the look you give when no one is listening to a single thing you have to say:
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the look you give when no one is listening to a single thing you have to say:

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[B]eating yourself over the head again and again with a terrible replay of a conversation that didnāt go the way you wanted it to, that is self-hate and itās helpful to just to say that and say hey, thatās self-hate. And when, I mean, I barely replay conversations but if I do, thatās what Iāll say, Iāll say, āHey, this is self-hate. I donāt need to do this anymore,ā or āI donāt do this,ā or āThatās not helpful,ā and Iāll just say that out loud like, āWhoa. Whoa. Thatās not helpful.ā And Iāve build this up, this pattern enough up to challenge that self-hate so then it doesnāt keep going, Iāll say, āWait a minute, thatās not helpful. I donāt need to do that. I donāt do that,ā and itās an identity statement for me itās like āHey, I donāt do that. Thatās not how I grow. Thatās not how I learn. Thatās not how I treat myself. I have more respect for myself than that.ā
as soon as Iām awake Iām right back into the mental swapping, this or that, this or that
The first computer I ever used was called the Kaypro...You would stick in two floppy disks, and then it would do a mysterious activity it called āswapping.ā You typed a bit; it swapped a bit. You typed a bit more; it swapped a bit more. You had to wait for it...Soon, however, frustration set in. Sometimes you could get in only a few words before the endless swapping began. There was nothing you could do while it was performing this mysterious procedure. You just had to wait for it to do its thing. Often, it wouldnāt stop, and you were faced with a dilemmaāsit there and watch it endlessly swap, hoping it would finish; or reboot...
I often think of that Kaypro in relation to a bad habit I have. Itās my inability to disengage from a topic that is causing me anxiety. A friend told me that thereās a psychological term for thisāāperseverating.ā I thought sheād made it up, but then I discovered that there really is such a word. My talent for perseverating is epic and usually fixes on a choice Iāve made that itās too late to change. The intensity of my perseveration has no connection to whatās at stake. Should I take a 6:00 a.m. flight or an 8:00 a.m. flight? Iāll choose the 6:00 a.m. (because it assures me of being at my destination in plenty of time), but then Iāll perseverate for days over whether Iāve made an error. Will I be exhausted when I get there? I should have gone at 8:00 a.m. But then again, what if the 8:00 a.m. was delayed? Then Iād miss the event. But what if I oversleep and miss the 6:00 a.m.?
I have certain tricks to stop myself from perseverating. As I did with the Kaypro, I can attempt a reboot. This usually involves a sleeping pill. The hope is that if I go to sleep in the middle of a fit of perseveration, Iāll wake up knowing the right choice or reconciled to the decision Iāve made or no longer concerned at all. Often this works. But often Iām like the purgatory version of the Kayproāas soon as Iām awake Iām right back into the mental swapping, this or that, this or that.
~ Will Schwalbe, from āLateral Thinkingā inĀ Books for a Living (Vintage, December 27, 2016)
3 weeks, and 2 days
The Blogger: It's set... if we're going to get through this we'll need to start with the basics. Instead of perseverating so much of why we're so scared of the repeal, we'll need to put the trust in the hands of fate itself. Fate to some people would be God, or a Superstition that they carefully follow. We'll still get the words across, yet in all honesty we'll probably have to use the KISS method in order for it to work. We have until the 23rd of April, to early parts of May at the latest.
Strange Boy: We got this!
The Blogger: So we're going to show them what we got ^_^
Strange Boy: *thumbs up*
Mom said something about avoiding being overtly political on my social media platforms... but do I ever listen?
ABSOLUTELY NOT!
In other words... I don't give a $#!+

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Of all the words I've perseverated on and made feel unreal, "sport" has got to be the most ALIEN sounding one of all time.
PTSD; The shadow realm that distorts reality:
dis-associative
disassociation
disconnect
Attempting to Resolve a plight⦠from another dimension.
Perseverating* about the past, or the future
Developing false narratives
Generating inherently faulty analogues.
Perseverate: repeat or prolong an action, thought, or utterance after the stimulus that prompted it has ceased. (New Oxford American Dictionary)
: continuation of something (such as an activity or thought) to an extreme degree or beyond a desired point. : specifically, psychology: the continual involuntary repetition of a thought or behavior. (Merrium-Webster)
āPeople who perseverate arenāt being defiant or stubborn. They have challenges that cause them to get stuck. They might struggle with managing stress,Ā processing information, shifting attention, or putting the brakes on certain behaviors or thoughts.ā (Amanda Morin) [emphasis mine]