I figured out the words as to why I have such a strong dislike for social media lately.
very vocal, upfront, in your face, constantly seeking validation from strangers/insignificant people.
I have the words to describe it now.
I am now content and am able to validate my own lack of presence on facebook, instagram, and twitter.
I mean, not to say that it was never valid, but yeah.
Tumblr’s a bit difference since the people I follow on here are not from any of my social circles I really regularly associated with in person from high school/college or physical/social media networking. It’s either really close friends that have stood the test of time, online friends, or blogs that follow my interest in music, aesthetics, food, culture, etc.
So that’s why my only online things I do regularly are browse tumblr or watch youtube videos or the occasional show.
I can consume the content at my own time and pace. And not have to associate the content with any painful, triggering, or hurtful past memories/people. The content I consume directly correlates to me.
and I am proud of myself idk why I’m getting emotional as I’m typing this.
I’m able to have some control of what I allow myself to view, at what pace, and how it makes me feel.
