losing something you can maintain just the same if you moved in with him. Whether that is tomorrow, 3 months from now, or 4 years.”

“...Thanks Yuko.”

“Anytime.”

After you got off the phone you left the bathroom and bedroom to find Kai on the couch. He was currently pretty invested in reruns of the show you watched together for sometime. “Rerun huh? Are you finally done poking holes in the plot?” You teased him and he suddenly turned his head to look at you. He smiled and nodded. “I figured I’d get caught up again before the new season comes out. Are you ready for bed Angel?” You nodded at him and silently went to the room. He turned the phone off and followed behind you. While you got settled into bed, he headed to take his own shower. When he finally came out, you turned to look at him in the dim light and smiled softly. “Kai you don’t need to force yourself for this.” He scoffed and rolled his eyes. “Oh please, it’s about time I took advantage of having an angel in my presence. Besides, I want to see what all the fuss is about when it comes to this cuddling business.” He spoke as he slipped under the covers and into bed with you. “Take it at your own pace.” You reassured him and he nodded. You turned so your back faced him, that way he didn’t have to possibly feel any pressure from having you look at him. Slowly but surely he carefully crept over to you. He cautiously closed the gap between you two and placed an arm around you as his face slowly fell onto the top of your head. The smell of his soap never really piqued his interest but it was different when you had showered with it. He took a long quiet inhale of your scent and hugged you a bit tighter. After a moment of blissful silence you finally spoke up. “Kai I’m uh sorry. Ab-about earlier I mean. It’s not that I don’t want to live with you or anything. I just don’t feel like right now is the best time. I don’t want you to have to jump at giving me an entire car to go to work or even supporting me if I quit. I’m not saying I won’t change my mind, but if you give me time to think on it then I know I’ll come to agree eventually.”

Summary: During dinner, Chisaki drops a complete bomb on you.

Chapter: 14

Warnings: Just Kai feenin for that body near the end. Other than that, it’s pretty clear.

“Hey man, I’m clocking out...whoa. You alright there Overhaul?” Chrono’s voice echoed in his office. He slowly lifted his head from his computer and stared up at the arrowhead. “No honestly I’m not. Thanks to your words I now feel like I have no time left and I absolutely have to act on my absurd, filthy urges with Y/N before Pops comes back. Plus I haven’t been able to focus on any of my work since then, so thanks a lot.” He grumbled while Chrono laughed it off. “Man you still on that junk?! Listen up, I was just messing with you a little bit when it came to the end of the conversation earlier. You have all the time in the world to do that stuff with her/him/them when you want to. It’s not like Pops won’t be leaving out on any more trips ever again you know. The next time he leaves you have another opportunity, and the time after that, and even further the time after that. Get it?” Hari was being reassuring and lifting some of the stress off of Kai’s shoulders. “If that’s the case, what if I’m actually ready tonight then?” Gold eyes peered up in curiosity and worry. “Then you’d bring it up and ask Y/N for consent, duh.” Hari rolled his eyes before turning away from his boss and childhood friend. “I wouldn’t overthink it. Taking things slow is okay too.” 

Kai was once again left alone with his thoughts. He decided the work was enough (not like he could focus on it anyway), and he closed down operation for the day so he could go see you again. When he went above-ground his nose was immediately assaulted with his favorite smell. He knew right away when he looked to see you setting the table with a cheap candles and a few takeout containers scattered about. “Special occasion I must’ve missed?” He smiled beneath his mask and took a seat at the table. “No special occasion handsome, just wanted to treat you was all.” You laid a kiss on his beaked mask like you did earlier and winked at him as you took your seat. He quickly removed it and smiled softly at you. “I genuinely don’t deserve this.” 

