#personal secrets

What’s something most people don’t know about you? We all have parts of our lives that remain hidden from others. While we might share certain aspects openly, there’s always something that stays tucked away. For me, there’s one thing most people don’t know—my deep passion for journaling and creative writing. It’s a part of me that brings joy, growth, and fulfillment, but I often keep it…

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and today he kisses me and tells me he loves me. caresses me and tells me to not be "so sad". when last night i dreamt of slitting my wrists while his words still pierced me violently. 

i am no one.

therefore i cannot love.

if i leave, my only thoughts will be to take my own life.

i can't keep swallowing my back my tears every time he looks at me. i can't defend myself in an endless battle of challenging me and my words. my words are nothing. i cannot say "i" because it proves that i am self absorbed. how can i fix myself. sorry is nothing. my beliefs are nothing. 

i stay silent.

But my boyfriend asked me if I might be infertile. And the truth is I don't know. Because my period cycle had started up again just 2yrs ago around christmas or new years and it was only until last July that my cycle began skipping months. 

At first I thought, maybe I am pregnant.. it wouldn't be so bad to have one but I honestly knew I couldn't handle an infant in the stage of life I was in. 

And then October came and I thought I had gotten my full length period back, but after a week it didn't stop. I'd have light cramping, some days the bleeding would stop and then continue all over again the next day. 

So I said I'd schedule an appointment to the doctors if it persisted, by then a full month had gone by and everyday there was blood-- heavy to light and heavy again. 

Having studied medicine before, my boyfriend got a second opinion from an old classmate and friend on why this was happening. He told me from the looks of it, I may have been having a miscarriage.

At the time I honestly didn't care if I had had a miscarriage. Because then I didn't have to go through the process of abortion and breaking up with my boyfriend who was strongly against it. 

Problem now is, since then I haven't had my menstrual. Which led to his question about infertility. From all the times not using contraceptives, and I'm still not pregnant, that may be the answer. 

I'm not too hurt about it though, because it's not surprising. I knew my cycle wouldn't last. 

But how could I get over not being able.. to give the person I love a creation of us. And we shouldn't jump to conclusions, but it's just so obvious that something is wrong.