I'm honestly fuckin watching myself die and I don't want to and I'm scared ok fun

why the hell am I so fucking embarrassed to talk about my depression and being on multiple medications why do I feel like people won't like me because of it!!!

I hate my job and I want to die so this is great

this time difference totally blows I might cry I have to deal with this until May

I finally kissed the cute boy I've been in love with forever March 19th will go down in history

a while back I messaged an uncle from my dads side of my family well my half uncle and I told him I'm leaving to Michigan over the summer and that before I go to Michigan and decide to permanently move there that I'd really like to meet him and my other uncles and my cousins and he totally ignored my message. idk if it's just because I'm so used to people loving me and wanting to be around me but it really hurt me and just thinking about it really makes me want to cry because the rejection just hurts so bad. i haven't even met him or any of them and he already doesn't want anything to do with me. i mean what can I do? nothing but ill be okay I guess

I'm pretty modest about my acceptances but fuck!!!! I worked hard for that 6th acceptance!!!!

IM GONNA SCREAM I HAVE A CRUSH ON A BOY!!!! FUCK!!!