Might need to read what I've already wrote tho...

Well I was planning on working more on my fic this month (read as this year) however as always real life has gotten the grand idea of being a busy busy bee.

Honestly thought once the smallest spawn was in nursery (whatever childcare is for 2 year olds in your location) I would have more time to regain my identity as someone other than a carer, mother, housewife. Get back to enjoying making art, have a somewhat more social interaction in person, have time to relax and read fantastic stories by talented people on here or other sites. Be able to write my own fics and requests (sorry they're soooo late).

However the current childcare place is horrendous. My son, somehow had access to glass jars which he smashed (which they shouldn't even have in a room full of curious toddlers!) TWICE! They have said he doesn't settle enough to do the full time so have to collect him a full hour before the session ENDS. they've had to move him into the room with the babies cos he got over stimulated by the 20+ screaming toddlers, despite knowing our suspicions that he may have autism or adhd like his older brother as he showing some signs of it. Honestly worse thing we've done is place him in that setting.

Hopefully come September we can get him settled into a new childcare setting. They've already confirmed his place, we've had an actual walk around the building (didn't with current place), his little cousin will be starting at same time so ya know he's gonna have a more streefree time and will actually have a full session and not need to be collected early. They've also talked to their Senco about any additional support to help him after learning his older brother has adhd and that smallest spawn isn't really talking fully yet as others his age are.

However given what a stressful year it's been I've found my creative juices sealed shut for the last few months.

My hope is now that things are set in stone that I can pop that juicy smutty angsty bottle in the new year and get back to doing what I love again.

Feel so drained of creativeness lately. Just can't seem to shake it at all but want to write and draw and paint but just no energy.

It's been a tough week that's all I'll say.