#personal bologna

i dont want to date anymore. i just hate myself so much. i cant keep up with anything in my life and its just one more thing that freaks me out. i dont feel like a deserve to have fun or do nice things. i’ve been off my anti depressants for two days though, so thats probably not helping either. i cant believe i forgot to refill them. why cant i make myself do anything?i just feel like the worlds biggest piece of shit. im so behind on everything. i dont know if im up for going on a date tomorrow. i know that it will be good for me, but i dont want to meet new people right now. i just want to cry

god i hate living alone

I was doing so well! i’m just so angry with myself! but that’s a lot of my problem, how much i beat myself up. it’s normal. it’s understandable. i just can’t belief i let myself feel this way again. it’s so stupid, and i’m completely over reacting, so i don’t want to talk about it to anyone. But i feel so alone. i couldn’t sleep at all. that probably didn’t help. i just have to remind myself that it is normal and that i will make it through this. i just feel so stupid for getting myself in this situation, for over reacting this way. i just want it to stop.