“I think you do. I care about you and I can tell you work pretty hard. Besides, I wanted to treat you since this is my last night here. I have to leave tomorrow after Pops gets back home. I’ve got to go back to work yknow.” When you reminded him, his heart sank. For a moment, while he ate, he zoned out and took in the environment. You and him at a dinner table sharing food together by the 5$ candle light. There was something oddly home-ish about it. The idea of coming back after work and seeing your smiling face waiting on him twisted up his insides and made him feel the same warmth he felt on your first date together. He wanted this all the time but Chrono was right about taking things slow...at least he thought so. But the longer Kai sat across from you and listened to you talk about your day while eating comfortably, the closer he came to a realization:

“Angel...move in with me.” You immediately dropped your utensil and stared at him in confusion. “HUH????” He sighed and looked at you with hopeful eyes. “Please? I can’t imagine coming back alone after dropping you off tomorrow. Please move in with me?”

“Kai I uh...to be honest with you, living here would be like a dream-”

“Great! I’ll have Rappa and Katsukame come get your furniture, and I’ll have Setsuno’s group help move some of the boxes. I’ll talk to your landlord and pay off any remaining balances leftover in the account. Then I’ll get-”

“Kai no.” You frowned at his expression.

“But...but you just said living here would be a dream correct? Having you here would be a dream come true for me. I can have everything handled so quickly and easily.”

“Yes living here would be a dream but I think it’s a bit too soon in the relationship for all of that right? I mean we’ve been together long enough but at the same time you just had your first kiss today. We haven’t even slept in the same bed yet!”

“Well we can tonight! Since it’s your last night before you have to go back. Why don’t you come stay after?”

“It’s not just that Chisaki. What about my job huh? I don’t have a car and I already have to walk from my apartment to the train station. I’d have to get up super early here to walk all that way and it would be dangerous too. I can’t just quit my job.”

“I have enough money to support you I can-”

“Kai no. At least not yet okay?” You looked at him apologetically but he still seemed pretty sad. An invisible lightbulb went off above your head as you quickly stood up and moved to his spot. “Wha-” Before he could even reply you landed a deep kiss on his lips like earlier. Now instead of sadness, his head was spinning. When you finally pulled back you winked at him. “I’m going to go take a shower.” Just like that you were gone off to the bathroom. He couldn’t even stop to think about being sad because now his feeling were all over the place. And what was the wink about? Was it an invitation? Were you messing with him? Was this you attempt to cheer him up or get his mind off of things? His mind was running a million miles an hour until he finally decided to get up and busy himself with tasks. He put away the leftovers, cleaned dishes, blew out the candle, and headed to the bedroom. While he made the bed with fresh sheets and pillowslips he could hear the water running from the bathroom. All he could think about in the moment was what you might’ve looked like with warm water droplets and steam rolling off your (s/c) skin as you scrubbed the suds away. 

*Kai standing in the corner of my room at 3 a.m waiting for me to get back to work on pivitol*

Summary: Pops leaves on his little trip and for the next 2 days it’s just you and Kai. He’s given you some important instructions that have less to do with cleaning and more to do with Chisaki himself. Meanwhile you get a feel for the house and the chores as well.

Chapter: 11

Warnings: None

You watched with a smile on your face as Kai fumbled around in the kitchen this morning. He seemed to be in a flurry while mumbling something about making you breakfast. This morning was going more smoothly than the night itself had went. The first time you spent the night with your boyfriend, you didn’t expect him to make a blanket pallet on the ground and resort to sleeping on it. This was especially true considering his aversion to germs. When you asked him about it this morning he had simply replied that he wanted to respect your space. You hadn’t told him how you really wanted him to join you. Maybe tonight you could do so? For now, you were busy trying to convince him that he didn’t have to push it so far. “Kai, are you sure you know how to cook? Y’know I can just have some cereal or we could even go out for breakfast! Hey these days, you can have it ordered and delivered too.” You laughed lightly as he dodged a falling box from the pantry. “I’m trying to be a good house guest and a good boyfriend as well you know. What good am I if I can’t offer homemade breakfast to my guest?” He spoke while reading instructions on the back of a box of pancakes. You sighed and gave up, standing to go find Pops while Kai struggled to make simple pancakes. 

