#personal things...

To @supermcfluffinator , @cantfightfatetoo , and @selkiesstories.

The reply feature in my messaging still hasn't been fixed yet, but I just wanted to say thank you for all your well wishes! I miss you all so much, and can't wait to chat again soon! ❤❤❤💖💖💖

All the Love,

Pantalaimon is about 8-9 years old and today he stopped being able to walk on his own. Last night he was having trouble eating, so I stayed up all night making baby food from scratch and spoon feeding him to try and get his energy back. It’s not working out, and now he’s too weak to even stand…

We were planning on putting him down today, but once we called around we discovered that the process to euthanize smaller animals is actually FUCKING HORRIBLE and doesn’t involve putting them to sleep or even being in the same room as them. They are put in a small box, gassed, and then forced to have a heart attack.

Bull-fucking-shit!

That said, I’ve decided to lay by him and wait it out. He’s cold and needs the extra warmth. I don’t know if I’ll need space, and there for will disappear for a bit, or will need the people I know online as a distraction and come on tonight to draw and chat. This is tough for me because my first ferret to pass, and Pan’s sibling, died too suddenly to grieve ahead of time and the second died of old age in his sleep. This is far worse then both of those because for the past few months I’ve watched Pan get sicker and sicker.

Thankfully I still have Felix and Lina after this…sorry for the ramble. I don’t normally talk about my private life, but I needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening, if you took the time to read.

rules: in a text post, list ten books that have stayed with you in some way. don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you.

1.The Nature of Jade by Deb Caletti

2.The Orpheuss Obsession by Dakota Lane

3.The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett

4.Wicked Lovely by Melissa Marr

5.The Raven Boys by Maggie Stiefvater

6.The Outsiders by S. E. Hinton

7.Hawksong by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes

8.The Two Princesses of Bamarre by Gail Carson Levine

9.Tithe by Holly Black