“ i trust you with my life. ” - Adora
No. No, a voice screamed in her head as she heard to words slip from Adora’s lips. Trust wasn’t something that Catra deserved or at the very least it was something she had convinced herself she didn’t. Especially with someone else’s life. The Magicat struggled daily to even trust herself with her own life as thoughts plagued her mind with each daily struggle that passed by her. Every one reminded her of just how difficult each task had truly been. While the war was still going on she felt much more focused, directed, but now while she was free she couldn’t seem to concentrate on anything.
Basic things she should do slipped from her grasp, schedules she tried to make fell apart in her hands, the once proud commander of the Hoard fell from grace in the worst way possible as those thoughts continued to infect her. Everything from her past, every fear about what may come and how her life was stuck in an ever evolving story of misery and pain. While things may have gotten ‘better’ part of her wished it hadn’t.
Life was easier to understand when there was a clear goal but now the feeling of freedom suffocated her. Lost in a world that she couldn’t recognize anymore and now she was to be bestowed the trust of someone’s life? How could she ever manage to live up to the expectation that was given with those words...
“Why...?” Her voice came, shaky with fear, anxiety, terror of what Adora meant by those cursed words.