While walking down the hallways you took note of the photos on the wall and the dust gathering in the corners of the glass and frame. Today when you took on the chores for the first time you’d make sure to come back with the duster for the pictures. “Good morning there my in-law!” Pops greeted you happily once you found your way to his room. Inside were two men you hadn’t met just one. One of them you recognized from the laundromat when you first met Chisaki. He was Nemoto. The other man you had never seen nor spoken to before. “Good morning Pops. Hello there uhhh...Pops friends?” You tilted your head and the old man chuckled. “My apologies y/n! This man to my right is Shin Nemoto, and the one on my left over here is Tengai Hekiji. I’ll be taking these boys with me on the trip because no one wants to travel alone at my age.” Pops joked with you. He zipped the bags and each man picked them up to carry it for him. “I’ve got some rundowns of things before I go, so please note them.” You nodded and eagerly listened to what he had to say, thinking it was going to be about home care when in all reality...

“So allow me to ask first of all if you don’t mind, how was the night with Chisaki?”

“Oh? Uh, it went fine I guess. If I can be honest with you Pops, I’m a little sad he didn’t want to sleep with me. He was spouting off about being respectful and then he ended up sleeping on the floor. I don’t know what to say. He’s touched my skin before, and I fell asleep on his shoulder a few times at my apartment when we’d watch TV together. I don’t understand why suddenly he’s opposed to touching me now.” You spilled your guts to your future father in law and the old man chuckled as he gently placed a hand on your head to pat it.

“Don’t let that boy fool you. He wants to touch you. You’re the only person he’s ever felt this way about before. You are the first girl/boy/person he has ever brought home to me. Do you have the idea of how bad he used to be before you came along? I know I told you about it already but it was rough. I suppose what I’m getting at is that he has feelings for you. My thoughts are that he probably was too shy to sleep in the same bed as you. Try giving him a little push tonight will you? And besides, here’s what I needed to tell you.” Pops continued and you listened intently while trying to ignore the warm thrum of your heart at hearing how much Kai cared for you. “The boy is shy whether he admits to it or not. I suppose what I’m really trying to say is that I need you help him come out of his shell. I’m not saying to rush things along but I AM saying that I really like you and already consider you family. Let’s see if maybe we can get him further on track with things and try breaking him from a bit of the germaphobia eh? If anyone can show him a relationship for the first time, I have full confidence it can be you. Can you do that for me?” 

“Yes sir, absolutely.” You smile and he returns it with a sudden hug. “I can’t wait to see you walk down the aisle someday.” You laugh nervously and pat his back. The old man was thinking a little far into the future but you can suppose it’s due to his desperation to see Chisaki be relatively normal for the first time in his life. In Pops opinion, seeing his boy hold hands is better than seeing him getting into street fights and selling drugs again. You were the silver lining and he was entrusting you to get a full wrangle on the situation once and for all. In other words: The old man really didn’t need to go on a trip at all. He simply used it as an excuse for you and Chisaki to get closer. You couldn’t complain though. By the time you were waving him away from your spot on the front porch, Kai emerged from the kitchen with a plate of burnt pancakes. “Let’s uh...let’s just have some cereal on the couch then.” He shyly rubbed the back of his head in embarrassment while you laughed. “So do you want to watch our show maybe?” He asked as you both took a seat on the couch. “Hmmm? Well to be honest with you we finished it recently. The new season doesn’t come out for a good couple of months. We can start something new if you want? You can even pick it out yourself!” He took a moment to pause and think it over. “To be honest with you, I’m not fully sure I’ve had just the time to watch many shows. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I work so often these days. My only true time of relaxing is when I’m with you after all. Here, let me see. If I read the descriptions then I might find something interesting enough.” He reached out and you handed him the remote. Surely enough he settled on some medical show. To be honest, it was a complete snooze fest yet you still watched it because spending time with him was more essential than the show itself. Once it ended, you were quick to get up and collect the dishes to wash. 

“Walk me through the chores, will you?” 

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